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Trying to fit in

Postby ambernicole8484 » Sat Aug 24, 2013 9:39 am

Sometimes it feels like it's getting harder and harder to fit in here. I don't even recognize 95% of the names that I see on here now. Granted, I've gone MIA a lot, but most people that were here when I first joined left a long time ago, and if they came back they're gone again.

Don't get me wrong, I love this place and I think all the girls are awesome that are here and have been here! I just feel like I don't really belong anywhere. We've been off BCP for a very long time, hardcore TTC for 2 years, and I can't do any infertility treatments. I feel like I'm just sort of here.

I do get to start testing at the end of August, but beyond that I'm stuck.
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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby radkitten » Sat Aug 24, 2013 7:55 pm

I feel you hun. After 7 years it hurts for me to just watch everyone move on to treatments I have no hope of getting anytime soon and knowing that is what stands between me and having a family :(.
Me (31) - Homozygous MTHFR A1298C, Endometriosis, Left Fallopian Tube removed
DH (33) - Normal
Married - 09/09/09

First ever :bfp: 5/6/13
5-17-13 - D&C and ectopic pregnancy removal at 5w5d. Lost left fallopian tube. Right ovarian cyst removed.

Aug 2013 - 1st clomid cycle (50mg CD3-7). 5 follies, missed ovulation, timed intercourse. BFN
Nov 2013 - Jan 2014 - Follicles all on the left.
Feb 2014 - 5mg Femara CD3-7 - Cyst on left ovary, 18mm follie right ovary! Trigger 2/20, IUI 2/22 BFN
October 2014 - IVF #1. Retrieval October 22nd?


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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby ambernicole8484 » Sun Aug 25, 2013 7:03 am

Thanks girl. I know that there are other out there like me, but it just seems like they're so few these days. I feel so lost most of the time.

When are you scheduled for your first IUI?! :D
Me 30 ~ DH 31 ~ DD 11 - DS 12/5/14

BFP ~ 4/2/14 <3

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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby radkitten » Sun Aug 25, 2013 4:25 pm

I know what you mean. I've found a couple sites that specifically cater to people who have been LTTTC, but it still hurts when you feel stuck.

I have a follie check tomorrow. If it isn't on the left side, then whenever I get my +OPK. Should be sometime this week :D!
Me (31) - Homozygous MTHFR A1298C, Endometriosis, Left Fallopian Tube removed
DH (33) - Normal
Married - 09/09/09

First ever :bfp: 5/6/13
5-17-13 - D&C and ectopic pregnancy removal at 5w5d. Lost left fallopian tube. Right ovarian cyst removed.

Aug 2013 - 1st clomid cycle (50mg CD3-7). 5 follies, missed ovulation, timed intercourse. BFN
Nov 2013 - Jan 2014 - Follicles all on the left.
Feb 2014 - 5mg Femara CD3-7 - Cyst on left ovary, 18mm follie right ovary! Trigger 2/20, IUI 2/22 BFN
October 2014 - IVF #1. Retrieval October 22nd?


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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby ambernicole8484 » Sun Aug 25, 2013 8:40 pm

Well I've got my FX for a righty! I'm excited for you to have your first IUI!
Me 30 ~ DH 31 ~ DD 11 - DS 12/5/14

BFP ~ 4/2/14 <3

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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby radkitten » Mon Aug 26, 2013 5:48 am

Thanks hun! When are you going to see your RE again now that you have *some* coverage?
Me (31) - Homozygous MTHFR A1298C, Endometriosis, Left Fallopian Tube removed
DH (33) - Normal
Married - 09/09/09

First ever :bfp: 5/6/13
5-17-13 - D&C and ectopic pregnancy removal at 5w5d. Lost left fallopian tube. Right ovarian cyst removed.

Aug 2013 - 1st clomid cycle (50mg CD3-7). 5 follies, missed ovulation, timed intercourse. BFN
Nov 2013 - Jan 2014 - Follicles all on the left.
Feb 2014 - 5mg Femara CD3-7 - Cyst on left ovary, 18mm follie right ovary! Trigger 2/20, IUI 2/22 BFN
October 2014 - IVF #1. Retrieval October 22nd?


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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby ambernicole8484 » Mon Aug 26, 2013 7:03 am

Hopefully soon! I'm still waiting on DH to choose his plan. He's not very good with change and this is definitely stressing him out. I've prepared a list of questions for him to ask about and after that I'll know more about what I can do.
Me 30 ~ DH 31 ~ DD 11 - DS 12/5/14

BFP ~ 4/2/14 <3

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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby radkitten » Mon Aug 26, 2013 7:07 am

YAY! I'm excited for you!
Me (31) - Homozygous MTHFR A1298C, Endometriosis, Left Fallopian Tube removed
DH (33) - Normal
Married - 09/09/09

First ever :bfp: 5/6/13
5-17-13 - D&C and ectopic pregnancy removal at 5w5d. Lost left fallopian tube. Right ovarian cyst removed.

Aug 2013 - 1st clomid cycle (50mg CD3-7). 5 follies, missed ovulation, timed intercourse. BFN
Nov 2013 - Jan 2014 - Follicles all on the left.
Feb 2014 - 5mg Femara CD3-7 - Cyst on left ovary, 18mm follie right ovary! Trigger 2/20, IUI 2/22 BFN
October 2014 - IVF #1. Retrieval October 22nd?


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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby ambernicole8484 » Mon Aug 26, 2013 7:15 am

I'm excited and nervous. I'm afraid that they'll get in there and see that my tubes are scarred up from endo or something. I'm hoping that an HSG will do the trick. If I require any other kind of treatment I'll probably be in the same boat I was in before I got this new insurance.
Me 30 ~ DH 31 ~ DD 11 - DS 12/5/14

BFP ~ 4/2/14 <3

10 years and 11 months after our sweet baby girl, our sweet baby boy arrived <3

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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby radkitten » Mon Aug 26, 2013 8:21 am

Hopefully the HSG can shed some light. There are still some things you can try too. I know how you feel though, I didn't even know I had endo until my ectopic.
Me (31) - Homozygous MTHFR A1298C, Endometriosis, Left Fallopian Tube removed
DH (33) - Normal
Married - 09/09/09

First ever :bfp: 5/6/13
5-17-13 - D&C and ectopic pregnancy removal at 5w5d. Lost left fallopian tube. Right ovarian cyst removed.

Aug 2013 - 1st clomid cycle (50mg CD3-7). 5 follies, missed ovulation, timed intercourse. BFN
Nov 2013 - Jan 2014 - Follicles all on the left.
Feb 2014 - 5mg Femara CD3-7 - Cyst on left ovary, 18mm follie right ovary! Trigger 2/20, IUI 2/22 BFN
October 2014 - IVF #1. Retrieval October 22nd?


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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby ambernicole8484 » Mon Aug 26, 2013 8:31 am

I didn't know I had endo until last August when I had my exploratory hysteroscopy. Now that I know I think I've become a wimp, or it has come back worse than before after he removed it. The AF was so bad I'm about 80% sure I passed out on cd 2 this cycle. And that was just from peeing :shock:. I know I went into the bathroom around 4am and didn't come out until 5:58. I only know because I checked to see when DH would be getting up. I don't feel like I was in there that long and the whole time I was leaned against the wall trying not to pass out or throw up.

Sadly this is actually normal. This is gross, but I used to sit on the pot (this helps for some reason?) and DH would usually have to bring me the kitchen trash can to lean on in case I passed out or to throw up in in case I had to throw up. The kitchen trash can is tall enough for me to lean over on comfortably. I'm 29 and this started in my early teens. All this time I thought it was normal.
Me 30 ~ DH 31 ~ DD 11 - DS 12/5/14

BFP ~ 4/2/14 <3

10 years and 11 months after our sweet baby girl, our sweet baby boy arrived <3

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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby radkitten » Mon Aug 26, 2013 9:40 am

I feel ya. I have always had horrificly bad cramps, but thought it was completely normal. Now I know better :(. My cramping and AF has been worse since my D&C and lap as well, so you aren't alone there either.
Me (31) - Homozygous MTHFR A1298C, Endometriosis, Left Fallopian Tube removed
DH (33) - Normal
Married - 09/09/09

First ever :bfp: 5/6/13
5-17-13 - D&C and ectopic pregnancy removal at 5w5d. Lost left fallopian tube. Right ovarian cyst removed.

Aug 2013 - 1st clomid cycle (50mg CD3-7). 5 follies, missed ovulation, timed intercourse. BFN
Nov 2013 - Jan 2014 - Follicles all on the left.
Feb 2014 - 5mg Femara CD3-7 - Cyst on left ovary, 18mm follie right ovary! Trigger 2/20, IUI 2/22 BFN
October 2014 - IVF #1. Retrieval October 22nd?


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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby ambernicole8484 » Tue Aug 27, 2013 6:37 am

How are those OPKs looking? :D
Me 30 ~ DH 31 ~ DD 11 - DS 12/5/14

BFP ~ 4/2/14 <3

10 years and 11 months after our sweet baby girl, our sweet baby boy arrived <3

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Re: Trying to fit in

Postby radkitten » Tue Aug 27, 2013 8:51 am

Completely stark white so far. I had a follie check yesterday and I have 5 that look good for this month right now with 2 other possible stragglers. They were only at like 10-11mm though so they are estimating +OPK Thursday or Friday for an IUI Friday or Saturday. I am leaning towards saturday for IUI probably.

Will say though, so friggin uncomfortable and bloated feeling this month. It's ridiculous!
Me (31) - Homozygous MTHFR A1298C, Endometriosis, Left Fallopian Tube removed
DH (33) - Normal
Married - 09/09/09

First ever :bfp: 5/6/13
5-17-13 - D&C and ectopic pregnancy removal at 5w5d. Lost left fallopian tube. Right ovarian cyst removed.

Aug 2013 - 1st clomid cycle (50mg CD3-7). 5 follies, missed ovulation, timed intercourse. BFN
Nov 2013 - Jan 2014 - Follicles all on the left.
Feb 2014 - 5mg Femara CD3-7 - Cyst on left ovary, 18mm follie right ovary! Trigger 2/20, IUI 2/22 BFN
October 2014 - IVF #1. Retrieval October 22nd?


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