Trying to Conceive Forum

by **Eyes4alilone** » Sat Jul 14, 2012 11:52 am

Hey!! I am new here, 25, married for 2 and a half years, and whining for a baby for almost 6 months now.

The month i got married, dec 2009, i remember my uncle(he is an OB/GYN) looking at me and saying he has a "feeling" that i have PCOS. I had gained a lot of weight then maybe thats why the cursed feeling i mused. Turns out he is right, damn it! Mild PCOS it seems. I started taking metformin and other drugs this year.. January onwards. And ofcourse right when i started taking meds my DH(31) starts getting these occassional business trips in alternate weeks. Stopped meds in May coz am never gonna get pregnant without sex at the right time and thanks to PCOS, i dont know when that is!

Hate hate hate temping, checking cm, or even thinking about it coz i keep thinking about the doomed BFNs during sex!! Thisz one area i hate to plan!! I am sure you can relate!

Started having a healthy diet and voila! May and june i got periods with exactly 29 days apart!!! But yea no BFPs.

Started checking CM this month and oh my dear LOrd! What all a girl got to do to get knocked up!! Hubby started shouting "Stop digging your hole!!" LOL sorry its Yuck but i was and am borderline desperate!

We had sex a few times, 6 to be exact.. See am just finishing my masters degree so had exams this month and i couldnt "DO" it much. And i kept getting stretchy cm, god knows when i ovulated. Assuming i did, wishful thinking cant hurt.

Today, july 15th, i am supposed to have my periods. I had a little cramping and tingly bbs yest and wtf thats supposed to mean i dont know. I read a gazillion posts about symptoms, no symptoms, bfp, bfn then bfp. Conclusion? Nothing much really about my fate, but sure about a zillion women desperately wanting, praying, crying to get a child ASAP!

I just wanna share.. I just wanna let you know that i am also there, whoever is reading this post.. We will get a baby bump soon, wish we could just peep into the future and know exactly when just so we could stop stop stopppppp thinking about this!!

Turns out life aint that easy is it :-(

:-)

by **Amanda128** » Sat Jul 14, 2012 6:40 pm

Omg yes! I think the same thing, if only I could look into the future and see when, but what fun would that be? That would be wayyy to easy lol. And also, there'd be no surprise

we'll all get our bfp's soon enough, just have to stay as positive as possible. It will happen when it's supposed to happen (a watched pot takes forever to boil...the second you get busy, it boils). As hungry as you may be, watching it never speeds up the process. We're all here for you!!

by **Eyes4alilone** » Sat Jul 14, 2012 10:40 pm

Yea everyone telling me to NOT worry and NOT think about it. You know how easy thats gonna be! But ya thats a sensible thought as i know i never got anything getting worked up like this :-/

AF dint come yet. Blessed are those ladies who are sure of an impending BFP if AF dont come on time! For me, its probably coz my biological system is getting messed up again :-|

Sorry i know i sound too bitter, but i am like this always at the 2ww end :-|
Hmmm God knows better. U r ryt i should just chill and live happy. Hope we all can.

by **Amanda128** » Sun Jul 15, 2012 2:33 pm

I Used to go insane when ppl told me to not think about it! But then I realized that stress isn't going to help my progress. I was so negative and angry all the time and the only person I was truly hurting was myself. Live your life thinking about all the positives, be happy, and know that ANYTHING is possible. When I got busy, I got better

by **Eyes4alilone** » Mon Jul 16, 2012 11:50 am

Hmmm true :-) AF late so irritated :-/ which cd are u in???

by **Amanda128** » Mon Jul 16, 2012 8:49 pm

Oh lord I have no clue lol, I'm just now getting my cycles regulated and they're about 20 days long as of now. I'm on progesterone cream and cenitol. I'm taking a more laid back, having fun, not working about cm or position of my cervix. I'm over all that stress right now lol, I'm focusing on the simple and "when it happens it happens" attitude. We'll see how long that lasts LOL. How late is the witch? I hope she stays away for at least nine months

by **Eyes4alilone** » Wed Jul 18, 2012 11:02 pm

Hmmm wish i could be like you. I wil be i know. Jus that this tym my depressionz stayin on a lil a longer god knows y.

Nah no 9 months n all am juz late m sure. This happened last time i had exams too.. Will test once more coming sunday juz to see a BFN agn juz for the heck f it :-)

Hmm get ur cycles regulated soon, n u ll get a baby bump soon :-)[/list]

by **Amanda128** » Thu Jul 19, 2012 8:41 am

I totally get it, You should have seen me a couple months ago-total wreck. Emotionally unstable, depressed, angry at the world, then one day everything clicked. Things will get better for you, you're just in a funk and it happens to EVERYONE.

YES, Praying we both get our little miracles when the time is right

keep the faith and hope and JUST BREATH. Everything is going to work out!

by **Eyes4alilone** » Thu Jul 19, 2012 10:18 am

Hmm ur words r helpin me :-) i never believed i cud feel anybetter sharin but guess i cud.

Tested today BFN. How cud i feel bad when i knew thats what am gna get! :-)

Yeah will pray. For me u n everyone fighting this battle..

by **Amanda128** » Thu Jul 19, 2012 11:22 am

You'll be amazed how much better you feel getting it out that this sucks, and you're definitely not alone. I test when I know it's a BFN too...probably bc I have some sick enjoyment for playing detective looking for an invisible line haha. One day we're gonna look down and see two super bold pink lines

but until that day, we're gonna have some damn good attention to detail skills LOL. I'm so happy that my words have made you feel a bit better. Yay for progress!!! This site is great for support and love

by **Eyes4alilone** » Thu Jul 19, 2012 7:03 pm

Hmmm :-)

Sometimes i try to visualize the day i ll stare at the holy second line on the stick.. But i never ever feel like believing thats gonna happen. Ladies here comfort me by their posts sayin they never believed too, yet they got it :-)

Hmmm waiting for AF so i cud start over again..

by **Amanda128** » Thu Jul 19, 2012 10:32 pm

Ditto. Waiting for the cramping, bloating, mood swings from hell, and cravings for food that makes my @ss bigger lol. Yay! Haha, we have to keep each other in the loop bc I'm definitely rooting for you

by **Eyes4alilone** » Fri Jul 20, 2012 11:08 am

Hmm i ll b der for u too :-) its nice to hv someone who knws wat its like :-)
Today hung out wit hubby n dint think abt this for even a second. Felt calm. I need a job ASAP