i have 10 children, but between my 9th and 10th i suffered 2 chems and a m/c at 9 weeks. then i had israel and got preg again in december of 11. i lost my son rand at 14 wks 5 days in march of 12. i am now just over 4 weeks pg, please pray that i get to have this little baby. my heart is so full of fear and sadness, i am just so scared to hope anymore.
after everything that has happened, i am not sure howmuch more sadness and heartbreak i can take. thank God everyday for my kids, i love them all, but having so many doesnt make it so you dont miss the others you lose...kwim? anyways, sorry for the ramble.
Mom to 10 great kids...waiting on our last!!
gabriel- 2-1-04 born too soon ^i^
rand michael- 3/24/12...R.I.P. little angel & 3 angels...missing you always