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If you’re anything like me, you’re reading everything you can get your hands on when it comes to trying to get pregnant. Thank goodness for the Internet – I don’t know how anyone got pregnant before the advent of personal computing….

We have a place here on TWW for ladies to tell their BFP stories, as well as a spot for submitting their symptoms to determine if they might be pregnant. We have a wonderful TTC community where you can get valuable support and ask questions. But until now, we didn’t have a spot for the detailed monologue of your trying to conceive experience.

Introducing the Two Week Wait Trying-to-Conceive Blog. This is where you can create your very own blog of your TTC experience—every detail, blow by blow. Note that you’ll need to create an account with us first in order to create your blog. It’s free, of course. That’s how we roll here at TWW.  *there is a 24 hour waiting period on new accounts before you'll be able to start posting to your new blog.  In the meantime, have a look around and get to know the site!

Happy blogging!

I'm a mess.

I haven't been monitoring/charting/whatever. So, I have no idea when I ovulated or anything like that. I only know that AF was supposed to come between 8/11 and 8/19. AF has been regular for almost a year now. Before that, my cycles were alot longer, I guess. I would go for a month or two without anything happening. I went to the OB-GYN last year sometime and she said that everything seemed to check out okay. The only thing that I've ever had wrong was that there was a cyst on one of my ovaries but she said no to worry and that it would dissolve on it's own.

I'm now on CD 44. I had mild cramping the week AF was supposed to show but no implantation bleeding or anything like that. I'd been feeling super tired the week before, certain smells were stronger than others, I didn't want my morning coffee, had dreams about having babies. Blah blah blah. I made the mistake of posting on facebook about the dreams and feeling weepy watching certain movies that everyone made the assumption that I was pregnant. So, then, I convinced myself that I was. . .

I took a test on the 19th. BFN. I cried for a good hour after I read the results. I didn't even bother to text DH because I just wanted to go to sleep.

AF still hasn't shown yet. My friend said to wait a week or two, to re-test. I know that I should and if it is still negative, make an appointment to go to the doctor to see if something is wrong now. I just don't have it in me right now. . .

That disappointing single line is just awful.

I'm still feeling tired, cranky, nauseated in the morning, and somewhat bloated. My boobs aren't sore at all. My face feels puffy. . .but that could be from lack of sleep. I have been super clumsy and forgetful/absentminded (idk if that has anything to do with pregnancy or not. . .I've just noticed it more than usual recently.)  I originally thought I was late because I felt super stressed about every day life. . .now, I'm just really hoping that I am pregnant. 

I plan to test again on the 27th or the 28th. . .good vibes/prayers/fingers crossed would be much appreciated. . .

Smack dab in the middle of the TWW and...

I spotted this morning, just a bit & it was brownish, got some very minor cramping...!!!  My DH & I are on month #5 of trying...oh please, please, please let this be implantation spotting!!! 

Can someone take a look PLZ!?

can anyone plz explain to me what this means. My temp went WAYYYY up this AM.. Yesterday AM it slightly dipped.

Could anyone please enlighten me whether this is a good sign or not? Id really appreciate it !!

CD 11 + Last Night's Mini Binge

TTC News...

Last night we did not manage to BD :(. DH was too tired after a long week at work and pretty much fell asleep as soon as he lay down. It's okay though. Hopefully tonight will go a little better. I haven't started my OPKs yet, but I probably will as soon as I get through typing this up. I'm not expecting to see a positive until tomorrow.

Binge News...

I've done really well at staying within my daily point range on Weight Watchers this past week. I have weekly points I can use as well, but I hadn't used any until last night. We had dinner and everything was going great until we went for an ice cream at DQ. I planned on getting the mini blizzard, but ended up getting the small after DH assured me that I had enough weekly points. I gave in and reminded myself that getting a small wasn't a failure. Sounds stupid but I was terrified this little cup of ice cream could completely derail my progress.

Fast forward a couple hours and it's getting time to lay down. I started packing up the left overs from dinner and ate a dinner roll and a hand full of potato wedges in the process. This is how my binges start and usually only end after I've grazed through everything in the kitchen. After that I would have went off to bed hating myself, however, last night ended with the roll. I wasn't hungry when I ate those things, but I am still proud of myself for stopping there.

I woke up this morning feeling like I should just eat whatever I want because I had already screwed up, but I keep reminding myself that I did not fail last night.

 

**Update**

OPK was neg as expected. Weighed myself before getting in the shower and I'm still at 198.5, not as expected! After my ice cream and late night snacks I figured I'd go back up to 200, especially considering I'd had breakfast before weighing :D

here we go again

SORRY IF MY BLOG GETS TOO LONG BUT I LIKE TO TRACK IT EACH MONTH TO SEE IF THERE'S A PATTERN AND A FRIEND TOLD ME ABOUT THIS SITE LAST MONTH AND I LIKED IT. I WILL ADD TO IT EACH DAY.

08/23/13 Last cycle I was almost 3 days late on my period which never happens. So now I am on cycle day 14. Had a positive ovulation test Tuesday afternoon which was cycle day 11. My BBT is all over the place this month but I think its because our new puppy keeps waking me up during the night and so my sleep patterns are off. I'm testing at the same time though. Had a pulling sensation in my lover abdomen all day today but thats about it. I guess if my temps stay up then I'll know I ovulated early. Is it normal to ovulate earlier in the cycle if your period was late?

8/24/13- 3DPO. No signs or symptoms

Emotional Eater + TTC = Disaster

I was in a thrift store the other day and noticed this book all by it's lonesome on a shelf. I picked it up and read the title, End Emotional Eating. Being that I'm a overweight, my interested was peaked so I held on to it and kept moving. Fast forward a few hours and I'm sitting at home reading the first few pages. As I read I begin to realize that I do some, no LOTS, of the things it starts off with. In fact, everything about me screams "binge eater" according to this book.

Over the next few days I start to pay attention to my thoughts and feelings when I experienced a craving, obsessing is more like it, for certain foods. And what do you know, there was something going on in both of those departments?! How had I lived all these years unaware of how my feelings and thoughts drove my strong implusses to eat? By distracting myself with food, that's how!

It's no wonder I jumped from 160 to 200 since we began hardcore TTC!

I reached my highest weight of 213 pounds shortly after finding out I was pregnant in 2011. I had a missed m/c and never really dropped the weight. I signed up for Weight Watchers about a year ago and recently added Slim Fast to the mix. My weight has condtinued to yo-yo between 210 and 200 pounds ever since. I'd do good for a week and then I'd go on a crazy binge episode. No matter what I do I never seem to be able to make it past a week (typical of binge eaters).

However! After finding this book and adding it in with Weight Watchers and Slim Fast I'm happy to say that as of today, I'm down to 198.5! I'm a little nervous because I'm nearing a week of trying to be more aware of my eating and this is usually the time I start breaking down. Hopefully this book can help me overcome my binge habit so I can move past this.

Also, I'm not sure if this is related, but since I've been paying more attention to my thoughts and feelings I've been having crazy emotional dreams. It seems like my insecurities and fears are coming out in my dreams.

TTC after donating eggs.

Well thissubject is a little hard for me to talk about because most of my family and loved ones doesn't know that I donated. It was a personal choice that my husband and I had made and we didn't want negative opinions on the matter do we pretty much kept it to ourselves. 

We have two boys my oldest son I met when he was hardly two and i loved him so much I married his daddy a year later. Lol my youngest son we conceived from not using protection once he may not have been planned but he was definately meant to be here. I had him 10/07/2011 9lbs 3 oz 21 inches. Since then I have donated three different times with in the last year and well we decided after the last cycle we were done and wanted to ttc our third child. 

So here it goes :) my last retrieval was July 19 2013 they got 9 eggs and hopefully answered the dreams of a wonderful couple. July 29 my af finally came and lasted 7 days and this is where I'm conflicted my normal cycle is 26/27 days long but the first month normal cycle after donating its normally a week longer so I absolutely have no idea when I ovulated I kept an Eye on my cm and I pretty sure my fertile week was aug 12-19 and well we were so excited about trying we have pretty much done it every day since af was done. So today would be my 26 day of my cycle of course nothing because I expected it to be late but for the last week now I've been really crampy irritable and excessively  tired and been getting really creamy cm and my cervix is still high and sorry not to gross anyone out but it seems like it's closed and curved more towards my back which I thought was wierd but hey I'm pretty new to all of this stuff. My big thing is I don't know when to test. I guess I am just hoping I get pregnant easily since I did with Bubby. And my worst fear  is infertility from donating. I'm sorry this is so long I just needed to finally vent :)

Almost there!

Yesterday after lunch I took an ovulation test and it came back negative, but Stroud 8 that evening I started to feel an ovulation cramp on my right side! I got so excited I am going to test again today, and I can bet almost anything that it will be POSITIVE! I'm soooo ready for this, but dreading the two week wait! 

TTC 4 months

I've never written a blog before so bear with me while I get to grips with this. Been TTC for 4 months (this time) and honestly... I've been struggling. I came across this site and thought 'why not?!' at least it's a way to pass the time while I'm waiting to see if this time will be 'the one'. After reading blogs and success stories here and finding some comfort (as much as you can in this position) I decided to do my own blog so that maybe someone might find some comfort that they are not alone because that's how it can feel.

A brief history: Married young, it started to go wrong and I became one of those deluded people who think a baby will save things! (What was I thinking?!) I came off the pill and TTC for three cycles. Having tri-cycled on the pill for 8 years my cycle was all over the show, ranging from 26 days to 42! I tried Ovulation tests (OPK? Am I Getting the lingo?!) and I seemed to be ovulating only a week before my next period. I see now that this was due to the pill but back then, cue me googling like a crazy person and diagnosing myself with Luteal Phase Defect and then deciding my chances of treatment were nill because it isn't really recognised in the UK. The stress all got too much and highlighted that the marriage wasn't working and we got divorced (for many, many, many reasons!)

The here and now: My new partner (not husband - I've decided marriage isn't the be all and end all) and I made the decision to start a family. This time I was determined to be a normal and sane person. E.g. Telling yourself you're not trying, you're just not trying not to. Heard that one? Even said it yourself? Well I took my folic acid (not the cocktail of prenatal vits I took last time - my purse has never quite recovered!) and for two cycles I didn't use OPKs or think about 'right days' and I was calm and I actually thought I might be able to conceive without too much stress. Two cycles came and went and nothing. Then the crazy person started to emerge. I bought Boot's largest pack of OPK (justified by the baby event 20% off!) and started testing. Over the next two cycles this has made me realise that I don't have LPD, no it isn't bang on 14 days but it's never less than 12. I can live with that.

I am on day 8 of cycle 5 and I'm determined to be calmer. I know there will be people reading this who wish they were in this position instead of being in a much worse one. I acknowledge this but those people know more than most how hard this is no matter what point you're at. I know that by using a site like this, filled with people who have empathy will pass the time in that hellish 2ww and help me to see that I'm not alone and that maybe I'm not the only person to ever feel like this and act a bit crazy.

(The last bit got a bit mushy, apologies but you get the point!)

First experience of blogging not too bad. See how it goes...

FF says i already O'ed but my phone app says otherwise

I want know (those using fertility friend) how accurate was it when predicting your O day? According to FF i O'ed 3 days ago but my phone app says i will only O on Monday coming. I wouldnt mind being 3DPO (makes the tww that much shorter) and we did BD alot during that time. DH and i will still be BDing as though im O'ing on Monday, just to be safe. This is my first cycle using FF. So with irregular cycles FF says i O'ed on CD13 where as my phone app says i will be O'ing on CD19. Has anyone els experienced something like this?

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