Well here we are 3 years ago we started this journey I knew it wasn't gonna be easy but not once did I ever imagine it was gonna be this hard and we would still be childless
After Iui's, IVF's and all sorts of tests I don't feel we are any closer to our dream. And of course the witch arrived today and I'm home sick any way with allergies. I just feel that it's never going to go right for me. I know ladies go through way more than we have gone through but somedays I don't know how to keep moving down this road. I feel like just saying hell with it all and we aren't going to be parents but that thought breaks my heart more so than this road. I wonder will it ever go right and we will finally get pg.
Part of me wants to move on to the road of adoption and just walk away from our last frozen embie but I know there's no way I can do that. I think looking down the adoption road will make it less of heartbreak if the embie doesn't work in a few months when we do our FET. I just want for one month to work and we could just get pg without heartaches, scheduled sex or any pain.
Sorry to vent just having a bad day today. Think it's time to take some more meds and go back to bed. Maybe sleeping the day away will make the pain less.