I have read so many posts on this website whilst trying to conceive... I can hardly believe that I'm writing this! :-)
I have been trying to conceive with 4 cycles not being pregnant. This was to be my 5th, and found out yesterday that I seem to be pregnant! (Can't quite believe it yet)
I have endometriosis (stage 1), and had laparoscopy surgery & treatment with helica therma coagulator 8 months ago. After my surgery - I had more pain than ever & the most painful cycles I've ever had in my life. I felt that the treatment had failed and was distraught - thinking I was becoming infertile. I was extremely despondent and anxious.
I changed my diet completely about 3 months ago...I restricted my caffeine, wheat & dairy intake. I also started taking Seven Seas 'trying to conceive' vitamins along with an omega 3 capsule. My energy levels were better & I felt more hopeful but with every cycle it made me feel like I'd never conceive.
Last month, something hit home and changed my whole attitude to conception...helping me to relax about the whole thing... It's difficult to explain, but I'll try to explain, just in case somebody reading this, experiencing the anxiety I experienced is helped.... I realised that our bodies aren't made to always fall pregnant at every cycle. It's a difficult journey for the sperm - and for good reason. So that we can enjoy sex and not always fall pregnant. God made it a little difficult and for good reason.
I realised then that it would be far better to just let nature take its course the way God designed reproduction. To see sex as something we do to enhance our marriage, not be scared or fearful of infertility when not falling pregnant. It just might not be 'meant to be' that month...and it's perfectly normal biologically. Sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesn't...that's just the way it is. (I'm talking about healthy couples...not people with known medical conditions who need treatment).
This way of thinking was extremely 'freeing' for me.
I also determined to appreciate all that I DO have, because longing for a baby can make you feel very discontented, which really isn't good for your well-being.
So, I relaxed, and prayed that Gods will be done and accepted that it might not be his will for me to fall pregnant right now.
We have made love every second day through the month apart from once or twice. I didn't check the calendar at any point to see when I was ovulating, I noted nothing, I put it to the back of my head and told myself it might be another year yet, so not to fuss about it. The less I focused on it - the more I could relax, and the less pressured the sex was.
I have a 31-34 day cycle which is due around about now - and I've had some pain which seems like my usual endometriosis pain in the run up to it, so I thought, 'ok, this is sad, another month, but it is what it is' ..... I had a spare pregnancy test in the bathroom and decided to take it to confirm no pregnancy.
I used it, watched it for a minute...no line...so I left it.
Forgot about it.
10 Mins later I walked past it and picked it up....I see a faint faint faint line....I couldn't believe it!!!!! I was hesitant to jump to conclusions but knew that no other tests had shown any line at all.
My husband purchased a first response test pack last night and I took one this morning. What do you know...a clearer line!
(I've attached a photo of both)
So I guess I'm pregnant! :-)
I'm very happy, but too scared to accept it fully yet - just in case...early days!
Weird thing is - I do not feel pregnant. I feel no different. Apart from feeling extremely emotional 5 days ago - nothing out of the ordinary. No tiredness, no sore breasts, nothing! I guess that's all to come...still very early days.
My advice to anybody in my position is to do all you can to mentally relax...tell yourself that it might still be a year, keep telling yourself that...and try to have 'pressure-less' intercourse every second day for your cycle. Try not to note your ovulation (it only makes you worry if you should have done it this day or that day/time). Just relax and try to accept that whatever will be will be. Also, try to appreciate all that you do have!
Hoping this pregnancy continues & wishing you all the same positive experience.
God bless you all :)