Hiya BebeCK and the rest, I'm Kat, me and OH been trying five years (plus going back to my ex, we also tried two years so I've had a total seven disappointing years of TTC) Knew something was up but never looked into it until recently, when someone advised us that funding for IVF is cut off at age 35 round our way. So as we're 31 and 32, off to the docs we go. God bless the British healthcare system, I dunno how you ladies who have to pay for all this stuff deal with it...
Learned OH is fine but I don't ovulate, or at least I didn't during two 21 day progesterone tests. Which makes sense given the lack of conception, though I have VERY regular 27/28 day cycles and always have. Weird. I think maybe I O late rather than not at all, but doc disagrees and I guess she knows best.
So we started Clomid this cycle. Which majorly sucks tbh - during the pills I had hot flushes, waking up every other hour, massively emotional (I genuinely had a meltdown at OH because his dad had the discourtesy to go and die, thereby stressing us both out and potentially jeopardising our chances this cycle in the process - major cringe! Thankfully they weren't close or anything but still, jesus, I am the actual devil!) Hopefully all be worth it though.
Right now it's cd24 for me, and I may be 4/5dpo - or I may not have O'd at all. My last ultrasound at cd18 showed my follicles still growing and the nurse didn't know (didn't care?!) when or if they'd pop. I asked about a trigger shot but she said she didn't know anything about it. OBGYN notoriously hard to pin down so no point asking her. Basically left to our own devices to see out the cycle - though I've had day 21 bloodwork (on day 22) but no results yet.
AF should be due in four days, based on my very regular 28 day cycle. Normally I'd feel her coming already, or at least my boobs would, but they're fine and happy. I'm also shattered - slept nine hours Fri night, woke up 10am, went into town and after an hour I had to come back and lie on the sofa for the rest of the day - not like me, I do not nap and I usually only have six/seven hours sleep a night. I'm also permanently hungry, also not like me at all. Eating three meals a day, plus snacks, and today I finished an immense Sunday roast which I've never done my whole life! (It was blummin' lovely too, all credit to OH for his kitchen efforts). Plus I was up three times to use the loo last night - BUT I did take a cuppa up to bed so let's not read too much into that one... Oh, and I got my CM back right after what I think might be O day (I had weird UTI pains, but hey, could have been a UTI, I drank some cranberry juice and they buggered off again the day after...) Clomid massively dried it up, then I had tons of the stuff for the last two days. Finally settling down again today.
Now, all these things could be Clomid. They could be new AF stuff. They could be PG signs (very unlikely, waaaay early even in best case scenario) or they could just be my aging body getting rather random. I just don't know!! TTC was bad enough when I was just going at it without any extra input- now with all this clomid stuff I'm proper baffled and every little thing seems weird.
TBH although we've been trying so long and we've hit our thirties, it wasn't really stressing us - we weren't in any rush. We'd only be the third couple of our friends to have a kid, it's not like everyone's having them or we'd hit the stage where everyone around us seems to be knocked up. BUT now we know there's a problem it's like we're both possessed
. OH keeps looking up from his phone and going 'hey, what's DTD? What's ECWM?' so I know he's forum-lurking as much as me. He's also just ordered some preseed as he thinks it will help, and he came home the other day with a list of 'fertility foods' he'd researched. He works at the hospital with loads of women so he's got plenty of people to talk about this stuff with. Me, I work at home, our friends live quite far away, I don't drive or anything, and I don't see a lot of people regularly, so I feel a bit isolated. Thank goodness for him, he's a rock. <3
So, that's us. Long post, sorry. I'm just hoping to find some folk who might make this whole confusing nightmare of a process a bit easier, and maybe to have some laughs and make some friends along the way.