Wow. I am seriously in disbelief! And a little scared cause I'm still a day before AF is due, but I'm 12-13 dpo (for once I didn't keep track exactly!) and I've taken SIX tests since yesterday all BFP! Even still my DH doesn't believe it.
I am 36 and this is a first. I have been TTC for about 14 months total over the last 2 years. I always used a lot of tests, never a BFP. For a while I even gave up TTC and used birth control again because I would get so so stressed near the time AF was due and didn't want to have to even think about it, I needed a break from even *secretly* thinking about it, which is what happens when I try to pretend I don't care. I am very VERY obsessive and I know myself, so for a few good months we used BC. Last summer I wanted a free summer without TTC because of how stressed it made me! Also, I have actually been a bit back and forth whether having children is the right thing for me. I very much enjoy my life the way it is, and so it has never been a do or die situation. But- my sister (age 35) recently got pregnant with her first so I have to say I've been having some preg/baby envy! And I come from a big family and I know that family is so very good and fulfilling and very wonderful.
We only BD'd ONE TIME during my OV time so don't let anyone tell you that THAT can't happen! It was only one time, but it was a special, different kind. The kind that was because I wanted to and not because I wanted to TTC. You don't have to do it every day like crazy (like most of my GFs told me I did!) It just took a little extra sensuality :)
OK, symptoms (I know that's the real reason y'all are here!:)
First off, I had LESS twinges, pains, and weirdness than most other months! Nothing hardly! I have ovarian cysts that get pretty huge, and cause a lot of pain, but nothing really this month, besides a little regular ovulation bloaty pain. I didn't notice ANYTHING til maybe 6 DPO-when I had really weird dreamish visions -as I was going to sleep- of lizards and mice and other small animals digging themselves into dirt. It was TOTALLY random and bizarre and the idea of a sperm to an egg did cross my mind.
7dpo- Crazy dreams, super memorable and vivid.
8dpo- went running and got really sick to my stomach. Never really happens. CRAZY DREAMS! So vivid!
9dpo- CRAZY DREAMS! BB really really tender.
10dpo Woke up stomach growling, so so hungry in the AM, which never happens. BBs really really tender. Still having insane dreams.
11dpo- Woke up ravenous! while driving ate a PB &J and a hardboiled egg. Was starving before but felt sick after. Have a stomach of iron so thought that was weird. BBs still super sore, in the middle. Had 1.5 glasses of wine, felt totally DRUNK! (Sorry I am not a stickler to the rules as far as no drinking whatsoever when TTC).
12dpo- OK this was the thing that stood out. I have read that some women get a sore throat but other than that feel pretty OK. My left side of my throat was hurting, and my mouth felt sensitive and weird. But my glands on my neck weren't swollen. Usually, if I am ever sick it's the right side that hurts first or the most, so I thought this really odd. Took a HPT around 2pm, faint line but BFP, COULD NOT BELIEVE it!!!! Drank more water took another- still BFP! Also, DH and I BD'd in the AM and there was a tiny bit of pinkish on tissue. It was pre- the HPT so I thought for sure I was starting AF early. Later, a possible symptom, I had a dizzy spell while sitting working on homework, felt like I was going to faint! Then- Late at night, one last HPT, BFP.
13dpo- woke up no sore BBs! Weirded out and scared took a HPT again. Positive! BBs started hurting again tonight. Other than that and a mildish headache here and there I feel nothing much. Not hungry, no cramps, nothing! Oh, a tiny tiny bit of pink on toilet paper.
I sure hope everything is in working order! But I know that God/ the universe has a way of making everything happen when it is meant to. I truly believe that. I hope this one sticks but even if anything happened I am so grateful to know that I CAN get pregnant in the first place! I bet most of you can too! Just keep your thoughts positive and know that you WILL have the life you are meant to live. You will. There is so much goodness and richness and love all around you.