I am so grateful I’ve fallen pregnant again, I hope this is a sticky bean, so far it looks like it’s here to stay. This will be my first. I started TTC when I was 38 years old with a private donor (friend) but after 6 months of home insemination nothing had happened other than a chemical pregnancy. I was freaking out about my age and having read so much horror stories online, I was sure my age and old eggs was the issue. We went to a fertility clinic for IUI treatment and blood work and examinations and it turned out I was fine but my donor had rather bad sperm count and low motility, but not so low that we had to go directly to IVF/ICSI. The doctor was convinced that my age was not a problem as my numbers were all great. Yet in the next many months I had two more chemicals and nothing else happened. Finally after 10 months of trying with Chlomid, Puregon, trigger shot and IUI I finally got that BFP!! Unfortunately I miscarried at 5 weeks pregnant just few days before my 40th birthday. I was devastated. Again I was sure advanced maternal age had something to do with it, women over 40 miscarrying more often than younger women and so scared it was now too late and I would never fall pregnant again. Again the doctor was sure it had more to do with the quality of the sperm rather than my age and kept telling my numbers were perfect. For the next four months we tried again but nothing happened. Having had three chemicals and a miscarriage I was send to an expert in recurrent miscarriage. Before our appointment was due my friend backed out and decided not to be a part of it anymore. It was another blow. We had been in this together and now I was all alone. The new doctor too thought my numbers were too good to be the issue and with no blocked tubes and a very high AMH and low FSH he told me my age was not likely to be the cause of recurrent miscarriage but probably had to do with the quality of the sperm as bad sperm quality is more likely to result in miscarriage than healthy sperm. He suggested trying IUI with a donor a few more times and then go on to IVF Having read even more bad stories of older women trying to conceive for the first time I was not convinced. I was freaking myself out with stories of old eggs and problems conceiving. Then I started loosely dating a guy for a short while and used the break from the treatment to think about my situation, if I should continue with IUI with a donor or if I should go directly to IVF. The date and I found out about a month into it that it just wasn’t the of us and I was ready to move on to donor Ivf. While waiting to begin treatment again I bumped into the ex-date and after a night with drinks (too many) we ended up in bed. Well AF never arrived and there was no need to start donor ivf – I was pregnant! Completely unexpected, although I had this gut feeling from the start that I might be pregnant. The guy even ended up being quite thrilled about it, even though we are both sure we are not going to date again. Miracles do happen – and I guess the doctors were right, I do not have bad quality eggs.
I think I ovulated 4 days after having sex because I felt ovulation pain that day but looking at my dpo timeline, it looks like I O’ed a few days earlier.
1 dpo – absolutely nothing
2 dpo – sudden strange sensation in both ovaries
3 dpo – AF-like pain and more ovary sensation??
4 dpo – vivid dreams, woke up from a nightmare.
5 dpo – again woke from a nightmare in the middle of the night.
6 dpo – suddenly nothing at all.
7 dpo – woke up in the middle of the night crying, overly emotional all day, strangely heavy breasts, sore nipples, feels like the beginning of a cold, sore throat, sneezing.
8 dpo – suddently nothing, soreness gone, throat fine - what???
9 dpo – constipation, hot and cold, stabbing pain below, not sure if it’s my intestines, my lower back or my uterus, it just feels all sore down there.
10 dpo – vivid happy dreams, more pain in pelvic area, suddenly ewcm like around ovulation??
11 dpo - had a vivid dream about hanging out with a group of soldiers who all appeared to be very fertile (somehow I knew they were in my dream) – what a weird dream!! Woke up from that weird dream in the middle of the night, fell asleep again and dreamed the exact same dream again. Woke up with AF pain and thought it would arrive three days early, it freaked me out because shortened periods is a sign of declining ovarian reserve. Everything is so weird I decide to poas and do a leftover ovulation test – it’s positive!!! I’m quite sure I’m pregnant but unsure a pregnancy test will show two lines as clearly as the ovulation test this early. Decide to wait a few more days.
12 dpo – brown spotting, sure it’s all over. Period is too early. No need to take a pregnancy test.