Prayers for Couple W/ Lots of Love to Share 6months of TTC

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Prayers for Couple W/ Lots of Love to Share 6months of TTC

Postby lyndsshehorn » Mon Jan 16, 2012 10:18 am

My husband and I have been trying to conceive since this past August. This will be my sixth cycle. I need hope, ways to cope, how to ease the pain of disappointment, etc. I have had symptoms throughout this experience and each time, I am not pregnant. I'm starting to feel crazy! I feel like a dog with false pregnancies! I was on the pill for about ten years. I got off the pill last April, so I've been off almost a year. I married my high school sweetheart this October. We started trying right before our wedding (in August). I didn't think it would be this hard. I'm so scared something is wrong with me. I feel like a failure as a woman. I am supposed to start my period this Wednesday (the 18th), and I can't help but already be sad, because I think I've just lost hope. I love my life. I don't aspire to be rich, travel the world, etc. I would die happy fulfilling my three dreams...being a wife, a teacher, and a mommy. I have all of them except for one. I'm missing our sweet baby boy or girl. I've wanted to be a mommy since I was five. We have done everything, "by the book" or "in order." I know the best things in life are worth waiting for...nothing has come easy to us and I am throwing a pity party. I love God, and I try to believe in his plan for us, but I can't help but question him when he blessed my brother and his girlfriend with a pregnancy...and she's using drugs! :0( It's just not fair. If we're not trying, I'm anxious during the two week wait, and if it's not the wait, it's a period. I am TRYING so hard to shut it all off...move on in life, but not give up. I want my head to be back to normal but all I think about is a baby. We're getting very discouraged. Here are my symptoms so far; please pray for us. We have so much love to share.
7-9DPO EXTREME tiredness, cramping
10DPO consistent cramping feeling in lower abdomen, on and off nausea. Spurts of a few seconds of feeling like I'm going to be sick. Under my armpits and the tops of my breasts are sore.
11DPO consistent cramping feeling in lower abdomen, on and off nausea. Spurts of a few seconds of feeling like I'm going to be sick.
Today is 12DPO and I don't really have any of the symptoms I had the days before other than a slight crampy feeling in my very low abdomen. BBT is 97.4 Took a test this morning...BFN. :0( I know I am not "late" yet, but many women on here get their BFP way before their period is due. I am all out of hope.
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Postby miracleshappen » Mon Jan 16, 2012 4:49 pm

Lynds,
Have faith, and remember that faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains.(I forget which verse that is but if you read the Bible its in there.)
It took me 3 1/2 years to conceive my last child. I know how trying and painful it can be. Put your trust in God. He will provide for You according to His will.
I will pray for you.
God bless.
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Postby lyndsshehorn » Mon Jan 16, 2012 8:35 pm

miracleshappen wrote:Lynds,
Have faith, and remember that faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains.(I forget which verse that is but if you read the Bible its in there.)
It took me 3 1/2 years to conceive my last child. I know how trying and painful it can be. Put your trust in God. He will provide for You according to His will.
I will pray for you.
God bless.


How did you cope for 3 1/2 years!? How did you not give up? Did you seek help or did you you wait that long? Thank you for listening. I dream of holding my beautiful son or daughter.
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Postby miracleshappen » Tue Jan 17, 2012 1:57 pm

Honestly, it was difficult. I prayed ALOT. I still do. After a while we went to fertility specialists who at the time told me I had a blocked left tube and wasnt ovulating regularly. They wanted to try Clomid. It failed miserably. I went on TTC naturally for about a year or so after that before getting pregnant with my son. When I lost all hope, I gave everything to God and said, Let YOUR will, not mine be done.
When I did that , I truly believed He had other plans for me. We almost signed a lease for a smaller apartment and everything. That last cycle I didnt pay attention at all. I was done with TTC for the first time in 3 1/2 years of paying attention to everything TTC related.
That last cycle, my son was conceived. And now I have a healthy toddler.
This is a true story.
Years later, it turns out both tubes are open and theres a different factor keeping DH and I from TTC, but I am leaving it with God. And yes, occasionally I obssess like other women hoping to be pregnant. Trust in God, and share how you are feeling with your partner if you can. That is my advice to you.
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Postby lyndsshehorn » Tue Jan 17, 2012 6:26 pm

Thank you ladies. I haven't started yet...due tomorrow, but I did POAS today and it was a BFN. :( I prayed to God last night, not for a healthy baby anymore....but my sanity back.
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Postby lyndsshehorn » Wed Jan 18, 2012 6:53 pm

Thank you ladies, so much. I love the support and the fact I can talk to all of you without the fear of feeling like I'm sounding like a broken record to everyone. Today was the day I was supposed to start and I haven't yet. I don't want to give my hopes up because I took a test yesterday and it was negative. I was five days late once and I think it's because I make my body late by stressing out. I'm pretty much prepared to start my period tomorrow since it didn't come today. I have no symptoms of a period or a pregnancy. :0( I prayed to God last night and didn't even ask for a healthy baby anymore...just some peace for my mind. I'm trying so hard to move on and let God take it over.
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