Mixed emotions from ttc

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Mixed emotions from ttc

Postby Blendedfamily » Mon May 15, 2017 3:51 pm

Maybe I am being selfish, but I just wanted to see if I could find some emotional support. My husband and I have been ttc for almost a year, and I am now starting to have a bunch of mixed emotions. The thing is - I know I'm being ridiculous when I think that "maybe something is wrong with me" or "maybe I don't deserve to get pregnant right now", but every once in a while I get those feelings. Has anyone else had those types of feelings while going through this journey? I try my hardest to stay positive at all times, but month after month of seeing bfn's sometimes puts a downer on my mood.
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Re: Mixed emotions from ttc

Postby Nickysy » Tue May 16, 2017 9:09 pm

Hello. Don't beat yourself up on all these emotions. They are bound to happen when you are ttc for that long. I have been ttc on and off from Sep 2015, and am moving towards my first IVF in my next cycle. Fortunately, I am a part of a very loving and supporting group here. Emotions can be your biggest strength. Feel them, acknowledge them. And then let it be. Just try to find more good days than bad. Trust me, you are not alone.
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Re: Mixed emotions from ttc

Postby weeping angel » Wed May 31, 2017 9:09 am

hey-

a good friend of mine the day after my iui told me that she is one that goes "with the cosmos"- whatever that means ....and that this will happen when its the right time- we've been trying for 3 years and we've been together for 10. and i'm sorry, i love and respect her but i'm one of those who think we make our own luck in life. in life, i think we get a few things we DESERVE to be selfish about and this is one of those things imo. i tried explaining this to my husband....long before we even knew we had issues. he took the stance of "why force God's hand?" when there are so many children out there looking for a home. hope this helps.
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Re: Mixed emotions from ttc

Postby BeccaChloe » Mon Aug 27, 2018 12:30 pm

Blended family, I can so relate to your situation. It reminded me of the time when I used to be distressed when I first came to know that conception won't happens to me. And it was devastating. The recurrent miscarriage was due to fetal growth restriction. And the IVF cycles failed. Therefore, felt like I have nowhere to go. But after a few years, I heard about surrogacy. That gave me some hope and ability to dream again. I know, parenthood comes easy, but to some it does. They are young unlike me. I have hoped that I would conceive naturally. I so wanted to, but fate didn't let me. Age hindered my fertility. Well, now I have embraced the fact that I know natural conception isn't my thing. But I would recommend you get some help. Depression is hell, get help to get treated!!
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