Oh ladies, where do I even start?
After my last post regarding heavy spotting during supposed ovulation week, my body managed to go two weeks then AF, and now 6 days then heavy spotting.... I have no idea whether I'm coming or going!
Since coming off BCP at the new year 2013 I had hoped that this journey would be somewhat exciting, now I feel quite numb having had my hopes dashed every single month for the past 8 months.
I have tried everything from Agnus Castus & pre-natals to BBT, Acupuncture & Ovulation strips, elevating hips for 1/2 hour after BD & SMEP... all of which are just making me feel worse because I'm trying every trick in the book and thanks to my wonderful body - I don't have a cat in hells chance at getting pregnant!
It seems that my body is content to go from one extreme to another, first it was no AF whatsoever for 6 months, now AF won't go away for longer than 5 minutes! For all intents (unless I'm doing something completely wrong) my BBT doesn't show any signs of ovulation yet my hormone test at the Dr's came out perfectly fine.. I have no STI, UTI, PCOS or any other abbreviation and my U/S showed that things were as they should be.
I'm still waiting for DH to do his SA for our referral to the fertility specialist... I have given him a bit of an ultimatum and said that if he wants a baby he needs to do it by the end of the week because I am losing the will to live with TTC.
I know I have only been trying for 8 months & compared to some of you unbelievably patient ladies who have been trying for years this is not a long time, but I feel as though this is a fight against a battle that I am guaranteed to lose if my body isn't working correctly to give me even a small chance each month. I really hope there is some explanation and some way they can regulate my AF as it is so difficult to go about daily activities when I'm constantly worried AF will call at any moment and catch me off guard..
This is not at all how I expected having a baby to be, at this stage, I'm quite impressed the population is rising at all given the obvious difficulties so many of you ladies face in this TTC challenge. If only it was like the fairytales..
Any suggestions or similar experiences would be greatly appreciated.
Looooooaaaaads of baby dust to everyone out there on their TWW xxx