So frustrating:(

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So frustrating:(

Postby kimk0621 » Tue May 03, 2011 11:09 am

Some days I just don’t really know who much I can take….. It’s so frustrating. All I ever wanted was to be a mommy but wonder if that will ever happen. I know we haven’t been trying that long 2 months naturally and 7 months with Clomid/Femara. How some of you keep the hope for years today is beyond imaginable to me. I feel I need to find that strength somewhere. It seems that every where I turn there are pg women and so many say oh we weren’t really trying it just happened. I’m tired of hearing relax and it will happen if not it’s not meant to be. Really you go through this and tell me what you would be feeling. …. Hubby tries to understand but as most guys they don’t really understand what I’m feeling I am sure he has his own feelings too. The drs office called today with my cd 21 progesterone levels and with Femera 5mg it went down to 10. Last month I was on CLomid 150mg and it was 37. Don’t get it. I am not sure the IUI this month was timed right but I went with what the dr said. I’m having AF like cramps today and I should be starting in the next few days so not feeling very lucky this month at all.

I don’t know what is needed to make a little miracle but today I am ready to say heck with it and throw in towel as I want to just give up…


Sorry to vent just really down today :cry:
Me 36 DH 32 TCC Aug 2010-Oct 2011 4 IUI's all BFN. Ivf Journey Sept 21 cx due to very high e2 levels 10/27:( IVF #2 ER1/28/12 antagonist protocol transfer 2/3 9 eggs retrived and 4 fertilized! BFN 2/14--devasted IVF #3 April 20th 7 eggs retrive 6 fertilized Transfer April 25th 2 Grade 4aa embies 1 frozen
Beta #1 May 7 BFN, met with dr and have been told unexplained fertility, PCOS and endo. Not having much hope:(

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Postby kimk0621 » Wed May 04, 2011 6:36 pm

I have stage 3-4 endo, my right ovary has tons of scar tissue so it doens't produce right and then last month they found a large fibroid tumor. So lots going on and my dr is pretty active. So we will see what happens.
Me 36 DH 32 TCC Aug 2010-Oct 2011 4 IUI's all BFN. Ivf Journey Sept 21 cx due to very high e2 levels 10/27:( IVF #2 ER1/28/12 antagonist protocol transfer 2/3 9 eggs retrived and 4 fertilized! BFN 2/14--devasted IVF #3 April 20th 7 eggs retrive 6 fertilized Transfer April 25th 2 Grade 4aa embies 1 frozen
Beta #1 May 7 BFN, met with dr and have been told unexplained fertility, PCOS and endo. Not having much hope:(

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Postby wannababy2011 » Wed May 04, 2011 8:15 pm

Don't give up yet. It's not over until :af: shows. BTW your temps look great!

I know the journey is hard. I don't know how I've gotten as far as I have. I just have to keep telling myself that one day it will happen. All I've ever wanted was to be a mom also. I've been dreaming of what it would be like for as long as I can remember. You're not alone in this.

Sounds like you have a good doc. I'm sure you'll find something that works for you. :hugs:
Me (Danielle) 30- ovulatory factor
DH 34- perfect swimmers!
TTC since Sep 2009
7 cycles of Clomid all BFN
2 hysteroscopic surgeries & multiple tests

Currently: on 3rd (& last) round of Femara
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