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Words of Encouragment needed

Postby zaymrsmitchell » Tue Jan 28, 2014 8:07 am

:| im currently CD17. and about 3-4DPO which seem like its been forever already. I told myself that I would wait at least until i missed my period...then i said i would wait until 3 days before my period is due. Every ache and tingle i suspect as a symptom. I think im going crazy. I had positive thoughts yesterday but now i just feel like i failed. Maybe cuz i missed taking my bbt this AM :doh: rushing to work and DH decided to turn on the light smh..blinded me and pissed me off this morning. Im so emotional and im trying to hide it from everyone....ppl just think im crazy and going off the deep end cuz i want a baby so bad. le sigh
Me: 24, TTC for 5 yrs, All test came back Okay
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Re: Words of Encouragment needed

Postby tryingtobepatient1 » Wed Jan 29, 2014 8:30 am

I know how you feel hun. Right now I'm like when will it happen, there's like an emptiness I feel as each failed cycle passes..
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Re: Words of Encouragment needed

Postby zaymrsmitchell » Wed Jan 29, 2014 12:22 pm

tryingtobepatient1 exactly! its like everytime i see AF i get so depressed.....DH really doesnt get it, he trys to support me but nothing helps at this point smh...le sigh

thanks for replying
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Re: Words of Encouragment needed

Postby iwant2Bamomma » Thu Jan 30, 2014 8:31 am

I am in the same boat. My husband and I, both 30, have been TTC#1 for a year. Currently on Clomid cycle #3. Every month I get myself so convinced that this is the month and I feel every symptom. I'm currently 15dpo and too scared to take another test because I'm afraid of the let down. I had a BFN on Monday (12dpo). AF is supposed to come today and I've been spotting brown for 3 days and very crampy. Although the brown stuff isn't my normal spotting stuff. This is also my first month of charting my BBT, which took a huge dip the other day, but has steadily been increasing. If it was staying down, I'd know AF was coming for sure, but it's rising. I'm so confused, so heart broken and disappointed. I'm losing hope.......I am sure AF will be here any moment....All my friends are having babies and getting pregnant - it's killing me!! My hubby & I want a baby so bad!! :( Hugs to you all.....I know I could use one!!
Me:31 (almost 32) DH:31 (almost 32)
TTC#1 since 09/2012
Tried for a year on our own with no meds and no luck....
Clomid 50mg, 11/2013-5/2014, All 7 BFNs, not monitored well (or at all) by doc.
HSG: Good
DH SA: Great
Tried for another year on our own with no meds and no luck.
New doc!!
April 2015: Femara 5 mg, Dexamethasone .5 mg, Ovidrel injection 250 mcg, Endometrin 100 mg x2/day, Vitamin D3 4000 iu/day, 81mg Baby Aspirin.
Follicles: 23, 25 on right, Lining 8.8
IUI #1 - 4/28/2015~BFP on 5/12! OMG!
Beta #1 (14dpiui, cd29, 5/12): 134
Beta #2 (16dpiui, cd31, 5/14): 348
Beta #3 (5/27): 16,866, U/S got to see the sac, yolk and fetal pole. Saw the heart beating (117 bpm) but couldn't hear it yet
Beta #4 (6/5): 42,213, U/S got to hear our little heartbeat (147 bpm) for the first time - AMAZING!
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Re: Words of Encouragment needed

Postby zaymrsmitchell » Thu Jan 30, 2014 1:18 pm

iwant2Bmomma hey hun, i def know how u feeling..i refuse to test...but i think u should...if i remember correctly, an increase sld be good? Plz double check that tho. I just started geting other symp today but i feel defeated and am seriously considering chalking it all up to be PMS smh..
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Re: Words of Encouragment needed

Postby iwant2Bamomma » Thu Jan 30, 2014 1:45 pm

hey zaymrsmitchell - I think I might buy a early detection test and take it in the am with my fmu. I really wanted to wait a few more days, but I really need to do something - that way if I am preg it should definitely give me a BFP, if I'm not, well, I guess I can finally quit dwelling on it and move on and try again next month. This clomid is turning me into a crazy bi-polar wife - my poor DH!! lol One minute I'm fine, the next I'm crying, the next I'm raging, the next I'm sleeping.....I'm not even sure if I want to continue it or not? It's not even working and who even knows what it will/can do to my (someday) baby....everything you read is different. I will def be having a longer chat with my dr. whenever this cycle decides what it wants to do. For the mean time, the spotting or whatever it is has pretty much stopped and the cramps have also. I don't know what to think anymore.....as long as my BBT stays up, I'm going to try to stay positive. I wish this wasn't so difficult!! Seems like some girls can just look at a d*ck and get knocked up.......so not fair! Thanks for listening!! I think I really just needed to vent more than anything.....like you said DH just doesn't get it.
Me:31 (almost 32) DH:31 (almost 32)
TTC#1 since 09/2012
Tried for a year on our own with no meds and no luck....
Clomid 50mg, 11/2013-5/2014, All 7 BFNs, not monitored well (or at all) by doc.
HSG: Good
DH SA: Great
Tried for another year on our own with no meds and no luck.
New doc!!
April 2015: Femara 5 mg, Dexamethasone .5 mg, Ovidrel injection 250 mcg, Endometrin 100 mg x2/day, Vitamin D3 4000 iu/day, 81mg Baby Aspirin.
Follicles: 23, 25 on right, Lining 8.8
IUI #1 - 4/28/2015~BFP on 5/12! OMG!
Beta #1 (14dpiui, cd29, 5/12): 134
Beta #2 (16dpiui, cd31, 5/14): 348
Beta #3 (5/27): 16,866, U/S got to see the sac, yolk and fetal pole. Saw the heart beating (117 bpm) but couldn't hear it yet
Beta #4 (6/5): 42,213, U/S got to hear our little heartbeat (147 bpm) for the first time - AMAZING!
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Re: Words of Encouragment needed

Postby zaymrsmitchell » Thu Jan 30, 2014 3:07 pm

lol @ look at the d*ck..its so true tho smh...my brother babymom is having her second baby by him smh...she just had my niece a lil over a year ago! like wtf! i was so irked..my bro was trying to get her to abort but she wasnt feeling that..i kinda had to side with her on that since i wldnt be able to either.

anywayyyy, im so scared to take clomid. im already moody during PMS, i was ok when i took the SI this cycle. But if monday was 12DPO then today should be 15DPO..ive seen some ppl get BFP around 15DPO, so try it..pick a day when DH wont be home so u have time to get urself together if it is a BFN...Hugggssssssss i hope it is a BFP
Me: 24, TTC for 5 yrs, All test came back Okay
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Re: Words of Encouragment needed

Postby iwant2Bamomma » Fri Jan 31, 2014 6:43 am

BFN this morning.......blah!!!! :'(
Me:31 (almost 32) DH:31 (almost 32)
TTC#1 since 09/2012
Tried for a year on our own with no meds and no luck....
Clomid 50mg, 11/2013-5/2014, All 7 BFNs, not monitored well (or at all) by doc.
HSG: Good
DH SA: Great
Tried for another year on our own with no meds and no luck.
New doc!!
April 2015: Femara 5 mg, Dexamethasone .5 mg, Ovidrel injection 250 mcg, Endometrin 100 mg x2/day, Vitamin D3 4000 iu/day, 81mg Baby Aspirin.
Follicles: 23, 25 on right, Lining 8.8
IUI #1 - 4/28/2015~BFP on 5/12! OMG!
Beta #1 (14dpiui, cd29, 5/12): 134
Beta #2 (16dpiui, cd31, 5/14): 348
Beta #3 (5/27): 16,866, U/S got to see the sac, yolk and fetal pole. Saw the heart beating (117 bpm) but couldn't hear it yet
Beta #4 (6/5): 42,213, U/S got to hear our little heartbeat (147 bpm) for the first time - AMAZING!
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Re: Words of Encouragment needed

Postby zaymrsmitchell » Fri Jan 31, 2014 9:26 am

im sry hun..are u gonna test again or just chalk it?? le sigh, i dont even think ima wait my time with testing...i really am about to just give up and try to focus on something else...i cant take this roller coaster of emotions
Me: 24, TTC for 5 yrs, All test came back Okay
DH: 27, 2 kids
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