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feeling lost

Postby eh_ep » Mon Jul 21, 2014 6:18 pm

Life is not fair. I feel like I do a lot of whining on here, but this is a page for support right?

I feel so alone, I have had 2 miscarriages since we have started TTC this time (4 miscarriages all together). It's now been 1 year and it feels like everyone I know is having babies. There are 12 pregnancies/babies in my close family and friends this year.

I am starting to lose hope, what is wrong with me? Why can everyone else have babies except me?

Sigh....

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Re: feeling lost

Postby ccubed84 » Wed Jul 30, 2014 3:54 pm

Hi, I am so sorry to hear about your miscarriages. I can't imagine that pain. I haven't walked that road, so not sure if I can say the right words. But anytime you get down, just look at your beautiful daughter and be thankful you have her. Many of us on here so desire a baby. I don't know if I will ever get to experience the joy of having one. So whenever you feel down, just go and hug your daughter and enjoy that blessing. It can't help but make your love for her so much stronger because you realize how much of a miracle she is in your life. You are very blessed :)
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IUI #2 - May 14 with letrazole and trigger shot. Husband had 2% morphology and 7 million post wash.
IUI #3 - July 9 - letrazole, Gonal-F injections, trigger shots and progesterone pills. 4, possible 5 follicles. BFN.

I have low progesterone and husband has 3% morphology. Other than that everything else is normal.
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Re: feeling lost

Postby Baby_Beebee » Tue Aug 05, 2014 4:58 pm

I too have never had a miscarriage but have been trying for baby number one for a year and a half now. One of my good friends from High School just announced she is preggo. I'm happy for her but at the same time it just breaks my heart. They weren't even trying which seems to be the way it goes for all my friends.
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Re: feeling lost

Postby Tinleykayewash » Wed Nov 05, 2014 7:06 pm

I know your pain. Miscarriages are very devastating and hard to understand why it would be happening to you, especially when everyone around you is having success and fertility FEELS like it should be a God given right to everyone. But I do know that through my miscarriage, I've found that God has a special plan for my life that doesn't include a baby at the moment. I just got back after taking a break from TTC for a year, and it has been the best most freeing year of my life! Pray about it, take some time, and just know that it is not in the plans, YET. I've found that knocking some things off of my "Things to do in life list" has really helped me cope. I'll be praying for your sweet child of the King. He will bless you again in time.
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