Early Pregnancy Symptoms and Big Fat Positives
BFP 15dpiui 4 years in the making!
I'll do a quick background and get to the good stuff. My husband and I were not getting pregnant--plain and simple--we had every diagnostic test and were eventually diagnosed with unexplained infertility which I don't know what is more frustrating--having a reason or not having a reason. I stalked this site for years and read so many words of wisdom that brought me out of the darkest funks so I felt like if there was a person out there needing words of encouragement I feel like I needed to offer them. You need to find what will keep you going when things seem to be either going in the opposite direction or everything seems to have failed. When things seem out of your control (which this whole journey has been) you have control of one thing: educating yourself. You are your best advocate. Read the research from reputable sources, know the terminology and questions to ask. That is what I did instead of getting overwhelmed with the fearful question of "What if we can't ever have kids??" Do not compare yourself to your friends or your family and what they have--this is your journey. If you want to be a parent there are so many ways to become one--we decided to up our game for the best chances, but did not rule out eventually adopting and that option is still something we consider. This kept my family off my back when I turned 34 this year and was not yet pregnant. The good thing about making that decision is we could become parents at any age! If we were 50 and still wanted children to be a part of our lives we could--there are so many children out there who need loving parents. Ok enough with the philosophical stuff, I could probably write a book about my journey but you're here for my symptoms: This was our 3rd and final attempt at IUI and if this didn't work we had plans to start the IVF process in the next month. CD4 to 8: 5mg Femara (this was my 6th non-consecutive cycle taking this) CD 5 to CD11: Gonal-F injections--50 ius per night (first cycle of trying this) CD11: ultrasound showed 2 follicles that were a decent size (about 16 and 17 average mm) so that is why I did another Gonal-F injection on CD11 to help them mature more. CD12: Ovidrel trigger shot to induce ovulation CD13: IUI CD14/1dpiui: Baby dance--so now we don't know what worked :), major cramps from IUI CD15/2dpiui: Prometrium 200mg pill every night (6th cycle using this too)--bring on the symptoms that mimic pregnancy out of everything including the shots--these are what I disliked the most 3 to 8dpiui: No symptoms at all--did yoga with legs up in the air against the wall hoping that would help with blood flow to uterus--we try everything we read don't we? 9dpiui: boobs started getting sore on the sides--this is a classic AF symptom though so thought I was out for sure 10 & 11dpiui: no symptoms except sore breasts continued 12dpiui: Is that a blue vein in my areola? Sometimes I imagine changes that aren't really there because of wishful thinking. Feeling like I'm out because of no other symptoms except the usual ones--I went out to dinner and had a margarita. Resisted the urge to test--I didn't want a false positive or negative--and my doctor said not to test and to wait for the blood test. This was absolute torture. 13dpiui: Felt a little hungover just from 1 margarita. Boobs aren't sore anymore, this happens when AF is about to show so definitely thought I was out. Went to mall and saw kids sitting with Santa for their Christmas pictures and I thought "Yet another holiday I have to avoid my family's awkward ways of trying to ask us when we're having kids". I really wanted to test just to get it over with so I could process and move on to planning my next cycle. 14dpiui: OMG it's Sunday and I want to test! Boobs are sore again but it only comes back at night--hence when I take the progesterone so of course I thought it was because of that. 15dpiui: Beta HCG test result--received call in afternoon from my lovely nurse who said I was pregnant! I screamed "WHAT?!?!?" so loud I scared my dogs. Level was 312. I go back in 2 days for another test to make sure my numbers rise. Just for the heck of it I peed on a stick. When you've had years upon years of seeing BFN's it's a relief to see two lines finally! In my parting words--do not give up, we are proof. There were many times I read "do not give up", and I hope whoever is out there who needs to read that in the exact moment they are having doubts it will give you some hope. There are 3 major 'milestones' in the baby making realm: getting pregnant (check), staying pregnant (bring on a whole other set of worries), and having a healthy baby. I'm looking forward to these next 9 months and trying to stay positive about everything. When you've spent years of your life trying to attain pregnancy you don't know what to do once you actually overcome that first obstacle.