I think I ovulated a little ahead of schedule this cycle, maybe closer to day 14 than 16, but either way I'm at or close to the halfway point for this tww. My meds for next cycle will arrive this week (woo!). I've been a little emotional about all of this, because we would never be able to afford / finance ivf, so if iui doesn't work we're effectively out of options. I keep trying to get in an optimistic mindset. The doctor said that given how long we've been trying, we only have about a 5% chance of it happening naturally every month. That being said, here's what's going on with me this tww:
Later last week I had a really strange dream that I was full-term pregnant, and I was in a movie theater that was filling with water. Somehow I took this to mean my water had broken, but when I walked into the lobby of the theater it turned out that I was bleeding profusely, and I passed out. When I woke up, I was three days post-delivery. I was so upset. I had missed the birth, and I didn't even know what to do with the baby. I tried nursing her, but I couldn't figure out if I was doing it right. I was so panicked that she was going to starve because of the days that I was unconscious like maybe all of my milk had dried up. I also kept physically losing the baby and having to find her again. I would find her the strangest places, like under the recliner. I think when the dream ended I was holding her and was successfully nursing her, so maybe that is a positive sign. Overall, it was a really anxious dream. According to dreammoods.com, "To dream that you are breast feeding or nursing symbolizes tenderness, love, nurturance, and motherly love. Good things will be at your grasp."
I've had pinchy cramps in my lower left pelvic area for the past couple of days, which has coincided with sleep orgasms. It's not like I'm having especially sexy dreams or anything, so I'm not quite sure what the deal with that is, but the recurrence seems kind of noteworthy so I figured I would include it here.
We made zero effort to time dtd this month, so I'm not getting my hopes up. Putting all my eggs in the iui basket (haha). Trying not to be too antsy! Sending happy thoughts to all you ladies.