So we finally did it... Its actually been a while (13 weeks pg today), BUT I couldnt post before, cause of the 12 week rule, and I myself could hardly believe its true...!
A bit on our background... We were ttc for 7 months when it finally happened. I am 28 in perfect health (Thank you God) and hubby,
41 also, but I did send him to a SA about 3 months in ttc cause I was freakin out why isnt it happening yet? They found his SA is ok, on the lower side but within the range of all the criteria (volume, count, motility), HOWEVER, only 2% morphology. I was devastated, I didnt really know what it means... Researching online helped me a bit, but as with every online research, you can find both ends of the extremes. There were stories of couples that had to have IVF, IUI or whatever (I forgot all these shortcuts by now, but back in the ttc days I was the EXPERT...) and I was just losing hope but... We kept trying. It was fun anyways. In the beginning I didnt really know EXACTLY when I ovulate anyways, and as the months went by I learned my body signs better.
However, every single month I was so so so so devastated to get AF. I dont have to tell any of you. Its like my world fell apart for that day (or two), until I decided yes, its actually now a new cycle, a new beginning. The baby was not meant to be now, and he will come at the right time. God decides all of this, and all we can do is make it possible to happen :).
Then one time my period wasnt coming and wasnt coming. I was getting hopeful, but also more stressed out, cause what if I didnt even ovulate at all? What if my body is going crazy and I am gonna be one of those that ovulate once every few months? Or what if menopause was coming early? I was really freaking out...
However, I never POAS until I was 7 days late. 7 days late exactly, I POAS and I didnt wanna look right away what is going on, but I did see. I saw that it turned bright red on BOTH lines RIGHT AWAY. I was shaking. I couldnt breathe. I could not believe my eyes. I thought I was in some dream. But I ran to hubby right away and showed him (it was a weekend). Omg. We were so thrilled. I think that day was the best day of my life EVER. It was the day after Christmas :). Our little choo-choo is a Christmas miracle :).
So all in all, I have now successfully passed the dreaded 12 weeks. Boy, was it tough. The worries if he will stick. The fatigue. Ohhh, the never ending fatigue!! The aversions to like EVERYTHING. Any sort of food and the smell of a kitchen made me nauseous. I could only eat fruit and orange juice. Sometimes yogurt. And then that passed and I was always so hungry but so nauseous and exhausted to fix myself something to eat. The irony in that. But after talking with a few girls, it seems to be the common :). Oh, it was really tough. Also winter, so I had no energy, to will to do anything.
Now, its still here and there. Some foods still make me nauseous, I still am tired... But at least I feel so much less worried that its REALLY happened and that he will stick.
Thank you God for this miracle.
It is the greatest thing that ever happened to me in my life.
I wish you all girls, to one day post a story like mine.
And the bottom line is, we were a totally healthy couple (except for the morphology...), and it happened within 7 months anyways. The funniest thing is that that month (before I knew), I bought FertilAid for hubby and PreSeed for us. The whole time we used nothing, just au naturale 100%. So... Sometimes it just takes time even if everything is ok. And sometimes it can happen just like that even if there are "problems". The point is, there is no such thing as "relax, and it will happen". If you want a baby, you want it so much, you cannot think about anything else and all these "tips and helping comments" dont really matter. So my advise is, just have sex ALL THE TIME. We did it like every day since the end of AF till like CD 20. Really, no such thing as every other day and crap. The more, the better, the greater the chances. I think that is what made it work for us. We just did it all the time. (In the beginning, every other day and stuff like it was advised).
So girls, NEVER GIVE UP. Keep praying and keep trying and keep being hopeful.
I know we were very lucky for it to take "just" 7 months. I know there are a bunch out there that have been trying for so much longer... But it will happen. It really will. If its meant to be, if its Gods way, it will happen at the right time.
My heart goes out to all of you <3