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M/C after IVF *Triplets* one survivor so far...

Postby Noonigayle » Tue Aug 26, 2014 8:46 am

I feel so lost and hopeless. After finally working up the strength (and money) for our first IVF cycle, we were elated to find out we were pregnant. Our joy doubled at our first ultrasound at 6 weeks when two sacs and two perfect heartbeats were seen! I knew carrying twins would be difficult, but I was positive I was up to the task. At our 7 week ultrasound, a third heartbeat was discovered. Apparently one of the two embryos transferred decided to split. I was immediately overcome with fear--I already knew the grave risks in carrying triplets from reading about other's struggles with multiples. My fear and anxiety completely consumed me. All I did was google and freak myself out. The only thing that gave me peace of mind was seeing my precious babies during ultrasounds. My RE was nice enough to provide weekly scans to put my mind at ease a little. My 8 & 9 week scans at my RE were perfect and all three babies measured on track with strong heartbeats. Then came my first appt with my MFM at 10 weeks when it was discovered that babies B & C (the identicals) no longer had a heartbeat and we're measuring a week behind. I can't describe the pain, panic, defeat, that me and DH felt and still do. That was a week ago today. After that appt, I visited my RE to get their opinion on Baby A (who was still going strong in his own sac). I was told that A has a 99.5% chance of making it. Two days later I had my first visit with my OB and A was still perfect and I was told then that A has a 98% chance. That appt was 4 days ago. I'll be 11 weeks tomorrow and all of my symptoms have disappeared and I'm overcome with this feeling that Baby A is no longer. I feel like a horrible person for even saying or thinking such, but I just feel it in my heart. My DH is so upset with me over these thoughts that it's starting to cause an issue. I truly feel like I'm loosing my sanity. I have a follow-up appt with the MFM this Thursday and I'm thinking of canceling it as I'm pretty sure what the outcome is going to be and I'm not ready to see 3 dead babies on their gigantic flat screen. I feel like nothing else matters in life and I'm destined for a life of heartbreak. I can't stop mourning for my lost babies and the fact that I'm walking around with their dead bodies inside me is disturbing beyond words.
Me 34 DH 35 :love:
TTC #1 for 8 years
Stage IV Endo
AMH .3
Lap to remove Endo 2009
Lupron to suppress Endo 2009-2010
7 Clomid cycles 2010-2011-- :bfn:
Clomid IUI 2011-- :bfn:
Endo Excision Surgery 2013
IVF #1 June 2014-10 eggs, 5 fertilized, 2 made it to day 3 :fertilization:
2 embies transferred on 6/28/14-- :bfp:
1st Beta 7/10/14--885!!
1st ultrasound 7/23/14--two beating hearts :hb: :hb:
2nd ultrasound 7/29/14--third heartbeat found--TRIPLETS!!! :babyb: :babyb: :babyg:
1st MFM ultrasound at 10w 8/19/14-discovered identicals no longer had heartbeats :angel: :angel:
9/16/14--found out it's a girl!! :future baby girl:
3/11/15--healthy baby girl delivered at 39 weeks via C-section @ 5lbs 14oz :baby tumble:
IVF #2--Scheduled Winter 2016 :praying:

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Re: M/C after IVF *Triplets* one survivor so far...

Postby kw71086 » Fri Aug 29, 2014 9:40 am

I'm so so incredibly sorry. I truly hope and pray that baby A is just fine!!
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Re: M/C after IVF *Triplets* one survivor so far...

Postby shellsbellsxx » Sat Aug 30, 2014 7:22 am

I am so sorry for you heartbreaking loss of babies B and C xx

I wanted to reassure you as best i can that at 8 weeks with my pregnancy my symptoms disappeared. I hardly had any symptoms other than sore boobs on and off and slight nausea that was cured by food. They really dropped off around 8 weeks and i was worried i had lost my miracle. At 9 + 1 i had my scan with FS and found two beautiful gummy bears with two beating hearts. Considering how non existent my symptoms were i never expected to be carry two! I'm now almost 18 weeks and that worry is subsiding x

Please try not to worry too much (easier said than done i know!) as the stress isn't good for you or baby A and i hope that when you next have a scan you have your take home baby still with you x
Me:37 DH:43
LTTTC #1 for 13 years
(16.10.12)... Diagnosis - 'Unexplained Infertility'
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Short 22/23 day cycles, LPD- 10days
23rd September 2013 - BFP - MC 5wks 2 dys 1st Oct '13

6th May '14 6th and final clomid cycle 2-6 50mg - :bfp: (8/9dpo)

7th July '14 - ultrasound #1 @ 9+1 - TWINS! 2 beating hearts :hb: 9+3 :hb: 8+6
31st July '14 - ultrasound #2 @12+4 - 2 beating hearts and bouncing babies 13+4 :hb: & 13+2 :hb: measuring a week ahead!
19th Sept '14 - 20+5 Baby A :future baby boy: & Baby B :future baby boy: - All looks perfect!

14th January 2015 my Babies were born - Samuel Stuart 6lb 5oz and Oliver Michael 5lb 2oz

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Re: M/C after IVF *Triplets* one survivor so far...

Postby ekkotack » Fri Sep 12, 2014 5:55 am

hi Melanie....i'm so sorry you're having to go through this. what an emotional journey! have you had any more scans since your post?
Me: Ekko, newly 35 and AMA on the front of my chart :(
DH: Jamie, 33
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Re: M/C after IVF *Triplets* one survivor so far...

Postby Noonigayle » Tue Mar 17, 2015 1:05 am

I hate when people don't update posts so I wanted to leave an update here. Turns out Baby A was a fighter. I delivered my sweet daughter last week via Csection at 39 weeks. She's absolutely perfect and I'm beyond blessed to have her in my arms. My heart still aches for the twins I lost and I'm sure it always will. I pray each of you ladies a happy and healthy bfp in the future as I know firsthand the devastation and hopelessness that follows a loss.
Me 34 DH 35 :love:
TTC #1 for 8 years
Stage IV Endo
AMH .3
Lap to remove Endo 2009
Lupron to suppress Endo 2009-2010
7 Clomid cycles 2010-2011-- :bfn:
Clomid IUI 2011-- :bfn:
Endo Excision Surgery 2013
IVF #1 June 2014-10 eggs, 5 fertilized, 2 made it to day 3 :fertilization:
2 embies transferred on 6/28/14-- :bfp:
1st Beta 7/10/14--885!!
1st ultrasound 7/23/14--two beating hearts :hb: :hb:
2nd ultrasound 7/29/14--third heartbeat found--TRIPLETS!!! :babyb: :babyb: :babyg:
1st MFM ultrasound at 10w 8/19/14-discovered identicals no longer had heartbeats :angel: :angel:
9/16/14--found out it's a girl!! :future baby girl:
3/11/15--healthy baby girl delivered at 39 weeks via C-section @ 5lbs 14oz :baby tumble:
IVF #2--Scheduled Winter 2016 :praying:

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Re: M/C after IVF *Triplets* one survivor so far...

Postby TDarrow » Wed Apr 01, 2015 5:33 am

First off CONGRATULATIONS on your lil girl!!!!!!! Yes maam she is a fighter. I'm so sorry for the loss of your twins. Saying prayers that you heal with time and find peace of mind and understanding. Also lots of prayers for loads of hugs and kisses from you sweet lil girl. God Bless!!
Me: DOB 8-1-77 DH: DOB 3-7-79
DS#1: Born 11-10-04 BF'd for 7 months
DS#2: Born 12-26-12 BF'd for a lil over 13 months :-)
I love my family!!
God Bless!!

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