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Oh hey, it's me

I guess it's been about 6 months since I popped by here. Idk why I got the urge today, maybe it's just that I have been feeling a little out of sorts emotionally as we close out one season and prepare for fall, and blogging sometimes helps me sort through things. We just passed our 5 years TTC anniversary, but honestly our lives have felt very post-ttc for most of this year. It feels like a lifetime ago that we did our retrieval and our FET. Turns out time does heal some wounds, or at least dulls them. I've gotten a lot better about existing in the present instead of dwelling on the past or worrying about the future. You can only be where you are. We're doing our final FET between Thanksgiving and Christmas. (Now that I'm looking at it, I realize that planning to spend a small fortune right before a gift giving holiday was not great planning lol.) I don't have my protocol packet with all the endless dates and meds in it yet but we're on the schedule. I guess we'll see how that goes. In the meantime, I've been working on a book about infertility and how I've used yoga and meditation to learn to live with it. Nonfiction is a new realm for me (typically I write fiction) but I'm enjoying it. It has actually been really cathartic. I'm hoping to have it out on digital shelves before the end of the year for anyone interested. Anyway, I don't sort through the posts here anymore but I do pray for you guys often. Please know, wherever you are, that you're not alone. :)

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I am so very excited to hear from you! I think about you often as you have opened up your heart in these posts and made me take an interest in your life. These past months have been tough, not knowing how you are doing. I am so glad that you are going back for that last cycle. It's that not knowing that would have always been in the back of our heads, for both you and all of your supporters. <3

Hi spazzle, I am happy to see your post. I think of you often too. I am praying for your FET coming up. Let us know when your digital book is done! Remember that you have a following here. I always look for your posts.

I still pop in every now and then to check in on you as well! I hate that it’s been such an ordeal for you but am excited for your next FET! They say the first one rarely takes so maybe this on coming up will be your lucky charm (; Much love and as always tons of baby dust your way! <3 P.s. I would also love to know when your digital book is finished, honestly I would definitely read anything you write and publish with your writing style!