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Angry and Tired

Postby banana78 » Mon Nov 14, 2016 4:28 pm

I'm so sick of analyzing. I'm tired of talking to people about having children and my fertility. If I look at one more test strip or get in another argument with my husband over this I might just scream. In fact I did scream to vent frustration. I HATE this.
Anyone else?
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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby Danaa » Mon Nov 14, 2016 5:06 pm

Hey,I know is hard,why not take a break,just bd when you see ewcm or just feel like fooling around.
How long have you been trying?
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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby banana78 » Mon Nov 14, 2016 6:56 pm

Feels like an eternity. I joined this community in 2014 but I was trying more casually before that. I've taken a break twice (for varying reasons) for a few months each time. I've been back at this this time since May. I haven't had tests, my doctor wants to start with my husband but he's a procrastinator who thinks he has all the time in the world. I think I'm going to ask my doctor to test just me.
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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby Trumom16 » Fri Nov 25, 2016 11:12 pm

Hello @banana78,
I'm so sorry that you are going through all this. Seriously sometimes it does feel like let's leave all this, but since we hv come this far don wanna give up.
Hope is the only thing we can hold on to at this point.
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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby queenfolly » Sat Nov 26, 2016 9:25 pm

I'm so sorry. I know how hard it is, and you've been at this much longer than me.

I would genuinely encourage you to get the tests done. At least then you'll know what you're dealing with and can make a plan accordingly. My test results were hard to hear but at least I have the data now, and a plan. Otherwise I would have just continued with month after month of heartache.

Best wishes to you and your husband.
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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby starzz121 » Thu Dec 01, 2016 10:27 am

i feel your pain... i came off the pill end of 2014 didnt actively "Try" until a year ago..im dont know whether to go down the testing route just yet or give it some more time? any suggestions? x
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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby Danaa » Thu Dec 01, 2016 10:42 am

starzz121 wrote:i feel your pain... i came off the pill end of 2014 didnt actively "Try" until a year ago..im dont know whether to go down the testing route just yet or give it some more time? any suggestions? x

After two years of no protection and still no bfp I would go see a doctor.
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FET#2 ended in a loss at 22w due to IC,my boys will be forever in my heart .
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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby Happyfroggy » Sun Dec 04, 2016 7:46 pm

banana78 wrote:Feels like an eternity. I joined this community in 2014 but I was trying more casually before that. I've taken a break twice (for varying reasons) for a few months each time. I've been back at this this time since May. I haven't had tests, my doctor wants to start with my husband but he's a procrastinator who thinks he has all the time in the world. I think I'm going to ask my doctor to test just me.


That's not fair! The female tests are so much more invasive (at minimum you're getting a bunch of needles and filling a bunch of vials). I would say to test him FIRST and only after he comes back perfect, then do the testing on you.

Also I feel for your. Last time it took me a year to conceive my daughter and it drove me crazy. One of my good friends was over two years when it suddenly just happened naturally. So weird how that works!!!!

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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby cindymcpipe » Wed Dec 14, 2016 9:26 am

I totally understand where you are coming from. I have been trying since 2001. I conceived triplets and lost 2 a week apart when I was 5 months and had a daughter and she died a week after I gave birth to her. I tried IVF a year later and it didnt' take. I took a almost 8 year break and I am scheduled to see a fertility doctor on Jan. 5th. I have PCOS and so I don't have regular periods. On Nov.7th my period came on it's own and I swore I ovulated and then I started having AF cramps for like 3wks but no sign of blood. Well I was to scared to test as I couldn't deal with the disappointment of seeing a negative sign. Well this morning I started bleeding heavy. I am at work and all I can do is cry. .
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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby banana78 » Mon Jan 02, 2017 2:29 pm

Since I've posted this I got a referral from my family doctor to see a specialist (for both of us). It's been a couple of weeks and I haven't heard anything. I tried to call and got voicemail. In the meanwhile I started my period again. This time we both cried. It's starting to feel very hopeless. I also cried on NYE when my friend was trying to convince me that I didn't want to rush in to having a kid anyway. People just don't get it. I'll be keeping on the clinic until I get my appointment.
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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby Happyfroggy » Tue Jan 03, 2017 3:04 pm

Aw Hunny big hugs to you. I agree, no one gets it. At least your starting the right steps to find out what is going on. We might be in the same cycle this month cause I just saw red this morning. I hate that I can manage to be chill all month but then the last week I go insane every time. Just know (most) people on this board get it because people in real life definitely don't. I recently was talking to a new friend about struggling to conceive last time and she quickly responded "Oh I don't have that trouble at all! He just has to look at me and I get pregnant hahahaha" and I just thought that was so rude that I've distanced myself from her. I just think it's really immature to brag about how easily you conceived. Maybe I'm just sensitive but I found it incredibly irritating and want nothing to do with her now even though it was a one time instance.
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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby Amouna87 » Wed Jan 04, 2017 1:56 pm

I know its soso tough,one of the crappest journeys you can be put through, exhausting, frustrating, heartbreaking, shattering and so so much more. Its so good that you've taken the step to being seen by the doctor though love, thats a step closer :)
I was ttc for 3.5 years (more if you count ntnp) and literally never saw one bfp, every month af would come every month a little bit more of me broke, i saw friends getting pregnant and i would think ah hopefully i will join them soon, then they'd have the baby then have their second- it literally took 4years of my life i started trying at 26 now i'm turning 30 in march....what i'm tryingto say i guess is we are here for you to vent as much as you need to or to ask anything and praying you get your bfp*hugs*
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Re: Angry and Tired

Postby starzz121 » Mon Jan 23, 2017 7:57 am

Danaa wrote:
starzz121 wrote:i feel your pain... i came off the pill end of 2014 didnt actively "Try" until a year ago..im dont know whether to go down the testing route just yet or give it some more time? any suggestions? x

After two years of no protection and still no bfp I would go see a doctor.



i know you would think so, but until i "tried" i didnt even know about ovulation or a 24 hr window i was so naive to the process.. i haven't proceeded through the fertility DR yet, because i have been pregnant before and my husband also once "worked" so Ive been giving it a real chance before proceeding to look into it why its not working now.

Dana, again congrats i hope things are going well with you :)
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