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Trying-to-Conceive Blog

If you’re anything like me, you’re reading everything you can get your hands on when it comes to trying to get pregnant. Thank goodness for the Internet – I don’t know how anyone got pregnant before the advent of personal computing….

We have a place here on TWW for ladies to tell their BFP stories, as well as a spot for submitting their symptoms to determine if they might be pregnant. We have a wonderful TTC community where you can get valuable support and ask questions. But until now, we didn’t have a spot for the detailed monologue of your trying to conceive experience.

Introducing the Two Week Wait Trying-to-Conceive Blog. This is where you can create your very own blog of your TTC experience—every detail, blow by blow. Note that you’ll need to create an account with us first in order to create your blog. It’s free, of course. That’s how we roll here at TWW.  *there is a 24 hour waiting period on new accounts before you'll be able to start posting to your new blog.  In the meantime, have a look around and get to know the site!

Happy blogging!

Nope

I'm not symptom spotting until I get af because I keep telling myself I'm not pregnant, that I can't get pregnant, especially just coming off birth control. Despite the dream of me holding a positive pregnancy test and I'm utterly exhausted today even after a cup of coffee. Af due in 9 days, ovulation predicted 6 days ago, unprotected sex 7 days ago. 

Next

Ordered new Clomid prescriptions, spoke to the clinic and we’re all set for a March round so fingers crossed.

6th IUI attempt

So in Sept 2015 I had my miracle baby boy after 3 rounds of IUI. Since then I've tried an additional 3 more times, and no success. I have PCOS, endometriosis, bicorunate uterus, tilted cervix and ohormonal imbalances galore but I'm still very optimistic about this go round...new fabulous doctor, new meds, and an IUI that seriously didn't hurt! Here's my story...

Day 3 found out I had a huge cyst that finally bled it's way out of my body. Got baseline bloodwork. Started letrozole, doubling doses, 1 pill, 2pills, 4pills, 8pills  for day 3-7. Then bloodwork, U/S, and 2 follicles measuring 12mm. Day 9 and 10 took menopur in the PM. Then back to ER for another look at the follicles. Only 1 survived menopur and  measured 16mm on day 14. On day On day 16th the HCG shot in the morning and we had instructions to do the baby dance and on day 17 (today) we had the IUI. Now the 2ww.... baby dust to you all! anyone on their 2ww? 

BT up, 11DPO

Hi everyone!

Brand new to this group, wondering what you all think about my FF chart this cycle.

Temps steadily rising here post Ovulation. CD 30, 11DPO. Luteal phase is usually 11-12 Days. Didn’t have a triphasic pattern, but are my high temps here looking reassuring For a BFP? No symptoms. Creamy/Wet CM. Cramps on and off. 

 

Thanks!!! 

Terrible evap or do you see vv faint pink, too?

Hello to all the lovely ladies at TTC,

So 6-8 dpo, yesterday took ic thought I saw vv faint line (only I can see it?!?), but well out if time limit. This morning woke up around 5:30, took another ic and 2nd line didn't show in timeline. Went back to sleep, woke up 1.5hr later and saw 2nd pink line??? Took a different ic with 2.5hr hold, nothing???  What do you think? Don't want to get my hopes up too early. Thank you in advance.

Gimme All the Hormones

I'm nearing the end of what I hope to be my last AF for a long while! I start estrogen supplementation today, and I'm actually kind of looking forward to it. For the past few days the lupron has had me feeling like an anti-depressant commercial, so I'm definitely ready to have some of my hormones back! Things are looking up, though. I worked out the difficulties between me and my bff (who has decided to embrace her pregnancy), and I also am feeling a LOT better about some crazy family drama that I'm sure was sparked by that super blue blood moon last week. We're also heading into the Easter season next week, which is one of my favorite times of year spiritually. I definitely need to stay spiritually strong right now. 

Not a lot else to report. My only side effects from the lupron were hot flashes (omg so much worse than I used to imagine they'd be before I ever got one lol), night sweats, and the mild depression I mentioned, but none of that was very noticeable until about a week into the injections and it really hasn't been bad. I don't remember what kind of side effects I got from estrogen supplementation last time I took it (my iuis feel like they were a million years ago), but I'm pretty optimistic! Trying to keep my body moving everyday with my usual workouts, even if I feel crummy and need to go lighter or modify. This is a great exercise in body awareness! Recognizing what you need and being kind to yourself. And with all the hormones you never know what your body will even *look* like from one day to the next -- big boobs, regular boobs, flat belly, bloated belly, clear skin, acne -- and honestly I think it has really made me love my body that much more and learn to let go of some unrealistic body image notions and just know I'm beautiful and worthwhile everyday. Or maybe that's just a maturity that you get when you turn 30, who knows, lol. ;P

Anyway, that's my ivf journey right now! Faith, trust, and baby dust. ☆

10dpiui/ 11dpt

I'm 10dpiui & have no real symptoms. The only thing I have experienced was heartburn one day (which I NEVER get) & slight twinges a couple days after ovulation. No swollen or sore boobs, no nausea. Not sure if this is a good sign or not? I just see so many women who have all these symptoms and I can't help but feel down! Every other month I have sore boobs right after O, or the week before AF so this is differenr for me. 

I get my blood test on Thursday but pretty sure I'll be testing before that lol. 

15 DPO help

Hello ladies I have a few questions for you all... My husband and I just started trying for our third baby and I am currently 15 DPO having very strange symptoms but I received a negative test Friday. 

About 7/8 DPO I started having light cramps, feeling strange, dizzy spells, and strange food aversions. According to my routine cycle of every 28/29 days I expected to start my period Feb. 3rd but had red (what I thought was to be normal in color) light bleeding start in the morning of the 2nd, then nothing else the rest of the day but a little brown/rusty colored spotting twice more the 3rd. Throughout the day on the 3rd I had the worst headache and was nauseous with aches in my back, food aversions, and strange stomach cramps. This morning, the 4th, I woke up feeling fine, light headache, no blood, and have had this weird tingly sensation in my nipples. 

With all that said I’m trying not to get my hopes up and be realistic about this but I can’t help but think the test was a false negativ. Have any of you had this before? 

Thanks for the help ladies!

Heartache

Apart from a relationship ending I’ve not felt heart ache like thi, it hit my late last night. I’ve had a huge cry and now I’ve got to get up and put a smile on my face and go out into the world and have my wedding hair trial. This is hard, does it get easier?

Fear, Frustration and the Future .. thoughts?

Hi Friends,

I made this journal entry today and suddenly felt myself feeling all alone. I started to wonder if anyone has been here before, and how you overcame feelings like this? There are a lot of emotions going on here, it starts off with the news of my best friend falling pregnant, followed by a spew of resentment towards my partner and where this relationship is headed. I would really love to hear how you dealt with your frustrations of TTC and the effects it had on your relationship.

Much love xx

 

I can only describe this feeling as a full body assult. It's like I've just been thrown off the ropes by Hulk Hogan and body slammed. Hulk then tag teams with Arnold Schwarzenegger who leans me against the ropes and punches me dead in the chest. This weight on my chest is actually not Arnold. When I feel like I cant breath, I think it's anxiety. It's wierd because in my mind I feel ok, but my body still feels the effects of being body slammed by 2 heavyweight strongmen.

One of my best friends, Jane, called me the other night and told me she was pregnant with Mike. They weren't even trying. I can't explain how amazing this news is because of 2 reasons. One being my resentment towards the universe because it seems everyone around me is falling pregnant. Aquaintances, family, friends, best friends. Sadly, the resentment clouds my mind so I cannot process this information properly. The news just hit that sweet spot of all my insecurities like BAM. They weren't even trying. The second reason being that the news is simply so incredible I'm not ready in my current state of severe self-pity to effectively absorb it for all it's greatness. It's like when you're in a pitch dark room, you open the curtains slightly and you're blinded by the glorious golden blazing sunlight. It's so beautiful, and I see that it's beautiful, but I just can't look at it right now. Give me a couple of days.

I didn't go into work on Thursday because I wasn't feeling well, germs were going around the office. Jane called me that evening and told me the news. I called in sick again Friday. I just didn't want to get out of bed. They weren't even trying.

Please don't misunderstand me, I was screaming for joy on the phone, and I meant it. I am not jealous or mad at her, I'm just mad and incredibly frustrated because of the situation.

My partner Jason and I quit smoking, so I got on the ice cream to ease my pain, and it felt so fucking good. I'm sitting here watching one of my fave comedy movies and I tell you, it's as good as medicine. So nice.

I am by no means playing the blame game....... but, I feel like Jason isn't pulling his weight when it comes to babymaking. I can't do it alone. If I could, it would be done, or I at least would have given it a solid attempt. Jason doesn't have the time. Ever. I am lucky if we try once a month. We didnt try at all June through to September. How can this be the man I spend my life with? If he can't be bothered to have sex with me, how can he possibly contribute to a flourishing, fruitful, lasting relationship? He simply can't. I don't even think he understands he has an actual active role to play in this relationship. He says he wants kids, but he does very little-to-nothing to get the kids. He knows how ovulation works and how important the timing is. My belief that men are critical to a childs rearing is really starting to die on me. I simply cannot foresee it playing out as a partership. I'm so over him right now. Sometimes I flirt with the idea of breaking this off. A bit of context, we have been together 5 years, have been TTC for 2 years, love each other dearly, and have always imagined we would grow old and die together. That sort of relationship. But I feel like I'm reaching that point that I have been at times in the past when I have decided to leave an ex. When he no longer seems to contribute. When my growth in this relationship has stopped, and my personal growth is stunted. When I feel like if I don't leave I will not become the person I want to be, instead I'll become some mediocre bitter housewife with a concave bob.

I thought I knew Jason, but now what I'm starting to see in Jason scares me. Yes he is a good man with a heart of gold, but we are young and still growing. I don't see much development on his behalf. Don't get me wrong yes he has grown, it's funny because sometimes when he speaks you would swear it were my words coming out of his mouth. So yes, he is capable of seeing things from my perspective, but I feel like we've come to a point where my thoughts/ideas/values are getting so far away from him like a steam train and he can't keep up. I am, and always have been, passionate about my views and too often he simply can't understand why I feel so passionately about certain things, and this, my friends, is when men start to zone out. I'm not always right, that's for sure, but I am open minded and forever evolving my views and ideas. This is me and always will be. I used to be embarrased by being this way in a relationship, but then I realised, it's 2018. Please don't get me wrong, I do not give him a hard time, I'm just a very naturally inquisitive person and he is the type that likes to switch his brain off at night (nighttime the bulk of the time of day we have together). It seems like hes growing tired of my conversations and just wants to zone out in front of the TV. I'm not ok with that zone-out thing that men do, not anymore.

Sometimes I say to myself, "I'm asking for too much". That voice used to be incredibly loud. "Just be nice".  "Things could be worse". "Don't be too picky or you might end up alone". Alas, this is a new age and the voices are slowly disappearing. However, I do love him and I do want to stay, but I feel like this relationship is on a one way trip to mediocrity. I don't want to be like 1950's mum and pop!!!

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After reading this back I realise that leaving my man is NOT what I want. I have just been feeling the frustration extra hard these past few days. How did you guys make it through the disappointment and frustration with your partners?

xx

 

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