Like so many on here I promised I would come on here to write my story if I should get a BFP, and I am very excited to be doing that tonight!
It was a long road here as I know many of you have experienced or are experiencing. Infertility is one of the most difficult things a woman can face - psychologist say the mental process of dealing with infertility is similar to that of a cancer diagnosis, so please be kind to yourselves if you are dealing with this right now or starting to suspect that diagnosis is coming. I certainly found it extremely difficult. There were times where I had a handle on it and could focus on other things while I waited (so much waiting on this journey which is the worst) and times where it consumed me and I was completely miserable. I have learned a lot about myself along the way, and I am stronger and better for it in the end like any struggle we face in life, and I've had my share. So before I jump into my story, ladies who are struggling to get pregnant, I am with you and think about all of you and always will. Husbands, if you're on here on behalf of your wives which is something I've seen a few times, hang tight. She'll come through this and so will you. Never give up hope. Others have walked the same path before you and, regardless of the outcome, created a beautiful life for themselves. My Naturopath struggled with infertility and never got her miracle baby, but her practice is now focused on helping women get pregnant, and she loves it and loves her full life of travelling and freedom. I was starting to think it was something I would do as well - change my life to find a way to help women and children, too. There is a life beyond having children, but I know that's so difficult to think about now. My heart goes out to all of you who are trying to get pregnant. I am sending so much love and light your way. I will always feel a kinship with you. Being a woman, eh? The struggle is real : )
To try to summarize my story, I tried for a year starting when I was 34. I never thought I wanted kids until I did which pretty much came around from meeting an amazing man and marrying him which shifted everything in me. We started trying doing the OPK process, temps, the whole nine yards and nothing was happening. I was a bit surprised as someone who was always health conscious and focused on eating well and exercising - not a smoker, not a big drinker, etc. But at the same time, I was struggling with painful periods coming off birth control and started to suspect endometriosis.
With my age and the suggestion you go see a specialist sooner rather than later on top of the issues with my period, I checked in with my GP. He felt it was premature to go to a fertility clinic, but agreed to send me for an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed no abnormalities, which I didn't really think it would as endometriosis is often only diagnosable through a laparoscopy. I brought that up and he said if I had it then it would've shown up on the ultrasound. He said it was just cramps and it was normal. Being that I was passing out and vomiting from the pain I knew something was up and he was wrong. Not getting anywhere with him and his lack of knowledge about the female reproductive system, I pushed to be referred to a fertility clinic and he eventually agreed.
The fertility clinic sent me for a bunch of testing. A hysteroscopy showed I had something in my uterus which may or may not be of concern (could've been an air bubble he said), but we should check it out. Also wanted to do that laparoscopy to see if I have endometriosis. Found out I do have endometriosis, and I also had polyps in my uterus.
To not have this story too long, I went through testing and trying this and that over the next few years - tried all the things. Seriously, all of it.