Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby AndiA108 » Thu Oct 26, 2017 10:56 am

Hi fabel! Nice to see you pop in! I've been on here myself lately.

Yes, I did get a surprise bfp! We had just about given up actually. I had just gone to doctor to get help with some depression and anxiety I was dealing with after my last miscarriage, then two days later when my period still didn't arrive I decided to take a hpt. To my surprise it was positive! Crazy it took us years in-between and this last one was 3 months after my mc. The beginning was very hard to feel optimistic and filled with lots of anxiety. I'm happy to say that our baby boy is doing well and we are due to have him in a few weeks!

How are you doing? Would love to hear updates from janeite and crumpet! xoxo
ME: 29, DH: 31
TTC #1 since November 2014

01/2014 - MC 6wks
12/2015 - MC 5wks
2 Rounds Clomid 50mg - BFN
(NTNP Feb 2016 - April 2016)
09/2016 - Round 3 Clomid 50mg + 200mg CoQ10 3xs Day
10/2016 - Clomid Challenge Test 100mg - Responded well
11/2016 - Clomid 100mg - BFP 12/03/2016 -- Ended in a miscarriage: 12/22/2016

3 months after our miscarriage... 03/22/2017 - Unexpected BFP. Praying this is our rainbow baby.
04/11/2017 - 6w5d saw the heartbeat!
04/19/2017 - 8w5d heartbeat still strong @ 178 :D
06/28/2017 - It's a boy! <3

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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby fabel » Fri Oct 27, 2017 1:34 am

Andi - quite a story you have. And it (once again) proves those right who say it will when you least expect it. Yayy for a boy! Have you picked up names?

AFM, I could never stop thinking about you guys and always felt bad for disappearing. But pregnancy and a teeny tiny baby can be overwhelming. And I forgot the password :( Anyway, I am not ttc yet but I just thought to come back to support those of you who are ttc. But, I see that most of the girls are gone. Anyway, best to those of those who are still trying. you are always in my thoughts and prayers
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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby Janeite<3 » Fri Oct 27, 2017 3:24 pm

I've been thinking about trying to revitalize this thread, too. I've been thinking about everyone and wondering how you all were doing!

Fable- It's so good to hear from you! How was the rest of your pregnancy and labor? Is being a mom everything you had hoped it would be?

Andi- I've been quietly stalking you a bit, and I was so, so happy to see you got a surprise BFP and nearly have your rainbow! It's hard to believe that you are almost there. Do you feel ready? Nervous? A bit of both?

AFM- I wish I had a better update to give all of you. I finally started seeing an RE this summer. I have elevated levels of FSH and my AMH is undetectable. At my first folicle check I had a grand total of 1 folicle. There have been more at my last two counts. I think I was up to four on Monday. To make matters worse, I had another chemical pregnancy last weekend. I got a BFP on Friday morning, and started a full flow that afternoon. By Sunday my tests were negative. This was my fourth chemical. I was so sure that this one would be my rainbow because my body is in a much more balanced state. It was heartbreaking. I saw the RE on Monday and she said her educated guess would be that the chemicals are happening due to chromosomal abnormalities. I got the impression that she thinks it's due to poor egg quality. She mentioned that if we did IVF and tested the embryos, that there was a good chance that none of them would be normal and I would have gone he through all that stress for nothing. This was really hard to hear. I have an official consultation on Wednesday next week to discuss next steps.
Me: 37
DH: 36
One adorable puppy

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December 2015-BFP, MC @ 5 weeks :angel:
January 2016-started acupuncture
December 2016-Clomid 50 mg, chemical
July 2017-1st RE visit, AMH undetectable
2nd RE visit-High FSH, high estrogen, AMH undetectable
October 2017- another chemical
Praying for a rainbow
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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby AndiA108 » Fri Oct 27, 2017 3:55 pm

Oh Janiete, I'm so sorry to hear that! I'm glad you're seeing an RE. I know it had to be so hard to hear about IVF. I'm curious, has anyone suggested karyotyping for you? My husband and I were about to do that before I got my bfp. Basically the doctor thought the same thing, 3 miscarriages because of chromosomal ab. and that by doing the karyotype test we could know if one or both of us had a chromosomal ab. They do this anyways in IVF but the karyotype test was pretty inexpensive when I called the insurance. Compared to costs of IVF we were about to decide to do it. Just make sure you get a diagnosis code. Mine was 'recurrent miscarriage'.

You made me smile when you said you were quietly stalking me haha. I am quite nervous. Not to be too graphic but my last miscarriage was so painful it makes me scared for the pain of birth! I just have to keep a positive mind that this time the pain will be for a wonderful purpose.

Fabel - How is your little one doing?
ME: 29, DH: 31
TTC #1 since November 2014

01/2014 - MC 6wks
12/2015 - MC 5wks
2 Rounds Clomid 50mg - BFN
(NTNP Feb 2016 - April 2016)
09/2016 - Round 3 Clomid 50mg + 200mg CoQ10 3xs Day
10/2016 - Clomid Challenge Test 100mg - Responded well
11/2016 - Clomid 100mg - BFP 12/03/2016 -- Ended in a miscarriage: 12/22/2016

3 months after our miscarriage... 03/22/2017 - Unexpected BFP. Praying this is our rainbow baby.
04/11/2017 - 6w5d saw the heartbeat!
04/19/2017 - 8w5d heartbeat still strong @ 178 :D
06/28/2017 - It's a boy! <3

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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby fabel » Fri Oct 27, 2017 10:22 pm

Janeite - I am so sorry that things have been so rough for you. However I don't understand how your doctor or any doc can predict the outcome of IVF without testing for chromosomal abnormalities. Please don't give up because of what she said. You still have options. Did she give you a plan?

Andi - My little one,a girl keeps me busy. Tbh, motherhood is the best thing that can happen to a woman. I cannot imagine my life without her but.... its life changing in a Big way. That is something I guess I wasn't really prepared for (although everyone kept telling).
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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby AndiA108 » Mon Nov 06, 2017 12:16 pm

Janeite - just check in to see how things were? Is your appointment this week or was it last week?

Fabel - that is so sweet!! That's the first time I've heard someone say such positive things about motherhood. usually i get the negative response of "how hard it is" "newborn phase sucks". Thank you for being positive!!
ME: 29, DH: 31
TTC #1 since November 2014

01/2014 - MC 6wks
12/2015 - MC 5wks
2 Rounds Clomid 50mg - BFN
(NTNP Feb 2016 - April 2016)
09/2016 - Round 3 Clomid 50mg + 200mg CoQ10 3xs Day
10/2016 - Clomid Challenge Test 100mg - Responded well
11/2016 - Clomid 100mg - BFP 12/03/2016 -- Ended in a miscarriage: 12/22/2016

3 months after our miscarriage... 03/22/2017 - Unexpected BFP. Praying this is our rainbow baby.
04/11/2017 - 6w5d saw the heartbeat!
04/19/2017 - 8w5d heartbeat still strong @ 178 :D
06/28/2017 - It's a boy! <3

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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby fabel » Mon Nov 06, 2017 2:43 pm

Andi - I am glad that I could give you some positive feedback. How're you doing otherwise? Excited that DD is so close? ;)

Janeite - how are you doing?
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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby AndiA108 » Tue Nov 07, 2017 2:00 pm

Fabel - Yes! I am ready for him to be here and in my arms. I am dreading labor a bit, pretty scared of the whole thing, but I am at the point where I am ready to get it over with so I can meet my boy! I've had braxton hicks all day today. So we will see where that leaves me. Nothing that makes me think, oh this is labor, yet.
ME: 29, DH: 31
TTC #1 since November 2014

01/2014 - MC 6wks
12/2015 - MC 5wks
2 Rounds Clomid 50mg - BFN
(NTNP Feb 2016 - April 2016)
09/2016 - Round 3 Clomid 50mg + 200mg CoQ10 3xs Day
10/2016 - Clomid Challenge Test 100mg - Responded well
11/2016 - Clomid 100mg - BFP 12/03/2016 -- Ended in a miscarriage: 12/22/2016

3 months after our miscarriage... 03/22/2017 - Unexpected BFP. Praying this is our rainbow baby.
04/11/2017 - 6w5d saw the heartbeat!
04/19/2017 - 8w5d heartbeat still strong @ 178 :D
06/28/2017 - It's a boy! <3

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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby Janeite<3 » Mon Nov 13, 2017 3:03 pm

Hi ladies,

I'm still alive over here. I just needed to work some stuff out and I wasn't yet ready to rehash it all on "paper." I didn't feel like I was in a place to relive everything and then process it all again. I think I'm doing better now, so here goes:

Basically, my FSH levels are through the roof. The last reading was 36 when it's supposed to be under 10. So it's looking like I'm headed towards premature ovarian failure. Why, I don't know. Because if this, I'm not a candidate for IVF. It just won't give me any improved chances. The doctor said that since I still have a cycle, our best option is to continue to try naturally for now and then maybe consider egg donation. I'm going to have my levels checked a few more times. Right now we only have two readings, so it's hard to see any kind of trend from so little data.

With my FSH levels as high as they are, it's also possible that some or all my BFPs were false positives. Apparently, high FSH can trigger a false positive on a preg test, just like a pregnant lady might get a positive ovulation test. I guess the hormones LH, FSH and HCG are all closely related. I'm certain my very first one was a true loss--my LP was like 20 days long and when I had the blood test the results came back at 3. So, technically a negative, but by the time I had the blood test, my HPTs had all but faded. The beta from last year's loss was well under 1. This most recent one came back at a 1, but it was also taken after my tests had faded. So I really don't know what to think. I'm supposed to call the clinic immediately when I get another positive and go in for a blood test to see if it's positive and to check progesterone.

I'm really trying not to let myself become a statistic in all this, but it's a real challenge at times. The potential decisions ahead seem really, really scary to me right now, and I don't even want to think about them.

Sorry that this was all about me. I do think of you ladies often and I'll try to be a better friend.
Me: 37
DH: 36
One adorable puppy

TTC #1 since August 2014

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December 2015-BFP, MC @ 5 weeks :angel:
January 2016-started acupuncture
December 2016-Clomid 50 mg, chemical
July 2017-1st RE visit, AMH undetectable
2nd RE visit-High FSH, high estrogen, AMH undetectable
October 2017- another chemical
Praying for a rainbow
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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby AndiA108 » Tue Nov 14, 2017 9:26 am

Janeite, don't you worry about taking your time to respond on here! It is completely understandable! I am so sorry to hear you got that news about your FSH levels. I agree with you and sounds like two of the losses were true losses so I think there is hope for you! I know it is so hard to not think of yourself as a statistic but my husband always reminded me to remember that is what it is a statistic and God has a hand in all of this as well. I will be praying for you! Hang in there, I know your story is not over yet!!
ME: 29, DH: 31
TTC #1 since November 2014

01/2014 - MC 6wks
12/2015 - MC 5wks
2 Rounds Clomid 50mg - BFN
(NTNP Feb 2016 - April 2016)
09/2016 - Round 3 Clomid 50mg + 200mg CoQ10 3xs Day
10/2016 - Clomid Challenge Test 100mg - Responded well
11/2016 - Clomid 100mg - BFP 12/03/2016 -- Ended in a miscarriage: 12/22/2016

3 months after our miscarriage... 03/22/2017 - Unexpected BFP. Praying this is our rainbow baby.
04/11/2017 - 6w5d saw the heartbeat!
04/19/2017 - 8w5d heartbeat still strong @ 178 :D
06/28/2017 - It's a boy! <3

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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby Janeite<3 » Mon Nov 20, 2017 7:15 am

Thank you, Andi. I'm feeling better. I started journaling and I think I'm going to stop taking my temperature in an attempt to let go of the things I can't control. I go in today for another FSH reading. Praying it is lower than the last one!

How are you feeling? You are so close now! Do we have a Thanksgiving baby in store?
Me: 37
DH: 36
One adorable puppy

TTC #1 since August 2014

-------------------------------------
December 2015-BFP, MC @ 5 weeks :angel:
January 2016-started acupuncture
December 2016-Clomid 50 mg, chemical
July 2017-1st RE visit, AMH undetectable
2nd RE visit-High FSH, high estrogen, AMH undetectable
October 2017- another chemical
Praying for a rainbow
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Re: Babydust Buddies....with hope for 2017

Postby fabel » Thu Nov 23, 2017 3:40 pm

Hello Andi - I read your update in one of the other groups. I am so sorry girl. I really have no words to express how sorry me and my husband are for you. Who knew we will see this day. My God (or whoever you believe in) givr you all the strength you need to get through this tough time. May your little angel rest in peace. If you need to talk or something I will be here. If you need more personal contact, do let me know. I will send you my email address. I am crying with you. Losing a child is one of the worst things that can happen to a mother. Please stay strong and let us know if we can do anything for you.
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