Me 39 three boys prior marriage
DH 40 no children
I have be stalking the TWW sight for a while, but TODAY is the day I NEED to share my story. I have been actively TTC 5 months. I had a Tubal reversal 12/2012 wound up with 5.4 cm tubes on both sides (short tubes), Endometriosis adhesions on one ovary removed during TR, along with large cyst on opposite ovary drained during TR. I am 39 years old (40 next month July) Went to fertility specialist the end of last month thinking I don't have time to waste here and he gave me a cup told me to have my husband provide a sample of his swimmers that they may be slow or imobile because of his age, that I am 39 which is hard to get pregnant at this age on your own without help, I had a tubal reversal which who even knows if my tubes are open, and that I had short tubes and that usually the eggs just drop off out of the short tube and don't attach creating a pregnancy because they are too immature to attach when they come out of the short tube, so the changes I would get pregnant again were pretty much maybe 5%. and that IVF was probably going to be my only option, or adoption and that that is still no for sure promise of a baby. I also knew that our insurance didn't cover IVF and that there is no way we could save up for such an expensive procedure in time to try to concieve and deliver before I was too old to have babies. Plus I wanted a baby of my own with my husbanbd. I felt horrible, and like maybe getting pregnant would never happen for me. So with my head hung low, I carried my little swimmer collection cup home with me and thought, maybe we should just get a puppy. I sat the cup on the counter and that is where it still sits. As a reminder of defeat. Every day I looked at it, and sighed, but I so wanted a baby. I thought, I should appreciate the Dr's brutal honesty, and his candid ability to paint such a vivid picture of infertility. He was however a specialist who came highly recommended. Why even bother getting the swimmers looked at, its really just me that is broken. So I went and got a puppy. For a few days, I was preoccupied with the new puppy, so cute and her new toys and her pretty pink collar. Walking her every day and playing with her.. ,me and DH BD often when we wanted no pressure,But then she started whining in her crate at two o'clock, four o'clock etc.. get up take her outside to potty, give her some water.. up early,feed her, walk her etc. It made me think about how she was a little bit like having a baby.. but I knew that void would not be filled with a puppy, no matter how much I love her. So I thought, maybe one more month, I'll try. If its God's will then it will happen, I laid it at his feet and took a OPK as my normal O day had just passed, I thought maybe, just maybe I could catch the surge day now. Nothing...... the next day :-) Big SMILEY!!! the next :-) BIG SMILEY AGAIN. DH and I had been having fun BDing so I didn't say anything to him about trying again, I just let us have some fun, and went on about my business. Honestly, my O was not on the original day this time, it was late, but I figured, we had been DTD for a few days before so maybe if there was any chance then it would happen. I went on with life, read TWW boards, stalked charts, laughed and cried to many of your stories, felt joy and sadness as I read along. Not feeling defeated but at peace that it was ok to just live and let God work in my life and be happy with whatever he gave me. Fathers Day came and I thought OH wouldn't it be sweet to give my DH a positive test as a gift... but I wasn't even due to start AF yet not til Monday, I actually didn't have sore bbs as I always do during the month, But I was cramping like crazy so I knew she was coming. I went and bought two tests in preperation for the time I could test. I cratered and took an Answer strip that gave me a BFN but then when I checked it again BOTH lines were dark pink and huge!! I was like what, that isn't an evap line, its pink!!! I calmed myself telling myself that I couldn't even think I was preganant, it was too early and you can't read tests afer the given time, they are not accurate. So I read more on TWW sight and prayed a bit more. I got up today and had to pee so bad, I mean like OMG get to the toilet I might not make it bad!! So I ran down stairs and peed in a Dixie cup... then let the rest go in the toilet. I took out the digital and let her rip.... dip dip dip dip dip dip dip dip dip dip!!!!!! 10 seconds and capped it and waited. DH was now in shower getting ready to go to work. I looked and hour glass is turning turning turning.... I was like this is it!! No more worries, its in your hands God! PREGNANT!!!!!!! I SCREAMED!!!!!!! DH falls out of the shower dripping towel half wrapped,shaving cream on his face and flapping in the wind, running down the stairs to save his damsel in distress!! I met him at the bottom of the stairs and shoved the stick in his face... he was like what... what is it??? I was studderin.... PR PRE PREG PREGN PREGNANT!!!!!
He grabbed the stick and said, I thought the Dr said it wasn't going to happen for us..as he studied it as if learning how to read. I said God said different!!! He was like... TAKE MY PICTURE,TAKE MY PICTURE!!!!!