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Trying-to-Conceive Blog

If you’re anything like me, you’re reading everything you can get your hands on when it comes to trying to get pregnant. Thank goodness for the Internet – I don’t know how anyone got pregnant before the advent of personal computing….

We have a place here on TWW for ladies to tell their BFP stories, as well as a spot for submitting their symptoms to determine if they might be pregnant. We have a wonderful TTC community where you can get valuable support and ask questions. But until now, we didn’t have a spot for the detailed monologue of your trying to conceive experience.

Introducing the Two Week Wait Trying-to-Conceive Blog. This is where you can create your very own blog of your TTC experience—every detail, blow by blow. Note that you’ll need to create an account with us first in order to create your blog. It’s free, of course. That’s how we roll here at TWW.  *there is a 24 hour waiting period on new accounts before you'll be able to start posting to your new blog.  In the meantime, have a look around and get to know the site!

Happy blogging!

Confessions of a TTC Lunatic

 

•sometimes I come on this website when I can’t sleep and flag all the spam one by one and I’m like COME ON PEOPLE NO ONE IS GOING TO SUBSCRIBE TO YOUR WEBCAM/ NOKIA/ SEXY PILL/ INSURANCE PROMOTION ON A PREGNANCY SITE LEAVE US IN PEACE then I cry

• since my first and only ever pregnancy ended in miscarriage I’ve been having these dreams where I find out I’m pregnant again- and THEN MISCARRY AGAIN

• I stalk the hashtag #stylethebump on Instagram when I’m on the bus instead of reading actual articles that will make me smarter

• none of the blissfully pregnant #stylethebump women seem to take the bus or have dry skin or cluttered homes but they all have radiantly white teeth and hand painted signs in their home with simple instructions like “relax” and “breathe“ (pretty sure those words are English but I don’t understand them lol)

• I feel like a snaggle-toothed barren rat living living off of discarded glue factory remnants under a putrescent bridge, whose arid womb no ratling  shall grace  

 

tah dah 

 

 

Do you see what I see??? Positive or crazy?

I feel like I’m going insane. Took 3 tests within about 3 hours of each other. The first test I took (at 6pm), I didn’t see the line until 20 minutes after taking- as I walked away from it. So I took another one at about 7:30pm, that line showed up in about a minute. The third test, around 9:20pm, was taken with very diluted sample but it showed up at about 7-8 minutes after taking. All of the urine samples I used were pretty clear compared to FMU (which I probably should have used). I’m currently 11-12DPO. Are these positive?? 

IVF APRIL/MAY

Hey guys! I just started my stims on the 14th and have my first followup scan tomorrow to see how my ovaries have reacted thus far. I'm nervous and excited all at the same time!! I was actually supposed to stim in march but due to a cyst that cycle had to be put on hold. Were doing a FET cycle, so transfer is 5 weeks after retrieval (the end of may).

Anyone else doing a spring IVF cycle and super nervous??

**crossing my fingers the first cycle works!!

2ww: Month five and staying alive!

My husband and I decided to start trying for a baby back in December. We knew it wouldn't be easy as I had visited a doctor who suspects I may have endo. We are putting off the opp as I said I want to try and conceive asap. I have had a LLETZ procedure over a year ago and a tilted uterus too all of which can have an impact on fertility and carrying a baby. I was so happy to hear Binky from MIC also had a LLETZ and was told it could be difficult to carry a baby full term. She now has lovely little India! 

Well...here I am, month five and four days to go until I find out if I'm pregnant or not. I'm currently using a clear blue fertility monitor, which I have used for four months. I can't keep calm or relax, tell me to relax I go mad! If you want something so bad how can you simply forget about it!? Each month my period comes seems like a big F you to me. I'm really hoping this is our month and we fall pregnant. If not well, I guess roll on month six.

Anyway, glad I stumbled upon this site as we haven't told our families and only told a few friends who do not get what TTC is like. 

 

Hope to find some cycle sisters soon! TTC is lonely as F.

 

Love,

Hopefulmum2b

New Here! 1st TTC Cycle April IUI

As I type these words I can’t believe I’m finally posting here. I’ve been following these boards for about a year now and I’m officially in my 1st ever 2WW!

 

Background: Same-sex union Me-35 Wife-36 1st Cycle TTC  Blood work great: HSG no blockages tubes open: Sonohystogram (saline infused) Clear- No Polyps(Frozen Donor Sperm)

On CD 22 of a 35day cycle U/S showed a matured 21mm follie on my left ovary/Lining 11.7

O’d that evening (Clear Blue Smiley)and RE ordered us to trigger (HCG-ovidrel) for our 1st timed IUI

CD 24 IUI day -12 million sperm post thaw

IUI- not painful at all 

 

1DPIUI-April12

Creamy CM

Gas

Sliight twinges in left ovary 

throat drip runny nose 

frequent urination 

Ate pineapple  core

 

2DPIUI April13

gas 

fatigue in the am

1 sharp back pain 

uterine twinges/cramps

Nipple pinches

headache off and on

Ate pineapple core 

 

3DPIUI April14

gas 

runny nose- not normal for me

fatigue-took a mid day 2 hour nap ;Odd

uterine cramping

Ate pineapple core

 

Im now technically 4DPIUI & my body literally has been experiencing things I’ve never felt before. 

 

First Beta scheduled for 4/25 I hope it works the first time ✨

Cramp City, USA

Ladies.

Did any of you who’ve experienced natural miscarriage find that it made for way crampier cycles in the following months?

I’ve been cramptastic since ovulation this month, especially near my hips, and occasionally in my, uh, “mons veneris” (google it) and none of this  feels how I remember implantation ”pings” for the 7 weeks before my loss last month, so wtf is going on?

Is my uterus still angry at me? Am I still healing? The miscarriage took about a week and a half and was no walk in the park, but then my reproductive organs felt pretty neutral once my period came... until O-day, since which point it’s just been rumbling uncomfortably here and there throughout the day. Nothing agonizing, but it‘s putting me on edge a bit. Before my first and only pregnancy (which ended in loss) I’d get cramps on and off closer to my periods. I have like 10 days to go til AF.

Welp. Gonna watch a bad 90’s Danielle Steele straight-to-video movie, eat salt and vinegar chips and pray that my body is not broken forever. 

All thoughts & suggestions RE my womb are welcome.

Any one had bfn on 14th dpo and ended up with bfp???

I am 36 with a regular cycle of 28-29. My DD is 12 years old, went to dr and kept me on clomid 50mg 2-6. This is a first round started 20th March. I ovulated on day 14/15 according to OPK. It was ++ day 13&14.

From 11 dpo i started a painfuly cramps like af is comming. I tested 11, 12&13 dpo both BFN. I have also creamy cm, very sore boobs and bad test in my mouth. 

Can clomid cause all this symptoms???

Is there any hope with this symptoms?

Has any one came across this symptoms at cd 28(14dpo),  and ended up with bfp?

Will appreciate all ur responses beautifull women.

Much love!

 

 

 

 

Ovulation Pity Party

The pee stick has spoken.

My leutenizing hormone is ramping up and according to science I stand a good chance of dropping an egg in the next 12 to 36 hours.

Will this ovum be a winner? Hey, I know, let’s design women’s bodies in such a way that 14 days (that’s 144 suspense-packed hours if you subtract sleep) must pass before we can find out. 

And while we’re at it, let’s design the human brain so that even though the only time conception has ever happened for me it ended in miscarriage, I have a desperate surge of HOPE.

Doing shots of diabetic cough syrup to make my cervical mucus less hostile.

Eating 24 of these weird rabbit poo looking Chinese herbal supplements daily from my acupuncturist. 

Standing on my head while I stuff plastic softcups up my chocha after intercourse every 48 hours.

Put it all together and you have a woman in her late 30’s stacking up the months and years while babies come practically flying out of everyone else’s uteruses.

And wowzers, that’s the first time I’ve spelled “uterus” as a plural. 

Never did I imagine that I’d come to think of having a baby as the ultimate privilege. They tell me that my time will come and that I’ll look back on these years and laugh and wish I’d taken advantage of my relative freedom.

Can anyone confirm this?

Venting

My heart is sore and I can't stop crying. Nothing is making me feel better. My husband held me but I still cried. My dog tried to comfort me but i still cried. I drank to numb the pain but I still cried. I took a shower and tried to focus on the positives in my life but I still cried. I know there is another time and God might bless us another time but I still cried. My arms are empty just like my womb. I really thought this month might be our chance to have a baby of our own but it wasn't in God's plan for us. I feel like a failure. Why have we been denied a child for so long? What did I do to deserve this? I feel like I'm being punished. My husband can sleep knowing we can try again, why can't I? Why can't my body do the most natural thing on this earth? It felt so real when my body wasn't acting normal. I knew it was finally our turn. Even after testing and getting a negative I kept my faith. I allowed myself to be vulnerable, I allowed myself to imagine being pregnant, I imagined telling my husband that after almost 6 years we were finally pregnant. I don't want to discourage anyone else from imagining and dreaming but for this moment I am all fear, pain, and heartbreak. My only prayer right now is to fall asleep and not feel this. 

Trying to Get My Husband Pregnant

Being in a heteronormative partnership and fascinated by seahorses (whose males carry their young to term), today I played a mental game where I tried to flip the script and imagined what it’d be like if *I* had to inseminate *him.*

Sure, he is a large hairy bearded man and has been my rock throughout our (in)fertility journey. It’s his job to take supplements and not ejaculate too terribly often and, when he does, to do so inside of me on the right dates. He’s dutifully done his semen analysis and held my hand at the hospital while they probed me, only to tel me that I was indeed naturally miscarrying at 7 weeks. He’s my ride or die. But what if I had to get him pregnant? What is that role even like for men?

Knowing what I do about my experience of TTC as a woman, if I turn the tables, the first thing that I’d notice is his browser history. If he were constantly gearing up in hopes of getting pregnant, I’d have to watch him spend hours a week googling all sorts of weird stuff on his phone:

•is seaweed harmful for pregnancy

•perfume and endocrinal damage 

•can smartphone harm zygote

•masturbation and conception

•warm socks and fertility 

....the list goes on.

I’d have to listen to him talk about how everyone we know has kids or has just gotten pregnant. He’d bring it up A LOT. As if it were something I could somehow control.

I’d have to watch him slink out of the room whenever people started talking about the latest arrivals in our families. I’d feel so bad for him, but probably also like I was left holding the bag while I had to sit there listening and nodding.

And I’d probably get pretty fed up hearing about how he’s 37 now. I’d be like “37 isn’t that crazy an age to get pregnant, you know,” and then he’d freak out at me because I wouldn’t have a uterus ticking away like Cinderella’s magic crystal coach about to transform into a waxen, motionless pumpkin at the fateful stroke of midnight. 

I would just have balls and a wiener and I’d think, “Damn.” 

Anyway, like I said, this is just a game a play mentally with myself. You know, for a broader perspective.

THE END

PS how do you respond to reader comments on this site? Does it suffice to to “@“ them? 

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