New Beginnings

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Re: New Beginnings

Postby AndiA108 » Mon Nov 27, 2017 8:48 pm

Thanks ladies. If any one is up for a whatsapp group lime Dana suggested I'd like that.

I just don't see how life can be normal again. I went to the grocery store and had to leave because thus thought entered my mind, "But my baby boy should be here with me and He's not." And thag will never change. I will always want him back in my arms. I am really struggling with God. I know he did not make this happen but my goodness couldn't he have looked out for us a little here? How much more pain can we take? Why do we have to endure all this suffering. Why can't I just have my son with me, my baby boy who was suppose to be our rainnbow babg.

Faith, please so share how you ever went on. Was this before tour daughter? Forgive me if I am mistaken, my memory is a fog. I think you have a daughter correct?

Star, It is nice to see an update for you. I am looking forward to another one.
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01/2014 - MC 6wks
12/2015 - MC 5wks
2 Rounds Clomid 50mg - BFN
(NTNP Feb 2016 - April 2016)
09/2016 - Round 3 Clomid 50mg + 200mg CoQ10 3xs Day
10/2016 - Clomid Challenge Test 100mg - Responded well
11/2016 - Clomid 100mg - BFP 12/03/2016 -- Ended in a miscarriage: 12/22/2016

3 months after our miscarriage... 03/22/2017 - Unexpected BFP. Praying this is our rainbow baby.
04/11/2017 - 6w5d saw the heartbeat!
04/19/2017 - 8w5d heartbeat still strong @ 178 :D
06/28/2017 - It's a boy! <3

11/18/2017 - Our hearts will forever be changed. Our baby boy was born in to the hands of God at 39 weeks and 1 day due to a true knot in his cord. Truly heart broken.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby AndiA108 » Mon Nov 27, 2017 8:49 pm

Oh btw, on my phone so terrible typos... sorry for that.
ME: 29, DH: 31
TTC #1 since November 2014

01/2014 - MC 6wks
12/2015 - MC 5wks
2 Rounds Clomid 50mg - BFN
(NTNP Feb 2016 - April 2016)
09/2016 - Round 3 Clomid 50mg + 200mg CoQ10 3xs Day
10/2016 - Clomid Challenge Test 100mg - Responded well
11/2016 - Clomid 100mg - BFP 12/03/2016 -- Ended in a miscarriage: 12/22/2016

3 months after our miscarriage... 03/22/2017 - Unexpected BFP. Praying this is our rainbow baby.
04/11/2017 - 6w5d saw the heartbeat!
04/19/2017 - 8w5d heartbeat still strong @ 178 :D
06/28/2017 - It's a boy! <3

11/18/2017 - Our hearts will forever be changed. Our baby boy was born in to the hands of God at 39 weeks and 1 day due to a true knot in his cord. Truly heart broken.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby faithrock » Mon Nov 27, 2017 10:52 pm

Andi: I lost my first pregnancy over a decade ago just like Danaa. Cervix gave way and I delivered a lil wee one at 22wks. I think the worst part was never hearing her say mama. It is so hard. You are so right when you say life will never be 'normal' again. It took years for me to not reference everything I did or said to 'before the baby' or 'after the baby'. Your whole world is interrupted. You leave the hospital with empty belly and arms. It doesn't feel right.

I only made it because God picked me up. I had let go of life. I listen to music as therapy all the time. And through the words of a Christian song I just opened my eyes again and began to understand the 'why' of it all for me.

It's the worst pain I can think of but the sun does shine again. I'm glad I woke up in time of enough to see that. I have a healthy seven year old daughter who gets a lil bit taller every time I blink.

Please allow yourself time to grieve and explore how everything makes you feel. I pray that you and your husband have some one to talk to. It can help to talk it out. Or cry it out with others.

Sending you my deepest condolences.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby faithrock » Mon Nov 27, 2017 10:59 pm

Whoz: I think I answered your question in my response to Andi. I hope you are well.Any updates?hugs

Mk: FX!! I'm really hoping with your longer cycles you catch that egg.

Star: You got this. Praying all goes smoothly.

Hi EOE

AFM: 13dpo waiting to start new cycle. I'm not medicated and doing well. I see doc in 2 weeks to find out if cysts have resolved. From there he is going to let me know how he is going to get us pregnant. I have cooled my jets a bit but my husband coos and awwws at any commercial with lil babies in it. It would be our only child together and I really want him to look into his own eyes but..geesh..I'm feeling my age. It will definitely be a miracle baby
Ok gotta get some shut eye, work has me busy busy. Hugs y'all.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Nickysy » Tue Nov 28, 2017 9:44 am

Andi: Please take all the time you need. Hugs. Really wishing i could be there. Just to sit next to you. Even though at this point of time, words can't provide much comfort. Jlike Faith mentioned, just try to talk. Cry, mourn, but don't bottle up your feelings. I am up for watsapp group as well. Will message you and Danna personally my number.

Faith: I remember the story about your daughter. And I am glad you found your way up. Hoping for another miracle baby for you soon.

Danaa: When is your next scan? I hope you are doing ok.

EOE, hello. If anyone else would like to join in watsapp group, lets do it.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby faithrock » Tue Nov 28, 2017 10:40 am

I would like to as well. Do I just text Danaa my number?
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Nickysy » Tue Nov 28, 2017 11:23 am

Faith: Yup. Just text her your number.
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Me(33), DH (31), Ttc#1 since Sep 2015
Mild endometriosis and PCOD diagnosed feb 2015, DH: Slightly low morphology, great counts.

Nov-Dec 2015- Clomid plus trigger- BFN
HSG-Feb 2016: Tubes perfectly clear
March 2016 IUI: Clomid+Estrogen+ HCG trigger+ Progesterone: BFN
Feb and March 2017- IUI ( Clomid + Hcg Trigger+ Progesterone)- BFN

IVF#1- May-June 2017: 6 embabies frozen on day 3. No fresh transfer.

FET#1- Oct 2017: 3 embabies * day 3 Transferred. Chemical pregnancy.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby whoz » Tue Nov 28, 2017 5:24 pm

Andi, I really want to see your beautiful son. It's just so unfair and it makes me angry! This was your rainbow baby. How could this happen? I am grieving right alongside you. We miss your little boy as well. What is his name? Are you doing a funeral?
Me: 31
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DS born July 2015
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BFP Sept 2016 after weaning DS
MMC at 12 weeks - Nov 2016 (baby passed away at 6 weeks)
Fertility testing March 2017. Unexplained secondary infertility.
Trying naturally (Preseed, SMEP, BBT, baby aspirin, progesterone, OPKs, Fertilaid, FertileCM and Ovaboost, etc) Dec 2016 - April 2017 - BFNs
3 rounds of clomid (50mg, 100mg, 150mg) with my first anov cycle, breakthrough bleeding and all BFNs - May - June 2017
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Danaa » Wed Nov 29, 2017 5:40 am

Update from me,it seems like our baby’s heart stopped somewhere around one weeks or so ago...
I’m in shock and heartbroken,i still feel like is a nightmare.....
I don’t know how to process this....
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby AndiA108 » Wed Nov 29, 2017 8:25 am

OMG dana, this is so so terrible. How can this keep happening??? Ughhhh. I am going to PM back those that sent me their number for a whatsapp and we can create a more intimate group.

whoz - pm me your number, then I'll share details.
ME: 29, DH: 31
TTC #1 since November 2014

01/2014 - MC 6wks
12/2015 - MC 5wks
2 Rounds Clomid 50mg - BFN
(NTNP Feb 2016 - April 2016)
09/2016 - Round 3 Clomid 50mg + 200mg CoQ10 3xs Day
10/2016 - Clomid Challenge Test 100mg - Responded well
11/2016 - Clomid 100mg - BFP 12/03/2016 -- Ended in a miscarriage: 12/22/2016

3 months after our miscarriage... 03/22/2017 - Unexpected BFP. Praying this is our rainbow baby.
04/11/2017 - 6w5d saw the heartbeat!
04/19/2017 - 8w5d heartbeat still strong @ 178 :D
06/28/2017 - It's a boy! <3

11/18/2017 - Our hearts will forever be changed. Our baby boy was born in to the hands of God at 39 weeks and 1 day due to a true knot in his cord. Truly heart broken.
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby faithrock » Wed Nov 29, 2017 10:07 am

Dana: :cry: too much..just too much my friend. You have my heart filled with such sorrow. I'm so sorry you are going through this yet again. Hold on frickin' tight...don't let this drag you too far down HUGS
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby whoz » Wed Nov 29, 2017 5:10 pm

Dana, you have too many babies in heaven. I am so deeply sorry. This is just terrible. All of us have been through so much. Too much.
Me: 31
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DS born July 2015
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BFP Sept 2016 after weaning DS
MMC at 12 weeks - Nov 2016 (baby passed away at 6 weeks)
Fertility testing March 2017. Unexplained secondary infertility.
Trying naturally (Preseed, SMEP, BBT, baby aspirin, progesterone, OPKs, Fertilaid, FertileCM and Ovaboost, etc) Dec 2016 - April 2017 - BFNs
3 rounds of clomid (50mg, 100mg, 150mg) with my first anov cycle, breakthrough bleeding and all BFNs - May - June 2017
Laproscopy (coming soon)

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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Loz28 » Wed Nov 29, 2017 5:44 pm

Hi eoe
Dana, I'm so sorry. This is a nightmare.
I don't have whatsapp but Andi, if i pm you my email address would you be able to send me a picture? I would love to see your boy. He is missed and loved by so many people all around the world.
Ladies, I don't know what to say or how to feel. I am so terrified and anxious every day about this pregnancy. Our group has suffered so many losses already, life is so cruel sometimes. I hope you are finding some way to cope. Love to you all.
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IVF antagonist protocol with Gonal-F and orgalutran, started 11 March
Switched to decapeptyl triggers & freeze all cycle due to OHSS
18 eggs collected
14 fertilised & frozen
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Loz28 » Wed Nov 29, 2017 5:46 pm

Also, star, good luck with the stims. Please keep us posted on how you are doing.
Me (Lauren) 29, DH (Nick) 32
TTC #1 since May 2015
I have PCOS & Hashimoto's hypothyroidism, DH healthy
Letrozole 5mg CD2-6 since June 2016
IVF antagonist protocol with Gonal-F and orgalutran, started 11 March
Switched to decapeptyl triggers & freeze all cycle due to OHSS
18 eggs collected
14 fertilised & frozen
FET May 15 - BFP! DD 31 Jan
First beta draw @ 4 weeks 2 days - 725 iu/l
Scan @ 8 weeks 2 days - HR 163bpm
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Re: New Beginnings

Postby Nickysy » Wed Nov 29, 2017 10:47 pm

Danaa: I am so sorry for this again. It feels unreal. Hugs.

Andi: We all love you and your lil son. Hugs hun. I hope today is a better day for you.

Loz: I know its difficult to see sunshine right now with overwhelming feelings, please try to relax. You and your rainbow baby are going to be great. And I cant wait to meet him. How many weeks more for you?

Star: How are you?? When do you go for your fusrt scan? Hoping that stims arent bothering you too much.

We have all had a lot of losses and shared our griefs with each other. Ladies, I am feeling sad today. And having tears trying to even process all this has actually happened. To every strong female in this group, hugs and love. I wanna thank allof you from bottom of my heart for the support you have shown. I feel so connected with all of you.
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Me(33), DH (31), Ttc#1 since Sep 2015
Mild endometriosis and PCOD diagnosed feb 2015, DH: Slightly low morphology, great counts.

Nov-Dec 2015- Clomid plus trigger- BFN
HSG-Feb 2016: Tubes perfectly clear
March 2016 IUI: Clomid+Estrogen+ HCG trigger+ Progesterone: BFN
Feb and March 2017- IUI ( Clomid + Hcg Trigger+ Progesterone)- BFN

IVF#1- May-June 2017: 6 embabies frozen on day 3. No fresh transfer.

FET#1- Oct 2017: 3 embabies * day 3 Transferred. Chemical pregnancy.
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