This journey has been so long and so full of grief that it is only with the greatest amount of joy that I can finally share our good news!
Hubby and I have been ttc for almost exactly 2 years now. It took us 8 months and the help of Vitex to get our first bfp which ended just as quickly as it came. It was a chemical pregnancy with a beta of 5. We were really sad but excited it meant we could conceive. We got lucky 2 months later with another bfp. Another chemical.
We then started seeing an RE last January because we were feeling so desperate and wanted answers. It didn't take long for the doctor to discover that I have PCOS. Diagnosis was made on account that I had about 20 follicles on each ovary and irregular cycles ranging from 35-50 days and an off balance LH and FSH ratio.
I started researching online about PCOS and could only really find information about women who struggled with weight and/or insulin. I couldn't relate as I'm 5'5 weighing 120 pounds. I couldn't wrap my head around this diagnosis and moreover, had a really hard time finding any information on success stories. Anything I did find about women like me was that it was harder for us to get pregnant.
We started with the treatment the RE suggested in April of 2015 which was Clomid & trigger shot. We got pregnant the first cycle and guess what?! Another chemical…with a beta of 3. I was devastated. I lost a lot of hope that my body could do this. We did go on to try 3 more cycles, one with an IUI but all were bfn. We were emotionally, spiritually, and physically exhausted. We were done trying treatments at that point.
By late August of 2015 we were talking very seriously about adoption and moved forward in finding an agency. As a last ditch effort and a "why not?" attitude, I asked my RE if I could give Metformin a try. I didn't struggle with insulin issues but everything I read online was very positive about women with PCOS taking this drug regardless of whether they had insulin resisitance. Thankfully he agreed and I started the meds (1700 mg per day). I only had side effects for one day and otherwise did just fine on it.
Fast forward to December 29th when I got a very positive OPK. Between all the family get togethers and what not, it made bd a little tricky but we made it work. We bd every two days, very chill, nothing like we had been doing before when we were actively ttc. At this point, we were going to be submitting our adoption application at the beginning of January when we got back a letter of recommendation from our pastor.
Well, that letter kept getting delayed and by Jan 7th, I was holding my first positive test. It was the earliest I'd ever tested at 9dpo and had a faint line on a wondfro. Told hubby that night but neither of us had our hopes up, we knew what faint lines meant. But in the back of my mind I knew it was early. Tested two days later on an FRER and had the darkest line I'd ever had. Two days later at 13dpo it was as dark as the control and I had nausea and aversion to coffee (my favorite). By 14dpo (yesterday), the RE's office called me with my beta results……218!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had been hoping for anything over 60 but 218, that was the confirmation we needed to hear to believe this was real!! I'll go back tomorrow to make sure those numbers double.
I have so much worry already about this pregnancy but I am holding onto the joy that my body CAN do this and that today, I am pregnant. We prayed a lot during this journey, obviously for a baby at the end of it but mostly that God would keep our hearts from becoming bitter. We never wanted to become blind to all the other things in life that we had to be thankful for. We used our time in "waiting" to draw closer to Him and to each other. If we had to do it over again, we would't change the struggle. The struggle amplified the beauty of this moment, right now.
Main symptoms in the two week wait:
-Sore boobs almost immediately after ovulation. The soreness started in one spot on the front under the nipples and moved to the sides.
-Aversion to coffee. Wave of nausea after drinking it about 8-9dpo
-Slight insomnia which is weird for me because I'm a heavy sleeper who can sleep through anything. Started waking up a lot throughout the night, started 8-9dpo
-Hungry non-stop about 12dpo-now
-Absolutely no cm
-Dog peed on the bed while I was laying in it, very uncharacteristic. Also started protecting me from other dogs
I wish you all the best in your journey. If yours is taking longer than planned, please never lose sight of the goodness in life. If you have a strong desire to be a mom and it doesn't feel like it will ever happen, know that God creates families all the time whether biologically or through adoption. Love is what makes a family.