I have been struggling with figuring out when I'm ovulating so last month I decided to just stop obsessing over it because I felt like it was taking away from us and our intamacy and almost ruining it. I had some inclinations that for some strange reason it actually worked and that this was our month. Two weeks ago my boobies started hurting sooooo bad I mean they just hurt when I was sitting there doing nothing. I couldn't cuddle, hug, nothing THEY KILLED! I'd also been getting headaches. So I thought this is it! I was scared, happy, nervous, emotional, everything I didn't want to get my hopes up but I thought it was a great sign. Then I started very lightly spotting exactly a week ago. It spotted for 7 days, very light, it would only show a teeny bit when I wiped, so I hadn't lost hope..
Yesterday I was supposed to have my monthly visit and although I was still spotting it still wasn't consistant with a regular flow. I put in a tampon before bed and there was some blood this morning, but not much, so I decided I'd put in another before work. I hadn't had any crapping or bloating and I didn't feel at all how I would if I were getting my flow. Well mid day I ended up getting terrible cramps and ended up taking some iburphrophen. I'd been suffering from dull headaches pretty bad for the past week also. I decided I should check and see whats going on down there and when I went to the bathroom I had a long piece of tissue that came out with my tampon
It was 3-3 1/2 inches long with a strip of blood down the center. The best was I could describe it to the hubby was that it looks like the stuff I cut off raw chicken before cooking it.. There was also some dark blood in the mix and it was pretty disturbing looking. Needless to say I have NEVER seen anything like this and nothing like this has ever exited my body during my cycle. My intital thought was that I miscarried. It just breaks my heart. When will it be our turn?
4-9-13
