Hi everyone, so here I am again posting my second BFP story, I can’t believe it! I posted my first one in June 2013, but sadly it wasn’t to be as my son Frankie was born sleeping on 29th November 2013 when I was 33 weeks pregnant with him (I’ve tried to find my BFP story in the archive on this site, but I can’t locate it). I knew he was going to have a severe cleft lip and palate as that was picked up at my 5 month scan, but after he was born tests revealed that he had an extremely rare duplication on chromosome 15, which meant he would have been very severely mentally and physically disabled on top of the cleft lip and palate.
I’d had six previous miscarriages at 6-8 weeks prior to my BFP in June 2013, but these were deemed to be as a result of a problem that my ex-husband had with a very high percentage of abnormal sperm. My son who was born sleeping was my first pregnancy with my second husband as I remarried. We had the year from hell last year as on top of losing our much loved and much wanted son we lost several close family members including my father in law, endured redundancies, bullying and betrayal by so-called friends so the whole year seemed nothing else other than death, loss, death, loss, death, loss – it was relentless. Thankfully things settled down a bit towards new year and lo and behold, now that all of that seems to be behind us, I get a BFP!
I’m scared to death to be honest, I am happy and elated to see the word “pregnant” on the digital test but I’m petrified that the same thing is going to happen again. But I’m trying to be positive and change my mind set to truly believe that I will take this baby home and it will be my long awaited miracle as I’ve been trying for a baby since I was 28, and I’m now 41.
So, here are my symptoms, which I hope will help any of you reading this hoping for your BFP:
1-5 DPO – nothing worth noting apart from sore BB’s, but I get that anyway before AF.
6 DPO – went a little dizzy/lightheaded when I bent down to pick up a book I had dropped.
7 DPO – exhausted, and I mean exhausted! I found an internet cheapie test in my bathroom cupboard and stupidly did it, BFN – obvious really as it was WAY too early!
8-9 DPO – thought I was getting a cold as I had a bit of a sore/dry/tickly throat, still really tired every evening.
10 DPO – still very tired.
11 DPO – thought I was out as when I wiped I had a bit of pink which usually signifies AF is on the way. Got disappointed and while out doing the weekly shopping stocked up on towels and tampons ready for the witch to arrive.
12 DPO – normally when I get a bit of spotting before AF my BB’s start hurting less. This time they didn’t, they hurt more. In fact they felt like they were on fire!
13 DPO - AF due to start, and nothing. BB’s still hurt like mad, still tired and I went light headed again while making a sandwich for lunch. Popped to the supermarket for a couple of bits I needed and bought a check and date clearblue pack. Promised myself I wouldn’t test until at least 15-16 DPO if AF hadn’t showed.
14 DPO – woke up feeling quite icky and sick. Had a carpet fitted in one of my rooms upstairs at lunchtime by one of my Dad’s mates, my Dad went out and bought fish and chips for lunch for him. The smell of it made me gag and normally I love fish and chips and the smell of them, so I decided to test. I used the ordinary clearblue test first – a line came up instantly – BFP!!! I couldn’t believe it! Decided to do the digital test that was also in the pack later to confirm – BFP 1-2 weeks!
I didn’t really do anything different this month – last year I was a bit obsessed with getting pregnant again, trying to time BD’ing with my husband at the “right” times, using OPK’s, ate healthily, didn’t drink at all, did gentle exercise, I took pre-natal vitamins/folic acid, using pre-seed, leaving my legs the air afterwards, doing everything “right” – but nothing. I honestly believe that it didn’t happen last year because of all the stress and death and loss we went through. This cycle I didn’t use OPK’s and relaxed a lot more – lo and behold – BFP!
I told my husband by going out to get a Valentine’s card, putting the two tests in and writing in it “Happy early Valentines Day....let’s stay positive, like these tests xxx” and I included the rhyme “Roses are red, violets are blue, if all goes well, October is when it’s due”. He opened it when he got home from work and he was speechless!
I have a LONG road to go down with lots of milestones. I’m booking in at the doctors next week as I am going away for Valentines Weekend and a few days isn’t going to make much difference in the grand scheme of things. There isn’t really anything the doctor can do other than book me in for an early scan and even if I were to go now they probably wouldn’t see very much if anything.