I have lurked this site for months. I am so happy that it's my time to shine now!
My partner and I are both 30. We decided to have a baby last year of August. We are NTNP at the time. Come November we broke-off. But in February, we got back together. I was 29 at the time and I was scared of not having a baby because I had an abortion when I was 17. I never saw a doctor and only took a medicine for it to happen. In April, we had another serious talk and we again decided to TTC and this time, we are going to take it seriously. We went to a gyne bec I had to have myself checked due to a bacterial infection. I also asked if we can get an advice about TTC. We were told to try naturally first and if after a year nothing still happens, then we should go back. I was turning 30 in May. I took a 2week vacation from work as we really want to have a baby and stress is not helping us at all. I had all the symptoms in May, I tell u. But I ended up with a Big Fat Negative! I didn't lose hope. Come June, I started drinking green tea, taking robitussin, taking aspirin, etc. We timed our BD too! But still, a Big Fat Negative! July, we decided to take a time off because it stresses us out more. We decided to have a "sexfest". He took a 2week leave too. We were thinking that he's the one who is stressed. We can't take a vacation at the same time as we hold the same position in the office. Only 1 person is allowed to take a time off for a long time as we manage people. He booked us a nice hotel room 1 day, had a fancy dinner, had a bubble bath and BDed like it's the first and the last. It's my O day by the way so it's to our advantage too. But it ended up with another Big Fat Negative! Come August, I told my partner that I am so stressed in TTC. If the baby's gonna come, then it's gonna come. I did not really think about it anymore. I did not count the days. I did not take the meds I've been taking. I am a social smoker and drinker. I smoked and drank when I want to. I forgot about TTC at all. When we BD, we BD bec we want to. I didn't even raise my legs for 15mins. I wash after 5mins. I practically told myself that it's gonna happen. I don't know how, I don't know when, but it will happen. I did set my BBM status to --- I will be. I just lived a life of expectancy. I prepared 2 void drawers in my cabinet for my upcoming baby. Then I let go. All I knew is that I have a 30-day cycle and I'm supposed to get my period on August 31. I was never late! But this month, I missed my period! So I was like, "Hmmm...this is weird. Maybe tomorrow it's gonna come." But then, the red witch did not come! I went to church and prayed for His will to be done. I would accept it without a baby or not. I bought HPTs because I used up all my stock last month. I did not re-stock because I didn't want to obsess again POAS-ing. I got home and I'm supposed to POAS tomorrow. But I couldn't resist! The time I felt that I needed to pee, I took 1 HPT and in less than a minute, Big Fat Positive! I was shaking and the first words that came out of my mouth were, "Oh My God! I am happy and scared!" I knelt down and prayed for my baby and offered it to God right away. I asked for His help in raising this baby with fear in the Lord. Now I am planning to surprise DP. It's gonna be life-changing for us. But we are ready to do anything for our little angel.
Thank u to all who shared their stories. You have all inspired me. To those who are TTC-ing and who lurks this site during TWW, Positive Thoughts to all of you! May u all be showered with tons of baby dust!
I did not track my symptoms because it's stressing me. But below are my take-aways for all of u.
*My PMS started earlier than usual (LBM, breasts and nips hurt, cramps, eating a lot), about 5 days earlier. I didn't mind this as it felt like my usual PMS.
*A week before my AF is supposed to show up, I could not catch my breath when I climb up the stairs or if I walk for only a block. I thought it's due to my social smoking.
*Few days before my AF is supposed to show up, I noticed that my saliva is more than the usual. It's as if there's a fountain in my mouth and it just overflows on occasions that I had to swallow more often. I did not mind this as I don't want to be disappointed again.
*My breasts ache at the side near my underarms. It's something new for me. I thought my PMS is changing again as I get older.
*I did not spot when I usually spot.
I don't have much symptoms aside from the above. I really thought the red witch is coming. But this time, I've won over the red witch! My advice is for you girls is to stop obsessing. I know it's hard! But you shouldn't stop living just because you are TTC-ing! All will fall into its place at the right time. If the red witch attacks u, fight back by partying :) And most of all, don't just BD. Make love. Because you are loved! Positive Thoughts always! God has plans for each and everyone.