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Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Fri Aug 28, 2015 8:00 pm
by Wishfull
Hi everyone. This is my first time posting. I just don't know how I'm suppose to feel at any given moment about any given thing. We have been officially TTC for 2 years. Before that we did the "not trying but not preventing thing for 5 years. I have learned I have PCOS and DH has low morphology 6%. So the length of wanting this unattainable thing has been stressful on its on. And the area I live in seems to be plauged by women that get pregnant if a man at the bank sneezes near them. And recently my friend confided to me that her and her DH were gonna try and less than 30 days after that conversation she pregnant. I am so happy for her but it's still a hard hit. I ovulated this month. And we did the deed but I'm only 8DPO so I'm trying to be hopeful but I just never get a positive. I've never had two lines and I just wany that double line so bad..
Feeling really emotional. And can't stop crying tonight and DH who can usually fix me is working nights right now. Just need prayers and good vibes

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Fri Aug 28, 2015 9:24 pm
by southernbelle
:( baby dust. ttc is so hard! I really do hope you get your bfp this month! I hope we both do! lol

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Sat Aug 29, 2015 3:01 am
by Wishfull
Thanks!

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Sat Aug 29, 2015 6:48 am
by Wishfull
Southrenbelle.
Thank you I needed a little kindness and encouragement. Maybe we will both get our bfp soon

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Sun Aug 30, 2015 6:12 am
by southernbelle
You're welcome! We need to stick together. I've been ttc #2 for almost a year now with two miscarriages. It was so easy for #1 and this second time around it's been such a struggle. There were times when the losses were fresh that I'd get angry or sad hearing about friends or family or better yet the scum friend of a friend who couldn't give a damn about the children they already have. It really is painful.

And it's completely normal to see a pregnant woman on the street and wonder her story. I used to feel a gut punch when that happened, but I realized that she was a stranger and maybe she struggled for many many years and had to have ivf for her little miracle. I like to think at least that she didn't just look at a penis and boom. lol

When are you testing? Do you have an RE helping you out?

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Sun Aug 30, 2015 9:16 am
by Wishfull
I do. He has me on metformin for my PCOS. And we've done other testing and everything else on my end looks good. DH has low morphology but high count. I am scheduled to start clomid in January if not PG and he has suggested we do IUI at that time.

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Sun Aug 30, 2015 9:19 am
by Wishfull
I've actually take two already. I know I should have waited but POAS is what we do. I'm going to pick up a couple more today and try to wait until at least Wednesday. AF is due around Thursday counting from ovulation.

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Tue Sep 01, 2015 4:21 am
by Annuj
Hi, i am new to this thread and i am on the same boat like all of you. I been on TTC for 3 years with no luck all tests came out normal for me but issues with DH low count only 1.2M...I've been looking for community/thread where someone can truly understand the exact feelings that I have during this difficult times. Its hard and frustrating to see BFN's over and over again. I will include you in my prayers so we can get post our BFP's soon.

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Tue Sep 01, 2015 7:13 am
by Wishfull
Annuj, welcome. I'm new to the forums but have been giving ttc my all for awhile. The forums help so much. There just isn't anyway to explain how helpful they really are. Maybe we will both be posting our BFP soon.

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Thu Sep 03, 2015 7:21 am
by Wishfull
Just wanted to update.... I'm pretty sure I'm out this month. Just waiting for AF to show. Bought my o test kit for next month. Ready to start again. FX for everyone

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Thu Sep 03, 2015 9:11 am
by Wishfull
My friend just texted me. Her progesterone has dropped below 10. The Doc has her on prometrioum. Every keeps FX please

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Tue Sep 08, 2015 1:46 pm
by Wishfull
My friend got the dreaded news. And I feel awful that I was sad for even a moment. This sucks.

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Wed Sep 09, 2015 6:36 am
by southernbelle
Wishfull wrote:My friend got the dreaded news. And I feel awful that I was sad for even a moment. This sucks.

It is NOT your fault! Please don't feel bad or guilty about feeling sad that you weren't the one pregnant. TTC is so unfair a lot of the time. Sometimes I wish I didn't want this so badly. Just be there for your friend. Right now not many words will comfort her. Just tell her you're there for her if she wants to talk.

My update - I'm now cd4. I got a bfp last cycle, but sadly it was a chemical so here we go again. Just waiting to O. I feel like I'm always waiting on something. :(

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Tue Sep 15, 2015 4:28 am
by Wishfull
Thanks Southernbelle. I know I shouldn't feel guilty but I can't help it. I have told her I'm here anytime she needs me.
Sorry to hear about your cp. We'll get it next month.

Re: Feeling Emotional

PostPosted: Tue Sep 15, 2015 11:00 am
by MamaPeach
Coming from the other side of things, she knows you're human and doesn't begrudge you any of your feelings, Wishfull. She's just grateful you're there for her.