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Ovulation acne

For the last year or two I have been having acne before my ovulation. Usually about a week before I break out terribly and by the time I ovulate I don't even want to leave the house. It's a very strange thing really. Surely nature wants me to procreate, so why does it make me look like a swamp monster during my most fertile days? Couldn't think of better birth control than being as reclusive as Dracula on a sunny afternoon.

I am considering going for my first insemination round next week when I ovulate. Exciting and very scary at the same time. It feels a bit weird to choose an anonymous donor. I hope my child, if there is one, won't blame me for that. Sometimes I wish I had a crystal ball, so I knew I was doing the right thing. I guess only time will tell.

I endulged in buying some heavily discounted maternity wear. Sadly, I don't have my old maternity wear anymore. My previous partner decided to keep that (and anything valuable) as well as the baby's clothes. It's annoying, because I paid for all of it myself. On the positive side I get to buy new things and enjoy the process. I'll put off buying baby items until I am actually pregnant though. Trying to be a bit sensible, ahum.

Bfp dream

Last night I had a dream that I got a bfp on multiple different brand tests. I really have to stop reading all those posts. Before I had my toddler I also had a few pregnancy dreams, but that was not in the cycle I got pregnant, so I doubt it's a sign. Unless it's a sign I should stop buying pregnancy tests. :)

Af is due today. Last cycles it came in the evening just before bed, so I'm prepared for that. I'll be glad to be rid of this horrid nausea.

Pregnancy test test

Yes, I tested a pregnancy test. I don't know if that makes me type A or crazy, but I wanted to make sure the new type of test I bought isn't prone to indents or evaps. So at 7/8 dpo and no chance of being pregnant I peed on the stick. White as the driven snow. Oddly enough I still felt a little disappointed. Put that down to crazy. The tests are ready to go, at any rate.

Early af?

My back is killing me. Feels like the back pain I used to get a long time ago just at the beginning of af. Seems like af is coming super early after the shortest luteal phase I've ever had. Shame my trial tww had to turn into a freak cycle, but it is a good reminder not to read too much into perceived symptoms.

On a positive note: ovulation and pregnancy tests are on the way. Now I just have to make some decisions about the donor, get a few more tests and I'm on my way.

Part 4

Add tingly, sore breasts and back pain to the list.

Never noticed those before. Crazy.

Part 3

Today 5/6 dpo:

Nausea

Crabby mood

Fatigue

Spotting since yesterday

Cramps!

I think I have a virus that has been doing the rounds and the spotting is probably caused by lowish progesterone.

No idea about the cramps. Far too early for the run-up to af. I shouldn't have googled it. The only suggestion comming up is implantation. :) 

I'm going to keep this list of fake symptoms to keep me sane when I am really going through the tww.

The mri I had three weeks ago didn't show any signs of endometriosis either, thankfully. Back to my regular doctor to try and get some pain relief.

I'm stupidly going to buy some cheapie pregnancy tests. The process with the donor feels like it is taking forever and I need to feel like I am doing something on that front.

Part 2

Add to the list:

Extreme gass

Lots if creamy cm

Cramps that radiate into my loins

Constipation

If I was really in the tww this would be driving me nuts and it is only 3dpo.

I had all of this except irritability (I think) before my bfp with my toddler, but it didn't start until about 6dpo.

Hormones can be so cruel. Two weeks of pms is just too much.

 

Fake pregnancy symptoms

It is far too easy to imagine small changes to be pregnancy symptoms. My chances of being pregnant are about the same as for snow in July in the northern hemisphere and that's a good thing, or I'd be driving myself crazy. From 1dpo I've had nausea, tiredness and irritability. Could be pms, but about 1,5 week early. The nausea I don't usually get, but I had it before af some years ago and it could also be a tummy bug. It would be so easy to obsess though. :)

More health things

Tuesday I went for my mri. It was a doddle, I almost fell asleep. I'll get the results the 22nd. I'm cautiously optimistic. Also nice that the procedure does not do any damage to developing eggs. Not that I'll be trying for some months, but it is still good to know.

For some unrelated issues I also have to have an echocardiogram and a dexa for bone density. Fingers crossed they don't find anything bad.

I've also bought some maca to try. Apparently it helps to balance hormones, without any hormonal action. Which appealed to me, since my 1 time trying vitex was a nightmare.

On top of that I am trying to get my weight up to 55 kilo. I think I'll include a breakfast bar/sports bar and yoghurt drink in my diet from now on, since breakfast is definitely my weak point.

And more relaxing :)

Weird cycle

This cycle I started spotting at 3dpo, even earlier than usual. At first some pink and then watery brown. It wasn't just there when I wiped. It actually ran into the toilet and filled a tampon in less than a day. I've never had anything like it before. I assumed my period would come early, but it's now day 25 and nothing yet. For two weeks I've had a respiratory virus, so I'm hoping that is the reason for this odd cycle. I'm getting paranoid now thinking I might have early decline in ovarian reserve like my mother. Would be annoying since all the other women in the family managed to have babies easily into their late thirties.

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