So I too am like so many of you who have been stalking these boards for the past 2 years, praying one day I would have my chance to post.
My story is a bit long, but it may bring hope to some of you so I thought I'd share....
This will be my third pregnancy, my first was in 2009, when I became pregnant for the first time (accidentally...but don't shoot me, I now completely understand how annoying people who get pregnant "accidentally" are) but at the time it was true. At my 14 week ultrasound I was told I would need to go to a neonatologist the next day as my scan was concerning. My baby was diagnosed with bilateral complete occlusions of his urethral valves, which meant he would have kidney damage, and also meant I had no amniotic fluid. Throughout the pregnancy we went for scan after scan, amniocentesis again and again, until we were told there was nothing that could be done, and if our baby survived the pregnancy, he would not survive after birth. He was born Dec 2, and lived for 90 of the best minutes of my life.
Following his loss, his father and I fell apart (there were many issues prior to his birth)
Fast forward 6 years, I am now happily married to the most patient and understanding man in the world and the love of my life. We both had had children previously, he has an beautiful 8 year old daughter and I had my angel baby. The Drs told us there would be no issues and just to "give it time". DH was 35 and I was 34 when we started trying. Fast forward 1 year, we finally convince our family dr to send us to a fertility specialist who tells us I don't ovulate regularly. Not a great surprise when you've been trying for a year already.
The dr put me on clomid and within 4 months I was ovulating! Yeah!!! Except....now, because of the almost year and a half of the stress of trying, DH, now has delayed ejaculation. Soooo, off the fertility clinic for IUI. DH's counts post wash are over 15 million, so we were good to go!
We did our first IUI in feb 2016 and we were ecstatic when we found out it was successful!!!
10 weeks later, while I was at work I started cramping and bleeding, which continued to progress and resulted in a miscarriage. I was devastated. I cried for days, all I've ever wanted was to be a mom and I finally felt like I would be complete. Now, I felt lost again.
The fertility clinic told us we could try again in July, but because of our work schedules, we were sure we'd have to wait until August. Luckily, our work schedules miraculously opened up, and we were able to do another IUI on July 29th
I'm now 12 dpiui and was convinced (I think as a self protection mechanism) that I wasn't pregnant) I thought I'd just take a test and then be able to move on and focus on our next step.
I was in complete shock when the test turned positive pretty quickly! I'm so relieved, so happy, and so terrified!
Ps: I haven't even gotten a chance to tell DH, he's away working right now. Gives me time to plan a great surprise for him!
Anyways ladies, just wanted to give you all hope. It has been an incredibly difficult journey for us. I've gone through hell and back, and yet here I am telling you it's possible. There is always hope.
Symptom wise...not a whole lot to be honest! A little nausea here and there, sore BB's, and intermittently teary and grouchy. 1 day post IUI was probably my biggest what the heck moment, when I could feel like a twisting, fluttering feeling on my left side, it was very obvious and made me stop in my tracks. Also had to wake up to pee in the first few days, and some crazy weird, vivid dreams! I don't know how reliable that is, but it was unusual for me.
Sorry! I know that was really long, but if it helps just one person, then I'm happy!
Baby dust to all of you!!!