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Scared, Anxious, nervous

Postby Chakakhan1976 » Sun Dec 14, 2014 6:55 pm

Well....after ttc for over a year, being told that it would not happen naturally b.c of my dh lows sperm count, scheduling an IVF, I got my BFP. I was overly excited until at my first ultrasound my baby had no heartbeat.... :cry: . I had a D&C on 11/6/14 and bled on and off until 11/20/14. I began to BD on 11/27/14 even though I had no idea when I would ovulate. I began to take opks on 12/3/14 and got a positive opk on 12/10. Got another positive on 12/11 . Got another positive opk on 12/13 and 12/14. I know that sometimes a positive opk means you are pregnant but I am too scared to take a pregnancy test.Emotionally I don't know if I can handle a BFN right now. I am also scared if it is a BFP.....I am nervous that if i am pregnant I would be a wreck anticipating the first ultrasound. AARRRGGHH....I just needed to vent :?
Me 38, DH 40 TTC #1 for me (He has a son)

March 2014 : IUI #1: Clomid, 2 follicles, 6 million post wash. BFN.
April 2014 IUI #2: Clomid, (cancelled bc of sperm count) told I would need IVF :(
August 2014 Scheduled appointment for IVF
September 2014 BFP Naturally!!!
Oct 2014 No Heartbeat :angel:
Nov 2014 D&C
Feb 2015 BFP Naturally

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Re: Scared, Anxious, nervous

Postby She_Ra_ » Mon Dec 15, 2014 5:12 pm

I get it, Chakakhan! Just had my 3rd consecutive IUI today after a MC in May. Great numbers, and can't help hoping, but having a difficult time not being a nervous wreck!
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Re: Scared, Anxious, nervous

Postby Chakakhan1976 » Sat Dec 27, 2014 9:22 pm

I got my first AF after my d&c on Christmas day and I lost it. Cried all day..... Trying to be positive. Any news on your recent iui @she_ra?
Me 38, DH 40 TTC #1 for me (He has a son)

March 2014 : IUI #1: Clomid, 2 follicles, 6 million post wash. BFN.
April 2014 IUI #2: Clomid, (cancelled bc of sperm count) told I would need IVF :(
August 2014 Scheduled appointment for IVF
September 2014 BFP Naturally!!!
Oct 2014 No Heartbeat :angel:
Nov 2014 D&C
Feb 2015 BFP Naturally

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