New Beginnings

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Re: New Beginnings

Postby whoz » Fri Nov 24, 2017 4:12 pm

Andi, I don't know what to say except this is just such terrible, awful news. So heartbreaking, it's unbelievable. How could this happen??????
Me: 31
DH: 29
DS born July 2015
TTC #2 since January 2016
BFP Sept 2016 after weaning DS
MMC at 12 weeks - Nov 2016 (baby passed away at 6 weeks)
Fertility testing March 2017. Unexplained secondary infertility.
Trying naturally (with an arsenal of natural treatments) Dec 2016 - April 2017 - BFNs
3 rounds of clomid (50mg, 100mg, 150mg) all BFNs - May - June 2017
Laproscopy (Sept 2017) - Endo confirmed and removed
Fertility treatment October - December 2017
Surprise BFP! - January 2018
EDD - September 12, 2018

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Re: New Beginnings

Postby whoz » Fri Nov 24, 2017 4:21 pm

Of course you miss him and I am sure he was the most beautiful 39-week baby! I hope you took pictures, and had a long stretch with him, although I'm sure it was not long enough.

I don't want to take away from your pain. Only to say that one of my closest friends lost her baby at 39 weeks, too. She has survived. I pray for deep, deep comfort, support during this time.
Me: 31
DH: 29
DS born July 2015
TTC #2 since January 2016
BFP Sept 2016 after weaning DS
MMC at 12 weeks - Nov 2016 (baby passed away at 6 weeks)
Fertility testing March 2017. Unexplained secondary infertility.
Trying naturally (with an arsenal of natural treatments) Dec 2016 - April 2017 - BFNs
3 rounds of clomid (50mg, 100mg, 150mg) all BFNs - May - June 2017
Laproscopy (Sept 2017) - Endo confirmed and removed
Fertility treatment October - December 2017
Surprise BFP! - January 2018
EDD - September 12, 2018

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Re: New Beginnings

Postby AndiA108 » Fri Nov 24, 2017 7:55 pm

Thank you ladies. Our hearts are just so broken. Every morning feels like a bad ground hog day. It is so hard to get moving in the morning for the day. We were able to make it to this holiday market and get out of house for a bit today. I thought I would have a panic attack being around happy people but we both did ok. I have no idea how we'll get through this. I keep wanting to pray but can't. How can I believe in prayer ever again?

We did get photos. I am so happy we have them. It helps to look at his face and hold him close. He was so perfect and looks so peaceful, like he is just taking a nap.

Does anyone know if we can do a private group message? When I'm ready I would like to share a photo of him but would prefer to do it privately vs a public forum.
01/2014 - MC 6wks
12/2015 - MC 5wks
2 Rounds Clomid 50mg - BFN
(NTNP Feb 2016 - April 2016)
09/2016 - Round 3 Clomid 50mg + 200mg CoQ10 3xs Day
10/2016 - Clomid Challenge Test 100mg - Responded well
11/2016 - Clomid 100mg - BFP 12/03/2016 -- Ended in a miscarriage: 12/22/2016

3 months after our miscarriage... 03/22/2017 - Unexpected BFP. Praying this is our rainbow baby.
04/11/2017 - 6w5d saw the heartbeat!
04/19/2017 - 8w5d heartbeat still strong @ 178 :D
06/28/2017 - It's a boy! <3

Our baby boy passed away at 39 weeks due to a true knot in his cord. Our hearts are broken.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Nickysy » Fri Nov 24, 2017 10:13 pm

Andi: I am so sorry. I know words can't be enough at this moment. Just know that we are here. And you can talk. Your lil boy will always hold a special place in our lives. Hugs. We love you.

I don't know about pvt group message. But if you feel like it, I can share my email id. May be, we can form a mail group. Let me know.
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Mild endometriosis and PCOD diagnosed feb 2015, DH: Slightly low morphology, great counts.

Nov-Dec 2015- Clomid plus trigger- BFN
HSG-Feb 2016: Tubes perfectly clear
March 2016 IUI: Clomid+Estrogen+ HCG trigger+ Progesterone: BFN
Feb and March 2017- IUI ( Clomid + Hcg Trigger+ Progesterone)- BFN

IVF#1- May-June 2017: 6 embabies frozen on day 3. No fresh transfer.

FET#1- Oct 2017: 3 embabies * day 3 Transferred. Chemical pregnancy.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Danaa » Sat Nov 25, 2017 5:38 am

Andi all my love to you and your husband.
Women are stronger than we know,the pain never goes away, you just learn to cope and accept the situation,as for prayer,I have a feeling that God will speak to you at one point,when He knows you are ready.
After my boys I never thought I will become this close to God,and now I’m praying from time to time I fast every week....
I don’t know whT and how to say it to make you feel better.....Im soooo sorry and i can give u my email for pictures or if you ladies want we can create an whatsapp group chat.
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After 3 years in which we tried everything we are doing IVF in Greece with Iakentro Athens.
Short Protocol with Bemfola and Cetrotide
19mature eggs and we have 9 day5 blasto.
FET#1 ended in a very early loss,chemical pregnancy.
FET#2 ended in a loss at 22w due to IC,my boys will be forever in my heart .
FET#3 MMC at the 10 weeks ultrasound.
FET#4 2018
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby whoz » Sat Nov 25, 2017 9:35 am

Andi, it IS a terrible ground hog day. I am so very sorry. I am so glad you got out today. I don't know how anyone can move on from it? My friend just really mourned intensely for months and rocked and rocked in baby Liam's rocking chair. I hope you can take time off of work. You should still get maternity leave.
Me: 31
DH: 29
DS born July 2015
TTC #2 since January 2016
BFP Sept 2016 after weaning DS
MMC at 12 weeks - Nov 2016 (baby passed away at 6 weeks)
Fertility testing March 2017. Unexplained secondary infertility.
Trying naturally (with an arsenal of natural treatments) Dec 2016 - April 2017 - BFNs
3 rounds of clomid (50mg, 100mg, 150mg) all BFNs - May - June 2017
Laproscopy (Sept 2017) - Endo confirmed and removed
Fertility treatment October - December 2017
Surprise BFP! - January 2018
EDD - September 12, 2018

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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Nickysy » Sat Nov 25, 2017 10:58 am

Andi: I agree with Danaa's idea. We can form a watsapp group or mail group. Whatever you are comfortable with. Please let us know whenever you feel like talking.
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Me(33), DH (31), Ttc#1 since Sep 2015
Mild endometriosis and PCOD diagnosed feb 2015, DH: Slightly low morphology, great counts.

Nov-Dec 2015- Clomid plus trigger- BFN
HSG-Feb 2016: Tubes perfectly clear
March 2016 IUI: Clomid+Estrogen+ HCG trigger+ Progesterone: BFN
Feb and March 2017- IUI ( Clomid + Hcg Trigger+ Progesterone)- BFN

IVF#1- May-June 2017: 6 embabies frozen on day 3. No fresh transfer.

FET#1- Oct 2017: 3 embabies * day 3 Transferred. Chemical pregnancy.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby faithrock » Sat Nov 25, 2017 9:42 pm

Andia: It will take time to heal. Getting out was a huge step forward. I know I stayed in my room for weeks and cried. I couldn't understand why. It was like time stood still. I got pictures as well. The hospital made a little sleeping bag for her and a special keepsake box with all of her measurements and footprints and pretty little seashells. It's been over a decade but it still stings. And like Danaa said, not sure when you will be able to pray again but I know it was the last thing on my mind when I was on my knees again..but prayer saved me. One day at a time. :hugs:
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby starMint » Sun Nov 26, 2017 12:38 pm

Andi - I am so happy that there are others on this site that can give you hope. xoxo
Me: 39 DH:46
TTC#1 since August 2012
Transfer 1 - BFN; Transfer 2 BFN
IVF#3 20 eggs retrieved (12/13/17); 12 fertilized; 2 5-day blasts!
150iu gonalF+150iu Menopur x 14 days (6xCetrotide) , 2000iu hcg + Luprene trigger (5 weeks of 7 units hGH started 11/1)
IVF#2 - 19 eggs retrieved(12/8/16) (11 mature) 10 fertilized, 0 blasts
7 units hGH x 43 days (from 10/24 until trigger), 150iu Follistim+150iu Menopur x 13 days (with last three days the Menopur dropped to 75iu; 4x250iu Ganirelix), 2000iu hcg + Luprene trigger
IVF#1 26 eggs retrieved (9/16/16), 14 fertilized, 0 blasts
225iu Follistim + 75iu Menopur x 13 days (last two days the Follistim dropped to 150iu; 4xGanirelix), 2000iu hcg + Luprene trigger + 2mg Estradiol


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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Momma-of4 » Mon Nov 27, 2017 7:57 am

Just checking in. Andi I'm praying for you and your husband.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby starMint » Mon Nov 27, 2017 9:03 am

A little update on me --- I am starting my stims tonight! first US to track how my follicles are doing will be Friday.
Me: 39 DH:46
TTC#1 since August 2012
Transfer 1 - BFN; Transfer 2 BFN
IVF#3 20 eggs retrieved (12/13/17); 12 fertilized; 2 5-day blasts!
150iu gonalF+150iu Menopur x 14 days (6xCetrotide) , 2000iu hcg + Luprene trigger (5 weeks of 7 units hGH started 11/1)
IVF#2 - 19 eggs retrieved(12/8/16) (11 mature) 10 fertilized, 0 blasts
7 units hGH x 43 days (from 10/24 until trigger), 150iu Follistim+150iu Menopur x 13 days (with last three days the Menopur dropped to 75iu; 4x250iu Ganirelix), 2000iu hcg + Luprene trigger
IVF#1 26 eggs retrieved (9/16/16), 14 fertilized, 0 blasts
225iu Follistim + 75iu Menopur x 13 days (last two days the Follistim dropped to 150iu; 4xGanirelix), 2000iu hcg + Luprene trigger + 2mg Estradiol


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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Nickysy » Mon Nov 27, 2017 1:41 pm

Andi: Just checking in to see if you are doing ok. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts.

Star: Thats good news. Fxed this cycle is all you want it to be. Good luck.
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Me(33), DH (31), Ttc#1 since Sep 2015
Mild endometriosis and PCOD diagnosed feb 2015, DH: Slightly low morphology, great counts.

Nov-Dec 2015- Clomid plus trigger- BFN
HSG-Feb 2016: Tubes perfectly clear
March 2016 IUI: Clomid+Estrogen+ HCG trigger+ Progesterone: BFN
Feb and March 2017- IUI ( Clomid + Hcg Trigger+ Progesterone)- BFN

IVF#1- May-June 2017: 6 embabies frozen on day 3. No fresh transfer.

FET#1- Oct 2017: 3 embabies * day 3 Transferred. Chemical pregnancy.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Danaa » Mon Nov 27, 2017 4:40 pm

Andi thinking of you.
Star yay I’m so happy!!!Im fxing hard for you!!!
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Me 29
DH 31
After 3 years in which we tried everything we are doing IVF in Greece with Iakentro Athens.
Short Protocol with Bemfola and Cetrotide
19mature eggs and we have 9 day5 blasto.
FET#1 ended in a very early loss,chemical pregnancy.
FET#2 ended in a loss at 22w due to IC,my boys will be forever in my heart .
FET#3 MMC at the 10 weeks ultrasound.
FET#4 2018
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby 7Mk1973 » Mon Nov 27, 2017 5:05 pm

Hello lovely ladies. Yay Star for getting your stems stared. You are that much closer to a bfp. Thinking of you and your family Andia. Hey to eoe. Afm I've officially o'd so now for the tww. I feel good about our bd schedule. We hit all my high fertile days except one. Already covered today as well, but will probably give it one more go tonight just to put icing on the cake. That is all except for hugs, baby dust, and sticky vibes to us all.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby whoz » Mon Nov 27, 2017 7:05 pm

Andi, thinking about you all the time and can't imagine the pain you're in. Faith, how did you make it through? How old was your DD when was died?

Star, thank you so much for your update. I've been eager to know what's going on with you and can't wait for all the updates.
Me: 31
DH: 29
DS born July 2015
TTC #2 since January 2016
BFP Sept 2016 after weaning DS
MMC at 12 weeks - Nov 2016 (baby passed away at 6 weeks)
Fertility testing March 2017. Unexplained secondary infertility.
Trying naturally (with an arsenal of natural treatments) Dec 2016 - April 2017 - BFNs
3 rounds of clomid (50mg, 100mg, 150mg) all BFNs - May - June 2017
Laproscopy (Sept 2017) - Endo confirmed and removed
Fertility treatment October - December 2017
Surprise BFP! - January 2018
EDD - September 12, 2018

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