How do I even begin to write this message? I have been stunned and so in shock since getting my first faint BFP on 11dpo. That's right, our first ever! For starters, I have severe endometriosis and was also diagnosed with PCOS. I started AF when I was only ten years old (now 20) and my cycles were never regular. I would go five to six months without having AF, and then, when I would, I would have cramps so severe that I would be throwing up and passing out, sobbing, and in ridiculous amounts of pain. When I was 18 I was diagnosed with Celiac Disease, after not having a period for NINE months, I went completely gluten free and lo and behold.. I started having a cycle every 40-50 days. To me that felt and seemed normal because I was only used to having a period maybe two or three times a month? I was glad to be having a "regular" period, but the more and more periods I got, the more and more sick I got and the more severe my pain was. I went to the ER one night and they found two four-centimeter cysts on my left ovary, and a smaller one on my right. Needless to say, I was in excruciating pain. I had a follow up appointment to see if the cysts had grown or not and if I needed to have them removed, and surprisingly the massive cysts were all gone. I was so confused because my back had been in serious pain right before they did the ultrasounds. Anyway, I went to the Gyno again after the tests and she said that though the cysts were gone, I had lots and lots of follicles on each ovary, and she diagnosed me with PCOS. I am very thin so she said it was rare for thin women to have PCOS, but that's what she told me. I cried every single day for about a month, so terrified that I would never be able to fulfill the biggest dream and longing of my heart, which is to be a Mom and to nurture children. As the months continued on I started to get out of control mood swings and erratic emotions, I never knew when I was going to snap and felt awful for my poor husband! I had lower back pain that got worse and worse and worse, my breasts would be extremely large and sore, and I would be bloated to the point of looking pregnant for three weeks out of the month. It has been the most agonizing journey for me! I've wanted to give up and have wept myself to sleep, prayed myself to sleep, so many nights this past year. Something in me would not die though, and I could not stop fighting and holding on to hope. When I was diagnosed with Endometriosis, my husband and I decided against a laparoscopy, and against surgery to remove anything. Keep in mind, that when I was diagnosed with Endo, we had been trying for six, seven, and eight months.
As painful as the whole thing had been, I still wanted to hold out on invasive surgeries and medication that manipulate your hormones or change the normal function of your body. The odd thing is that, though I was told I have PCOS, I KNEW every single month when I was ovulating, the pain was absolutely excruciating, which is common in Endo. We were told to start trying for a baby as soon as possible and not to stop until I got pregnant, because the longer you wait to try and conceive with Endo, the harder it gets.
So, July 28th we go to the Vitamin Shoppe and purchase VITEX, bee propolis, pycnogenol, Vitamin C, Vitamin E, and Rainbow Light Prenatals! I was so beyond determined. I already eat super healthy and organic, with few cheat days a month. I'd already stopped drinking Coffee because I have GERD and it hurt my teeth and made the acid so much worse. I don't drink soda, don't eat gluten, hardly any processed foods, organic/all natural dairy, SURELY something had to come of it. I started 400mg of Vitex a day, two capsules in the morning and sometimes another capsule in the evening, every other night and also started taking all of the other supplements and herbs. I also began drinking Red Raspberry Leaf tea regularly! Well, I was on all of my herbs and supplements for ONE week and I started AF, on cycle day 35!!!! Never in my life have I had a cycle that is so short! It cut my period by ten days! And I actually had a real flow, rather than two or three days of light pink spotting. We were so happy that it worked for us so quickly and that I was regulating so quickly. I kept telling myself that when I finally got pregnant that I wouldn't have any 2WW symptoms and that my PMS and Endo flares would probably be non-existent. I was right! :) I had ONE period on Vitex, and the NEXT month I was pregnant! Not even two full months and that, along with lots and lots of prayer, worked for us!