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All I've Been Able to Conceive is a Bad Attitude...

My husband and I have been together for just over five years and finally tied the knot in August 2018. At first we just wanted to wait until we bought a house and put down some roots before starting a family. When that happened, we talked about it and decided to do a little more travelling and by the time we did that we were engaged. It was a quick engagement, only nine months and our first time TTC was on the first day of our Honeymoon. Mind you, the time change (went 10 hours ahead) screwed up my timing and the jet lag very well could have impacted my cycle. We are currently on month four TTC. It's been a lot harder than I thought. Not just to get pregnant but to handle myself when AF comes. At first I was unsure if I really wanted kids yet and then it happened. Last month AF was four days late (which has never happened before) and I had a variety of other symptoms. I was sure this was it. I waited until I was three days late to test and I saw that faintest hint of a line. I figured I would wait until the morning and test again with better urine. At 10:41 that night, AF showed her ugly face and I was destroyed. Now I know how badly I want it... I am currently 4 DPO and told myself I was not going to look for symptoms, which was clearly never going to happen. I have had light cramping since ovulation and this morning I woke up with a stuffed up nose and a tickle in my throat but I don't feel like I'm sick. It's November and I live in Canada so there's a good chance it's just a cold coming on, I know, but part of me hopes it's something else. I also have had steady CM since ovulation and I have this odd pain (not really painful, but for lack of a better word...) going from my vagina up into my uterus. It's sharp and quick. Very odd. I am trying so hard to not be discouraged but it's so hard when everyone around me is getting pregnant. People who aren't even trying and they are calling me in tears because they didn't want a baby. I need to be a good friend and be there for them, but it's getting harder to bite my tongue. Anyways, that's just the short version of the beginning of my journey. Hopefully in two weeks I will be posting with some amazing news. <3