Early Pregnancy Symptoms and Big Fat Positives
BFP after 2.5 Years of trying and Polyp removal
I always swore I would post here after getting my long awaited positive test as I used to look at these boards for some glimmer of hope. Struggling with infertility has been, without a doubt, the loneliest and most agonizing journey of my life. My husband (37) and myself (36) have been TTC for nearly 3 years (at the time we first tried I was 33). Let's start at the beginning. It took some convincing, but he finally agreed to try around January of 2015 (I stopped birth control in June of 2014). I was anxious because my body was telling me I should hurry up and my husband was dragging his feet. I saw a doctor only three months in because I KNEW something was off. I come from a long line of highly fertile women who get pregnant in two months or less (grandmother had 10 kids - my 34,36,37, and 39 year old cousins got preggo first moth just to put it in perspective). First doctor I saw was a quack and told me my antral follicle count was low (even though it was 22). Fast forward about 8 more months of naturally trying (and crying every time my period arrived) and I saw ANOTHER doctor because I STILL knew something was not right. I had 28 day cycles, 12 day luteal phase, etc. Begged the second Doctor to check my tubes to make sure they were clear and she laughed at me and assured me I just needed to "relax." Husband FINALLY agreed to get sperm checked one year into trying and all his counts were through the roof - way above average. Things were just not making sense. Kaiser finally put me on Clomid (100 mg days 3-7). First month they missed my surge and therefore we didn't get to try. Second month I made it in to get my follicles checked and I had hyper stimulated. I had 10 eggs ready when they only wanted to see 3 at most. I had to be rushed to ER and hooked up to IV's. Third and final month of clomid we had three lovely follicles and did a trigger with IUI. No luck. Took a few months off and decided to not try and not prevent. Fought with husband a lot as he tried to remain eternally hopeful and strong. He was AMAZING, but it took an enormous toll on our marriage as everyone around us seemed to conceive effortlessly. It was torture. Please don't be too hard on yourself if you feel lonely, angry, annoyed, irate, etc. This is hard! Also try to realize your significant other is most likely mourning and suffering too, they're just not showing it in the hopes to make you strong.
Fast forward to April of 2017 - Had tubes checked by Kaiser - clear! Blood work for both of us - perfect! It was getting ridiculous and I still knew something was wrong. It wasn't just "unexplained." April of 2017 they decide to try Femera (2.5 mg I think days 3-7). WAY fewer side effects than with Clomid. I had three lovely eggs ready. A kind Nurse practitioner took extra time with me during my ultrasound and noticed a polyp in my uterus. Could this be the problem all along? She sent images to the head RE at Kaiser and sure enough it was a small polyp. The April Femera cycles did not work out. I had a saline dye test done in May (painful) to confirm the polyp and the polyp was removed on June 6 of 2017 (also painful but they give you the good drugs for that). Period arrived June 27, 2017. I was tired of getting my hopes up and failing month after month so I decided to let my husband initiate any sex in July. I noticed egg white CM on day 14 and didn't even tell him. We happened to make love on day 12, 14, 16 and 18 (and this never happens - he was beyond tired of trying too and I'm the one with the high sex drive usually). I decided to let him take the reigns and come to me. Here it is August 4th and he finally convinced me to take a test at 10 days late. We both fell to the floor sobbing when it said +yes.
My point is, hang in there, trust your gut, switch doctors if you feel like they are not listening to you, be nice to your husband, kind to yourself, and have faith that it will be your turn one day because I was starting to feel hopeless. We both cried for about an hour straight after the test. Good luck everyone and hang in there if you've been at this a while!!!