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Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Mon Nov 27, 2017 8:48 pm
by AndiA108
Thanks ladies. If any one is up for a whatsapp group lime Dana suggested I'd like that.

I just don't see how life can be normal again. I went to the grocery store and had to leave because thus thought entered my mind, "But my baby boy should be here with me and He's not." And thag will never change. I will always want him back in my arms. I am really struggling with God. I know he did not make this happen but my goodness couldn't he have looked out for us a little here? How much more pain can we take? Why do we have to endure all this suffering. Why can't I just have my son with me, my baby boy who was suppose to be our rainnbow babg.

Faith, please so share how you ever went on. Was this before tour daughter? Forgive me if I am mistaken, my memory is a fog. I think you have a daughter correct?

Star, It is nice to see an update for you. I am looking forward to another one.

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Mon Nov 27, 2017 8:49 pm
by AndiA108
Oh btw, on my phone so terrible typos... sorry for that.

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Mon Nov 27, 2017 10:52 pm
by faithrock
Andi: I lost my first pregnancy over a decade ago just like Danaa. Cervix gave way and I delivered a lil wee one at 22wks. I think the worst part was never hearing her say mama. It is so hard. You are so right when you say life will never be 'normal' again. It took years for me to not reference everything I did or said to 'before the baby' or 'after the baby'. Your whole world is interrupted. You leave the hospital with empty belly and arms. It doesn't feel right.

I only made it because God picked me up. I had let go of life. I listen to music as therapy all the time. And through the words of a Christian song I just opened my eyes again and began to understand the 'why' of it all for me.

It's the worst pain I can think of but the sun does shine again. I'm glad I woke up in time of enough to see that. I have a healthy seven year old daughter who gets a lil bit taller every time I blink.

Please allow yourself time to grieve and explore how everything makes you feel. I pray that you and your husband have some one to talk to. It can help to talk it out. Or cry it out with others.

Sending you my deepest condolences.

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Mon Nov 27, 2017 10:59 pm
by faithrock
Whoz: I think I answered your question in my response to Andi. I hope you are well.Any updates?hugs

Mk: FX!! I'm really hoping with your longer cycles you catch that egg.

Star: You got this. Praying all goes smoothly.

Hi EOE

AFM: 13dpo waiting to start new cycle. I'm not medicated and doing well. I see doc in 2 weeks to find out if cysts have resolved. From there he is going to let me know how he is going to get us pregnant. I have cooled my jets a bit but my husband coos and awwws at any commercial with lil babies in it. It would be our only child together and I really want him to look into his own eyes but..geesh..I'm feeling my age. It will definitely be a miracle baby
Ok gotta get some shut eye, work has me busy busy. Hugs y'all.

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Tue Nov 28, 2017 9:44 am
by Nickysy
Andi: Please take all the time you need. Hugs. Really wishing i could be there. Just to sit next to you. Even though at this point of time, words can't provide much comfort. Jlike Faith mentioned, just try to talk. Cry, mourn, but don't bottle up your feelings. I am up for watsapp group as well. Will message you and Danna personally my number.

Faith: I remember the story about your daughter. And I am glad you found your way up. Hoping for another miracle baby for you soon.

Danaa: When is your next scan? I hope you are doing ok.

EOE, hello. If anyone else would like to join in watsapp group, lets do it.

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Tue Nov 28, 2017 10:40 am
by faithrock
I would like to as well. Do I just text Danaa my number?

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Tue Nov 28, 2017 11:23 am
by Nickysy
Faith: Yup. Just text her your number.

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Tue Nov 28, 2017 5:24 pm
by whoz
Andi, I really want to see your beautiful son. It's just so unfair and it makes me angry! This was your rainbow baby. How could this happen? I am grieving right alongside you. We miss your little boy as well. What is his name? Are you doing a funeral?

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Wed Nov 29, 2017 5:40 am
by Danaa
Update from me,it seems like our baby’s heart stopped somewhere around one weeks or so ago...
I’m in shock and heartbroken,i still feel like is a nightmare.....
I don’t know how to process this....

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Wed Nov 29, 2017 8:25 am
by AndiA108
OMG dana, this is so so terrible. How can this keep happening??? Ughhhh. I am going to PM back those that sent me their number for a whatsapp and we can create a more intimate group.

whoz - pm me your number, then I'll share details.

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Wed Nov 29, 2017 10:07 am
by faithrock
Dana: :cry: too much..just too much my friend. You have my heart filled with such sorrow. I'm so sorry you are going through this yet again. Hold on frickin' tight...don't let this drag you too far down HUGS

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Wed Nov 29, 2017 5:10 pm
by whoz
Dana, you have too many babies in heaven. I am so deeply sorry. This is just terrible. All of us have been through so much. Too much.

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Wed Nov 29, 2017 5:44 pm
by Loz28
Hi eoe
Dana, I'm so sorry. This is a nightmare.
I don't have whatsapp but Andi, if i pm you my email address would you be able to send me a picture? I would love to see your boy. He is missed and loved by so many people all around the world.
Ladies, I don't know what to say or how to feel. I am so terrified and anxious every day about this pregnancy. Our group has suffered so many losses already, life is so cruel sometimes. I hope you are finding some way to cope. Love to you all.

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Wed Nov 29, 2017 5:46 pm
by Loz28
Also, star, good luck with the stims. Please keep us posted on how you are doing.

Re: New Beginnings

PostPosted: Wed Nov 29, 2017 10:47 pm
by Nickysy
Danaa: I am so sorry for this again. It feels unreal. Hugs.

Andi: We all love you and your lil son. Hugs hun. I hope today is a better day for you.

Loz: I know its difficult to see sunshine right now with overwhelming feelings, please try to relax. You and your rainbow baby are going to be great. And I cant wait to meet him. How many weeks more for you?

Star: How are you?? When do you go for your fusrt scan? Hoping that stims arent bothering you too much.

We have all had a lot of losses and shared our griefs with each other. Ladies, I am feeling sad today. And having tears trying to even process all this has actually happened. To every strong female in this group, hugs and love. I wanna thank allof you from bottom of my heart for the support you have shown. I feel so connected with all of you.