I'm currently 13-14 dpo and I hurt.. My whole body feels fatigued. My legs and knees hurt most of all. I have anxiety and I'm super scared I have a blood clot or something bad wrong with me.. I'm really tired and I just want to cry. I have a 14month old son and my husband works nights.. No breaks for me. I don't know how I'm going to survive this pregnancy. I'm terrified of being tired, achy, moody, and anxious, and nauseated while having to chase my son. He climbs on everything so I don't get to just sit. I actually am crying now.. What the hell am I going to do with a newborn AND a toddler?...
I didn't sleep well last night.. I had a mild panic attack when trying to go to bed so I didn't fall out until like 12:30. I had to pee at 5:45 and my son was up by 6:30 so I didn't fall back to sleep. It just reminds me how awful I feel when I don't sleep enough. Then my son wouldn't nap at his normal time and I really needed the rest.. I'm about to break. The first few months with after my DS birth were horrible blurs of exhaustion and ppd. I just wanted to run away...
I feel awful because I got pregnant on purpose. I wanted this next baby. So many of you are trying so hard just to have one. I've been blessed with two very easy conceptions. Now I have that "flight" response again.. I feel overwhelmed. What can I do to just be happy?