My husband and I had been TTC for 1 1/2 years. We never thought it would be this difficult to get pregnant. A few months after we started TTC (with no luck), we had a ridiculous number of friends and family announce their pregnancies. It felt like a huge slap in the face. Everyone was getting pregnant, but no matter how hard we tried it just wasn't happening for us.
After 3 months of trying naturally, we went to the OB/GYN. We would have tried naturally longer but I suspected problems, as I had always had irregular cycles. Three months of Clomid did nothing for us. I ovulated each month but did not conceive. That was a crappy holiday season.
The next move was to go to an RE. At the first appointment I was diagnosed with PCOS and given Letrozole (Femara)--we did this with IUI. Again, I ovulated each of the 3 months but did not conceive. It was getting more difficult each time we had to take a new step. Next was Femara with injectables and IUI. I hate getting shots, so I did not want to do this, but we pushed on and still had no luck. We then had to make the huge choice of trying IVF. Thankfully we did a money-back guarantee program which gave us 3 fresh and 3 frozen cycles. The doc gave me very low doses of meds for the 1st IUI because I was at risk of overstimulating, due to PCOS. Unfortunately it only yielded 3 eggs, 2 of which fertilized. We also had to do ICSI, which we found out at the last minute. After a 2-day transfer of both embryos, we later found that this IVF failed. We were devastated. At this point I really thought that I would never get pregnant.
Last month we did another try at IVF/ICSI. I was prescribed double the amount of medicine, and thankfully this helped because I got 17 eggs out of it. I was incapacitated over Thanksgiving due to the egg retrieval, so I missed out on family stuff, which was actually ok because I was still in a huge funk over everything we had been going through. We made it to a 5-day transfer, but only had 2 embryos and none to freeze. I was distraught about having none to freeze, but still hopeful as we had a 3AA embryo and a 3AB embryo that was kind of an oblong shape.
The worst part about this cycle came about a week after transfer. I swore I was starting my period. I couldn't find any information online about this, but I'm pretty sure this is what happened: when you do IVF you are on a ton of medication. Starting around the week of ET/ER my boobs started swelling and getting firmer/painful, especially on the sides and tops. This happened every single month that we had been trying, and usually went away/went back to normal about 2 days before my period. Around 5 days after my ET I noticed that my boobs were getting softer and less painful. At the same time, I was starting to get those low, warm-feeling period cramps. My CM was the same as it was before a period. I just KNEW I was about to see AF and was really depressed. I wore a liner for the next 2 days, but AF never came. I asked the nurse if it was possible that symptoms could go away as the medication started wearing off, but that I could still be pregnant. She said she had never heard of that but that anything was possible. Well, I'm pretty sure that is what happened, because a couple of days later my boobs started getting perky/swollen/painful again and I started getting better feelings. My CM was still the exact same (wet, clear), and I was still getting what I thought were period cramps but they were very dull and didn't last very long.
I wanted to wait until the day before my beta to test, but 3 days prior to that I just had a feeling it had worked out, so I tested at night (after holding it in for 4 hours). It did not take long for my first, beautiful BFP to show up. I truly never thought I'd see the day. We were shocked and thrilled. It was a weird feeling, because after getting negative tests for a year and a half I really never thought I'd finally get a positive. We were very happy, but cautiously optimistic. Although we got our BFP, after everything we have gone through I am still nervous every day that something might happen. Trying to stay positive, though.
As long as we have been TTC I have been googling every little symptom. This website has helped a ton, and I hope that my story can help ease someone else's worries.
Here is a breakdown of symptoms on the days I remembered to write them down:
7DPO/2DP5DT: noticed small acne on left bb (from progesterone supplements?). slightly more face acne, despite creams. sore bbs
8DPO/3DP5DT: weird, light cramps in middle, lower. felt slightly sicky after lunch. Sore full bbs. headache (dull).
9DPO/4DP5DT: Dull cramps just below belly button, slight cramps on r side (ov?)-have had this on both sides for a few days. BBs slightly less sore.
10DPO/5DP5DT: Bbs less sore for 2nd day in a row. Did have a bad cramp very low at 10:20am. Bbs still sort of firm. Lots of wet cm. Thirsty, headache (minor), frequent urination. I know what's coming :(