I am cautiously pleased to say that I got my bfp yesterday, at 10dpo. Previous to this I thought I was out. I have had more symptoms in previous months when I haven't been pregnant! I am praying every minute of the day that my little baby stays put.
About us. We stopped using contraception over a year ago and nothing happened. Eight months ago some exciting career opportunities came up for me and my husband, so we decided to postpone ttc. Two months ago the broodiness got the better of me, and I told dh that I needed to try. The first month didn't work. 'Here we go again', I thought.
I used to use an app to track my symptoms but deleted it when we stopped TTC six months ago. Since we were trying again, I re-downloaded it last month and began to track my cycle in detail. I didn't use opks or temp.
CD 14: a small amount of ewcm, but enough to let me know that things were getting ready (I rarely get much), and mild pinching pain in left ovary area. Had a feeling that tomorrow would be the day. DTD pm. I prayed to God that this cycle would work. I prayed that all the conditions would be right for conception and implantaion to occur.
CD 15: (I suspect to be ovulation day) More pain in left side. EWCM all gone. DTD both AM and PM (to be sure!) I had a funny fuzzy feeling that I relate to ovulation and felt that in my head. I kept praying for the egg to be safe and meet a decent sperm en route!
1 dpo: I woke up feel lethargic and hungover, despite not drinking the previous night. I felt really heavy and slow.
2 dpo: I had some mild pains in my back. DTD am.
3 dpo: nothing
4 dpo: nothing
5 dpo: I woke up and immediately thought 'oh why did I drink so much last night?' then realised I had been sitting watching tv the previous night, with no alcoholic drinks consumed at all! So again, hungover feeling. I was very quiet all day, feeling quite subdued. That night we went out for a meal with friends and shared a few bottles of wine (I felt very doubtful of pregnancy). I started to get a headache in the pub and by the time we got home I felt horrendous! My sinuses hurt so much. Thinking it was the wine, I downed glasses and glasses of water and convinced that I would be very sick the next day.
6dpo: I woke up and my sinuses felt so sore. I thought it was a hangover and slept until 3 (we are on our holidays btw!) I had a sharp pain in my left waist but didnt think anything of it.
7dpo: Starving! I couldn't get enough to eat! I assumed it was due to my period coming the next week. Then I had a nother sharp pain in left waist and I thought, hmmm...what's this? I also continued to have pain in my left ovary as well as some stabby pains in breasts. I didn't know what to think. Dare I get excited? I got some cheapy hpts from Home Bargain. BFN (obviously lol)
8dpo: BFN. Pain in left waist. Pinching pain right under left hip bone. Pain going down my left outer thigh. More hunger, and a headache I usually get with ovulation. Also (embarrassingly) a bubbly, 'queefy' sort of feeling 'down there'. I started to get more suspicious. On 8 dpo I scrolled through my app to look at all the symptoms I had last year when I wasn't pregnant and realised that I had quite a lot of these symptoms nearly every months at some point. I realised that I was out, that I was fooling myself and was just waiting for my period. I felt really angry with myself and stupid for thinking it could be my time! I calmed down and decided that i had to leave it up to God and it wasn't my decision to make, and that He would give me a baby when the time was right.
9dpo: At dinner I started sweating at the dinner table (I'm a cold person normally). My forehead literally started to sweat and I had to go outside for a few minutes. I put it down to a stuffy kitchen after dinner has been cooked but my mum noticed it and thought it was uncharacteristic.
We then went for a nice walk to some lovely gardens owned by a nearby convent. There was a little shrine and I prayed that it wouldn't take me too long to conceive.
DH and I were still on holidays and had tickets to a music festival near us. I knew I wasn't pregnant and we had a very good time drinking lots and lots of booze, bopping about and even sharing a 10 pack of cigarettes! We had a fanastic time and really felt like we let our hair down! I didn't feel guilty as I was sure I was out.
10 dpo: I woke up feeling amazing and in a really lovely mood. DTD that morning, and at the 'end', felt a pain shoot from my cervix straight into my left breast. Weird. Then I thought...my period is due in 5 days and I don't feel it coming either. Surely it is coming? Isn't it?