First, I want to thank you. Your stories have all been an unwavering source of strength for me as we were TTC after two miscarriages last year.
I hope this long post does not dissuade you from reading this, as I believe it will give many of you hope.
I am 39. My husband is 43. We have no children. I have high FSH and low AMH (the double nail in the coffin, according to most fertility specialists).
Last year, I was pregnant for 6 months of the year, but one 10 week miscarriage and another miscarriage just shy of 16 weeks (due to a genetic abnormality) dashed our dreams of a family. The RE we saw said our best chance was conceiving naturally. My body did not respond to the drugs meant to trigger egg production (Gonal F).
This morning, 10 DPO, I could not bear the TWW any longer and tested. And there it was, clear as day, my double line. I am of course elated but (honestly) full of fear and trepidation at the same time. I am praying this will be lucky #3.
Here's what I think made the biggest difference:
I started paying attention to cervical mucous as the #1 indicator of my fertile window. It took me a while to get this, as I think I was overly reliant on tests to indicate fertility. I watched for egg white cervical mucous like a hawk, knowing this was my body's way of telling me: GREEN LIGHT.
I religiously took:
-A prenatal vitamin everyday
-CO-Q10 (UBIQUINOL- this is critical) - 600 mg/day (it's expensive but worth it)
-Vitex (800 mg)
-Royal Jelly (2000 mg/day)
-Maca (750 mg)
-Wheat grass in a shake every morning
I also resigned from my (high-powered, stressful) job to alleviate stress. I came to the (difficult) conclusion that the money wasn't worth the downside of being in a toxic work environment when my first priority was to have a baby. Toxic environments don't help create the harmony to conceive.
I took a step back from the fertility clinics, the meds (which made it impossible to stay in touch with the regular rhythm of my body, and left me tired and depressed) and tried to put faith back into MY own biological, innate power to conceive.
As for cycle tracking, I used Fertility Friend on my desktop, Ovia (on my iPhone) and an ovulation predicator kit to time sex. (The OPK, interestingly, said I ovulated on day 9 and again, 5 days later.) Ladies again, I watched for EWCM to refine the timing.
I tried to do at least 10,000 steps everyday, and get as much fresh air as possible.
And for the spiritual among you: family and friends prayed for me.
A couple of days ago, I had very minor spotting: a faint pink mixed with the finest darker (brownish) spots. This morning, again, the faintest, faintest pink, almost indiscernible.
At 6:30 am, despite my friends saying I should wait to avoid disappointment from early testing, I got my BFP. I cried, alone in the bathroom. It was a faint line at 10 DPO but there it was without a doubt, staring back at me.
I will say prayers for all of you, and hope this one sticks.