I've been lurking for about week now and decided it was time to post. I hope I can join this little group. You all seem like you're having fun while trying to deal with the TTC stress. And I found TheBump.com forums to be full of know it alls.
I married DH (first marriage) on November 6, 2010. Two year anniversary is next week. DH was married previously but she died in 2007. They had a child together - he was 17 months old when she passed. In any case, I came into the picture and became an "instant Mom". While it's great and DS is a good kid, he's not biologically mine. I would like DH and I to have our own biological child. I've wanted babies since I was small myself. It's something I've always thought I would get to do, until recently.
Long story short, we returned from the honeymoon in November 2010 to me having a lot of health issues. I already had Reactive Arthritis which I contracted from a massive Salmonella infection I got in 1991 in the former Soviet Union. My former (up in Philly) Primary diagnosed me with this chronic auto-immune condition in 2008 when he found the antibodies from all four types of Salmonella in my blood. I refuse to medicate and manage this Auto-Immune condition with lifestyle, diet and exercise. The worst I take is Motrin but only when I absolutely can't stand the daily pain in my joints. Since going gluten-free and organic this past May, my inflammation and daily pain is greatly reduced to the point I don't have any some days. Vast difference from the past four years. But back to my health problems post honeymoon. The short story is I was hypothyroid and didn't know it. The symptoms look like Peri-menopause or like I'm having a flare of my arthritis (currently I'm in remission). I got diagnosed and was put on Synthroid but in the six weeks AFTER my honeymoon and before getting diagnosed I had gained nearly 30 lbs. On my wedding day I was a perfect size 8 with no alterations to my wedding dress. Since that time I had tried to lose the weight with the thought if I'm going to get pregnant I need to lose to reduce the stress on my already painful joints. So this goes on for 15 months and the weight was not coming off and I refused to try to get pregnant with the weight on. This was probably a mistake with 20/20 hindsight. I said to DH maybe we should have been Not Trying/Not Preventing during that time.
Fast forward to this past September. I go to my Primary for my annual but first I write her an email telling her I want my T3 thyroid levels tested and I'm frustrated with the scale actually going up instead of down. I had lost about 7 lbs but it took nearly 9 months to get that far. Ok so I get to my appointment and we're talking about the fact I want to get pregnant but I want the weight off. She suggests an AMH test and FSH test along with my other usual blood work. I think I was on CD7 or 8. Anyway, I go for it and a very short two days later I have my FSH in hand - normal at 4.8. But my AMH is on the bottom end of low at 0.3 just .1 away from what they consider pre-menopause. Now the AMH is not that accurate without other testing - but it scared me. So DH and discussed it and decided to start trying right away. Even though I'm TTC I am still exercising and trying to lose some weight and so far since October 3 I've lost 4lbs - tremendous achievement given the last 15 months.
So I also got my new thyroid med - a T3 med on top of my Synthroid (which accounts for my metabolism improving), and within a day my energy is markedly improved and my cycle lengthened to 26 days from 22 days. CD 1 was on October 14 - three days later than I expected. I attribute it to the new meds. I've been a straight 28 day girl with no variation my whole life until this thyroid thing. The last 15 months it lengthened to 24 days, then this past July shortened again to 22 and stayed there til I got my new meds in October 2012. I've also never missed a period in my life, had no fibroids, PCOS or cysts of any kind. I was so consistent til the hypothyroidism that I could count to the minute when AF would arrive!
During this past month, DH and I have discussed how we want to move forward and what our options could be. We have decided that IVF and/or donor eggs are out completely. We have also decided that we will try until mid-December naturally then get a referral to an RE to hear options only. We are afraid that hearing all of it could cause a level of stress that will cause us to NOT get pregnant. Given that I have NEVER tried before in my life til this last month, that I've had perfect gynecological exams my whole life, and a very consistent cycle until my thyroid issues, and that we have NO baseline we thought 3 months was not a bad timeline. I emailed my Primary and she thought our plan was reasonable and advised me to come back in Late Nov/early Dec to have hormone panels run again plus progesterone just to see if there was any different result, and she would give us the RE referral.
So now I'm learning how to do BBT - my thermometer arrived on Tuesday. I'm also learning to use OPK's, and I'm trying to pinpoint my O dates. I don't know yet but I suspect I'm either O'ing really early, or really late b/c it's def not happening on Day 13-15 - I tested with negatives every time.
I have been prepping my body with eating and supplements since January 2011, and I cleaned up further in May 2012 going organic, grass-fed and gluten free. I do eat dairy. I have no adverse reaction to it so I continue to have it. I've already got my DHA, folate and Vitamin D on the supplement menu. I'm considering CoQ10, Royal Jelly, EPO and B6. There is a full B range in my multi but I don't think it could hurt to add it. I'm also on Cal-Mag and Flax Seed Oil (for my arthritis). I'm switching from Motrin to Tylenol, and am considering adding Melatonin.
It's only been one month of TTC, but already I'm feeling discouraged, and I know I shouldn't. That AMH number haunts me even though I've read the test doesn't always measure accurately. I just always thought that within the first few times of not preventing I would get pregnant b/c that's how it went for me. I was adamant about protection before we were married - my family is old fashioned and I didn't want to walk down the aisle pregnant or carrying an infant.
So, here I am, inspired by those of you that have gotten BFP's and wanting one desperately for myself, and mourning with those of you that didn't get them.
I could also be pregnant already b/c I'm finishing my 2 WW. I will be able to test on Sat or Sun this weekend. I don't really think I am though - just wishful, hopeful thinking. AF is due on 11/7 according to my app. I'm using FF.
So that's it. That's my story and how I got here.