Nothing Rhymes with Uuuuuggghhhhhh!

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Nothing Rhymes with Uuuuuggghhhhhh!

Postby mrsm44 » Wed Mar 12, 2014 7:42 pm

But I don't know where else to express myself. I just feel so hopeless. I know it will happen eventually...and I was lucky enough to be pregnant once...but I didn't get to take home my baby, like a new mom is supposed to. I had to part with my son at 21 weeks, due to severe issues. I went to Walmart tonight, to pick up another pregnancy test. I was sure it was going to be positive this time...I am supposedly two days late for AF. So, I am heading toward the check out and this little girl in a shopping cart is bawling her eyes out. I look at her, and feel my heart strings tug...and the mom turns and looks at her and says, 'Myla, shut your mouth!' Pardon my 'french', but are you fucking kidding me? People like that pop out kids left and right, and don't even treat them with respect, or tenderness. Yet, I have to say goodbye to mine before I could even say hello. I just feel so...frustrated, angry, like I want to smash some things. Words cannot express what I feel right now, nothing comes close.
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Re: Nothing Rhymes with Uuuuuggghhhhhh!

Postby SEPT2014 » Thu Mar 13, 2014 1:06 am

Aw mrsm :cry: :hugs: :hugs:
Hope you are feeling better, you are right to vent here, it is good to get it out. I can't imagine your pain, I really hope you get your bring home baby soon.
Me: 38, DH: 42 - TTC No. 1 since Oct 2013
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April 2015 HSG - normal uterus and left tube fine
Nov 2015 - investigative hystero & D&C - normal
March 2016 - Start IVF+PGS - our last hope :omg: :love:
Day 9 : 11 measurable follies - egg retrieval March 2016 :omg:
8 eggs selected for fert by icsi - 8 x fert.
Day 5: 5 embryos for PGS biopsy & freeze.
PGS (ngs)results: 2 x normal & 3 x abnormal
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Re: Nothing Rhymes with Uuuuuggghhhhhh!

Postby mrsm44 » Thu Mar 13, 2014 7:06 pm

Thanks! Sorry for the rant, I was in a pretty dark place when I wrote it.
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Re: Nothing Rhymes with Uuuuuggghhhhhh!

Postby B Michaelson » Fri Mar 14, 2014 4:35 am

I understand. I see this on the train alot. Kids being kids and parents yelling and threatening. I dislike it. But people are people and I can't change them. So I just make a mental note to not ever treat my kids this way and become that person.
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