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2nd IVF Attempt

So we had our first attempt in May that ended in a week 6 miscarriage. We just had our second and last attempt on September 6. I do in tomorrow for my first beta test - of course I tested at home because if the little bugger was in there it would have attached already. Well big fat negative test. 

This happened to us last time, I didn't see a positive pregnancy test until 13 days past transfer. Tomorrow we will be 9dp5dt FET. Last time this happened we had a positive beta of only 15 it slowly climbed and then stopped = miscarriage. 

I am worried that we are headed down this road again. We are not well OVER $20k in this and just had to refill more meds that was over $1200 that I may or may not be able to use.....

Why the hell is this so difficult?!? Why does it seem so easy for those who don't want kids, who can't support their kids on their own with out state help to be able to pop out kids every year?!? And here we are doing all the 'right' things, full time jobs, owning a house and cars, able to provide for our families, good people....ugh I don't get it. 

REALLY Slow rising BHCG...HELP

Hello there! 

So we had our fresh transfer on May 7. I went in on may 16 for our first beta test (9dp5dt) really LOW beta of 15. Here's how the week has gone:

5/16 - 9dp5dt = BHCG 15

5/18 - 11dp5dt = BHCG 35.5

5/20 - 13dp5dt = BHCG 79

5/22 - 15dp5dt = BHCG 190

I was told today by our nurse that the numbers are rising but really really slowly and they should be MUCH higher then they are now. Crazy confused and I am supposed to go in again on Friday (4 days vs 2 days between) and see where we are sitting. 

Each time I talk to them about the results I don't really get a super hopeful feeling. 

Our IVF Adventure....kinda long but a good read :)

Oh man where to begin....well we started the journey for another little monster last September (2016). With our first little monster we tried on our own for a year and then found out my husband can't have kids - pretty much zero swimmers...lovely right :( So we found a donor and started the IUI process. I was tested and didn't come up with any issues so we thought this would be our best chance at having kids. It took 4 IUIs and fertility meds (150mg Clomid and trigger shot) before we had our positive result! Our monster was a mono-mono twin, sadly around 11 weeks we lost one of the boys. But our monster was thriving and doing great. 

He was 4 weeks early (36 weeks) but had stopped growing at 32 weeks - they tried to induce me but that didn't work so we ended up with a C-section after 11 hours of hard labor (no thank you). Turns out the cord had wrapped around his neck twice and he wasn't getting the nutrition that he needed which is why he stopped growing at 32 weeks. A stay in the NICU and now he's a crazy, rambunctious 17mo old :) 

So since September we have been on Clomid, Fermara and trigger shots. Had 5 failed IUIs and then thanks to my lovely insurance we were forced to move clinics to use our benefits. So at the new doctor she was shocked that we hadn't gotten pregnant yet on the doses of meds and the attempts. She had me go in for a little more testing and we found out that I have VERY low ovarian reserve and low quality eggs. 

We have gone from male factor infertility to both parties involved. I was crushed. What do we do now, we would love to have more kiddos and I loved being pregnant and I wanted to do that again. I am finally healthier and in a better place with work and family balance this is something that I wasn't ready to let go of. 

We started our IVF adventure in February (2017). Appointments, tracking and then priming meds, stim meds and now we are to transfer meds. 

I had my egg retrieval on May 2 - they retrieved 19 eggs, 12 were mature enough to go through the ICSI process (injecting sperm directly into the egg), 8 survived that process, day of transfer (May 7) we had one 4AA grade embryo that we used and possibly two others to freeze. 

I received a call the following day and the embryologist let me know that only one other embryo survived and it is a grade 2 lower quality. So this is really our shot right now. I have a beta test on Tuesday (5/16) to see it this little one set up camp and will be part of our family soon or if we will be looking into plan b. 

It's hard to be hopeful when you have been in this wait so many times with the outcome of - negative. But it's hard not to be hopeful because it is something you've been praying for and wanting.

So, here's to IVF attempt #1 - One and done...who knows :) 

 

Good luck to everyone - I really hope and pray that we all see two lines sooner than later! 

IVF Class Tomorrow

So tomorrow we are going to an IVF orientation to get more information....we had our 5th IUI last Friday and will go in for our beta test next Wednesday. From there we will know if it was successful or not, I'm trying my hardest not to take a home test because I don't want to disapoint myself again. 

We will also be switching clinics again (3rd one in 6 months) due to insurance. So we are hoping that we won't actually have to move into IVF and that we are pregnant, but if I listen to my gut it's telling me we aren't and that for some reason my body has really stopped working the way that it should. 

So....who has gone through one of these orientation classes and are there any specific questions I should ask?

IUI vs IVF

Hello out there! Wondering if someone can give me a little insight on moving from IUI to IVF? We have our 5th IUI today and if it fails we will be looking into IVF, since I've been on high doses of fertility meds this would be the next step up....

So wondering how your expierence was and also how your SO helped

Here we go again....w/Progesterone

so home now from our 4th IUI, taking it easy and trying to stay positive. 

This round I did 150mg Clomid/day, triggered (250) on cd 11. Today is cd13, I'll start progesterone tomorrow.

I've never been on progesterone before so if anyone has any insight or tips let me know. 

12dpIUI

UGH.....this seems like the LONGEST TWW ever! I feel like going through all of this crap a second time for baby number two is taking longer and longer than the first time around :) 

So yesterday (11dpiui) in the afternoon I took a Wondfo HPT - negative. I'm trying to tell myself that it's still a little early, AF isn't due to show up until January 2 (also the day I'm supposed to go in for a scheduled beta test at the fretility clinic) which I'm sure that I will be canceling due to AF never being late and always showing up on time. 

Am I kidding myself in hoping that it's too early to test and get an actual positive? When I was pregnant with my son it took 4 IUIs with meds and a positive FRER 11dpiui. I have ZERO symptoms and am just ready to be officiall out so I can focus on next cycle. 

I know that sounds bad and that I'm tossing in the towel but really with all the science and meds I feel like it should have happened sooner the second time around. I did 150mg Clomid and a trigger shot, IUI was done on 12/16 @ 10:00am....I'm just getting upset and depressed that this isn't working, I'm not getting any younger and buying sperm each month is not cheap (oh an not covered by insuance). Since the hubby can't have kids we are donor users, nice thing is that (God willing he doesn't run out) we can hopefully have a biological sibling for my son. 

Just tired of waiting.......

Last time with this clinic

 

Well we are in yet another two week wait, had our third IUI on Friday morning with this clinic. Our insurance is being dropped from the fertility clinic so if this doesn't work in January we will be going back to our old clinic (conceived our son after 4 IUIs w/meds). I have mixed feelings about it, I really do not like the clinic we were forced to go to they screwed up my meds twice and I almost didn't get enough clomid this last round. The doctor doesn't have the nicest bedside manner and is more of a get in, get out, get on with her day. 

I honestly didn't think we were going to have an issue getting pregnant again, I mean it's happened once before (not that long ago) my body knows what it should be doing and we have a little science on our side. But still nothing. I go in next week for progesterone tests and then a beta on January 2. I will be POAS before then because that's just me and I don't enjoy the waiting. 

Anyways, I'm happy to be going back to our old clinic we absolutely LOVE them! But I'm also hoping that we don't have to go back and that we are successful this round. 

Feeling Defeated

As of today we are 10dpiui - so of course I took a HPT this morning. Clear as day negative. With my son I had a positive by now and I'm starting to feel like we will never have another kiddo.

I just really hate that we need professional help to get pregnant. Why can't we be those people who just say the word pregnant and then they are? Why do we have to deal with complications and all the shitty 'what ifs'. Why can't we be the high school girl who has sex once and ends up pregnant? Ugh we are in our early 30's needing to use meds and donor sperm to make things happen.

Feeling so defeated, annoyed, pissed, sad - you name it I'm feeling it.

Two Week Wait...again

So this cycle has been a little crazy. I was upped my clomid to 150mg/day for 5 days. So I went in on Friday for measurements and how many possible eggs we could have and also lab work. Left there and was told to trigger Saturday night and come in on Monday for our IUI. Well I got a call Friday from the clinic wanting to know how soon I could get home to give myself the trigger shot. Apparently they got my labs back and based on the results I was surging. So Saturday morning I went in for our IUI and now here we wait....scheduled blood test on December 5. 

Hoping that this one works....I really hate getting hopes up over and over. Plus it would be an awesome Christmas present.

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