I could just cry for you because I have felt the exact same way so many times over the past 2 years! It's so hard to explain them to other people, then listen to their (well-intended) sympathy and advice. "Just keep trying", "Pray about it", "It will happen"! It's like you're literally so tuned in to your body that if you even cough funny you're like I need to note that lol! So many people don't understand what a toll TTC & everything that goes into it takes on you mentally and physically.
The best advice, even though you aren't asking for it (hehe), I could give you is to let yourself feel this way for a day or two, let yourself be mad, sad, angry, frustrated, pissed-off, scream WHYYYYYY a couple times and then get back at doing everything you were doing TTC before. I know for me I have put TOO much time, effort, thought, money, etc into this to give up until I have our baby in my arms! That's the end goal! Focus on what you're doing this for! But first, let yourself feel how you feel, its okay, its 100% okay to feel that way, its the hardest journey I've ever been on, but it will also be the most rewarding!
Always here if you need to vent! Right there with you! (My sister is 5 months pregnant & I am throwing her shower
, so happy to be an aunt, but also a little sad it isn't that easy for us!)