What have I gotten myself into?

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What have I gotten myself into?

Postby MamaBird912 » Mon Nov 23, 2015 8:42 am

I'm currently 13-14 dpo and I hurt.. My whole body feels fatigued. My legs and knees hurt most of all. I have anxiety and I'm super scared I have a blood clot or something bad wrong with me.. I'm really tired and I just want to cry. I have a 14month old son and my husband works nights.. No breaks for me. I don't know how I'm going to survive this pregnancy. I'm terrified of being tired, achy, moody, and anxious, and nauseated while having to chase my son. He climbs on everything so I don't get to just sit. I actually am crying now.. What the hell am I going to do with a newborn AND a toddler?...

I didn't sleep well last night.. I had a mild panic attack when trying to go to bed so I didn't fall out until like 12:30. I had to pee at 5:45 and my son was up by 6:30 so I didn't fall back to sleep. It just reminds me how awful I feel when I don't sleep enough. Then my son wouldn't nap at his normal time and I really needed the rest.. I'm about to break. The first few months with after my DS birth were horrible blurs of exhaustion and ppd. I just wanted to run away...

I feel awful because I got pregnant on purpose. I wanted this next baby. So many of you are trying so hard just to have one. I've been blessed with two very easy conceptions. Now I have that "flight" response again.. I feel overwhelmed. What can I do to just be happy?
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Re: What have I gotten myself into?

Postby scarletWillow3086 » Mon Nov 23, 2015 12:16 pm

I think its very normal to feel that way. I remember waking up on my wedding day morning nauseous ans sick, ready to high-tail right out of there! You need time to adjust to the change, but I have no doubt you will. Right now all you have in your brain is a pink line, which can be a bit daunting. FX and congrats!
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Re: What have I gotten myself into?

Postby MamaBird912 » Mon Nov 23, 2015 1:10 pm

Thank you (: I just feel guilty.. My son is beautiful and sweet, he's just a handful as most toddlers are. I'm with him alone a lot unless I'm at my parents. That's practically every day. But they dont really seem to be in favor of more grandkids from me. So, I feel like that option will be gone. I don't know how I'll cope..
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