My BFP Journey – it’s taken a while!
So some background:
Me – 30 and never been pregnant (not even a smidge)
Husband – 32 and no children. Good quality sperm but normal form was 2% rather than 4%
My husband and I started trying in June 2013. By October 2014, nothing had happened and I had turned into a bit of a wreck so I went to see a gynaecologist privately with work insurance. (I had been to the GP in August but they just did blood tests and told me to come back in 6 months).
He instantly said my periods weren’t right, they have always been heavy and varied in length. He suspected endo, something I was also worried about.
I had a hysteroscopy and laparoscopy in November 2014. Lots of scarring found including a big ol’ cyst on one of my ovaries. He cleared it all up and gave me 4 months to conceive.
4 months came and went and I still wasn’t pregnant so went back to the GP and got referred on the NHS back to the same gynaecologist. Wasn’t really sure what to expect but he instantly referred me for ivf, a bit of a surprise! By the time I had more blood tests (hormones fine) and waited for my appointment, I started my first ivf cycle in June 2015.
After 3 weeks sniffing the hormones, the cycle had to be cancelled due to fluid in the uterus, it had to be removed with a hysteroscopy. Disappointing but I was going on holiday in August and the time scales were getting stressful so we decided to start again in September. Had the op beginning of September where he found no fluid (wtf).
Ivf cycle 2 started up again in September.
I was put on a short protocol and didn’t respond amazingly to the drugs. I only had 4-5 follicles developing and when I had my egg retrieval on 12 October, they only got 2 embryos.
Both embryo’s fertilised and I had two grade 1 embryos put back in on a 3 day transfer. We had the option of putting one in the freezer but we decided to go for ‘all or nothing’!
So my Two Week Wait went like this:
1dp3dt - nothing
2dp3dt - nothing
3dp3dt – I woke up in the morning having the most INTENSE orgasm dream of my life. I have had these before but never with the severity. As soon as I woke it turned into extremely painful low uterine cramps, it lasted about half an hour and only shifted with 2 bowel movements. I thought there is no way embryos could stick to my uterine wall after that. Although I wasn’t told not to have orgasm’s if you read online, it is a big no no to have any contractions. Has anyone else had this?!
4dp3dt - nothing
5dp3dt - a few jabby pains that got my attention but after egg retrieval (HOW PAINFUL IS THAT?!) everything was sore and bloated.
6dp3dt – Same, a few jabby pains
7dp3dt - Nothing
8dp3dt - BFN in the morning. I start spotting brown and presume it’s the beginning of my period as that is how it always starts.
9dp3dt – Heavier brown spotting. Sore boobs but I have had that since transfer, put it down to progesterone. I’m at a wedding and think fuck it so have a few drinks and shots.
10dp3dt – Spotting lighter and still brown but now have cramps that are EXACTLY the same as the day before my period would be. Seriously glum now and tell my husband, parents and sister that the whole things is over. Put a tampon in and go to bed expecting AF in the morning. Don’t bother doing progesterone suppositories.
11dp3dt – Go to the shop and buy a pregnancy test first thing just so I can get it out the way. Husband wishes me good luck and I tell him I don’t need good luck because ‘we all know what the result will be’. To my amazement, I get a BFP within seconds and within 2 minutes it is darker than the control line!!! Aches and cramps continue throughout the day. Phone the nurse at the hospital because I am now nervous about the spotting and she says to have ‘cautious optimism’ but it is very good news!
12dp3dt – spotting and aching have subsided. Boobs are still sore but nipples aren’t anymore.
Things I have learnt
- After ttc for 2.5 years, I thought I would instantly know that I was pregnant and something would be different. There was absolutely nothing different to my BFP and the build up to my normal period. I can’t believe how similar the cramps and aches were. Basically, you know nothing until you get a bfp!
- Don’t worry about having an orgasm! The uterine contractions I had after my dream were so strong, I honestly think if an embryo is going to stick it will
- I did the 5 day pineapple thing and ate brazil nuts every day but that was it.
- I really enjoyed doing the Zita West ivf positive visualisation CD. I tried to do it most days and always felt really good afterwards.