I am still in shock and absolutely certain (this is me being paranoid) that it won't stick...because this has been such a difficult process from the start...but I FINALLY got my BFP!!!
This website was SO helpful with easing my anxiety each month, and I wanted to share my own story with the community to, maybe, help someone else who is having a tough time.
At about months 8 and 9, the 2 week wait anxiety had really fizzled for me. I figured that a BFP was less, rather than more, likely to happen. I had taken a "temp tracking" and "supplement" break for month 7, which really helped me to get out of the symptom-spotting cycle. I stopped obsessively looking at my calendar, only opening it to put in my BBT each morning (5AM so I was still mostly sleeping, which made it easy not to obsess over it).
This month was literally just like every other month, except for a few details, which I will get to below. For starters, this was my regimine almost every month (except month 7):
Prenatals since month 1
Vitamin D since month 3 (because it was in my drawer)
Evening primrose oil and licorice root tea from day 1 of cycle until ovulation since month 5 (to help with CM)
Omega 3 and B612 since month 6 (to help with CM)
Preseed since month 6 (to help with CM)
I had also cut back on my exercise, ate organic and healthfully, and gained 10 pounds over the last year in prep for pregnancy.
I also took my temp every morning without fail since month 2 (except for month 7) because OPKs never showed up positive.
I had my annual Gyno visit month 9 and mentioned what we had been doing so far. I am 30 BTW. She immediately ordered our initial fertility blood work and tests, stating that with our tracking and health she would expect us to have had some success. She also said that all the tests take a few months and why not go into the 12th month with the knowledge we need if we need it. She also mentioned clomid if all tests came back normal, saying that my size and lack of CM could mean low estrogen.
My blood work came back 100% normal with estrogen on the slightly low side of normal. My HSG (this month) was uncomfortable with the LEFT tube taking a little but of time to open. DH hasn't even done his SA yet! I actually attribute this BFP to the HSG more than anything else!!!
The only other thing I did differently this month was try to pineapple core trick...I made it 2 days and forgot the rest!
So my TWW...as I said, I was not tracking or symptom spotting.
-5 & 8 DPO: had erratc BBT temps...huge dips...maybe inplantation dip. I actually swore I was out this month with how erratic my temps were!
-10 DPO: sore/swollen boobs, AF-like cramps, and weepiness started...like clockwork...just like every month when AF is on her way...literally NOTHING else!
14 DPO: I was so convinced that AF was on her way that I was in full "witch with a B" mode with some crying sprinkled on top.
-15 DPO: my BBT didn't drop...in-fact, at 97.9 F, it was the highest it's ever been without having been sick or having a drink the night before. SO...just like a million times before...I took a pregnancy test, expecting a BFN, just like every other month. I really just took it just to shake the nagging feeling I would get at > 14 DPO (this has happened on more than 1 month up to 17 days, still getting a BFN!). Well, to my surprise, it was a BFP!!!! The line was not as dark as the control line, but it was also not a line I had to squit at to see...it was clearly there! On 15 DPO, I also started getting dry mouth, and peeing more frequently, but this was after my BFP and I don't know if it was in my head.
I am now at 17 DPO with no further symptoms (maybe some very slight nausea, but I am thinking it in my head). I have taken a pregnancy test every day to make sure it wasn't a fluke! I took a digital this afternoon just to make myself feel better...it helped to see the word "pregnant" and not worry that I am misinterpreting the lines on the other tests!
The reason I wanted to share this...well...if it's going to happen it's going to happen. I have literally bent over backwards trying to get pregnant for 11 cycles. In some ways my anxiety has served me. I have been driven to research to make sure that I have taken the right supplements and that I have added the right things to my regimine (preseed) based on my own needs. Ultimately, though, for me, it took having a HSG for me to get my BFP.
My dream for everyone in this community who is still trying is that you find a way to enjoy this process, that you smile daily, and that you feel grateful for your significant other whom you love and get to share this life and jorney with. It is not easy, but if you can find a way to not obsess, it will be a lot easier and more enjoyable.