Oh Ciara, I'm so disappointed for you
Especially after the line you got on your test yesterday (I broke my rule and peeked at the BFP for you), which leads me back to my rule of not testing early. I'm sure the disappointment and sadness has overwhelmed you, as it will, and you should definitely take this day to grieve and be by yourself (or BF, how you choose). All you can do at the end is get right back on the horse and keep trying, right?
THis is how I felt when I got my negative, and really, we are only human and can take so much, especially when our hopes have been built up (silly FRER) I am of the same approach and will not thinking about anything as a symptom this time, everything will only be a side effect from the prog because there was some really good ones last month that were all crap. As for OPK, because you know the clomid makes you ovulate, once you finish your last pill, try to bd every other night for 1.5 - 2 weeks and you should be more then fine, save you money for prog and more clomid and hopefully baby things
And I know what you mean about these sites - i have found 1 really good friend from this site and we now talk all the time on fb, without TTW I would never had found her. But there is so much this site has done for me in regards to making me feel bad. I didn't really know about DPO and the fact that some people can get positives as early as 8-9, its made me want to test early, buy opks, consider internet sticks and that evil BFP page. I only come on now to talk to you guys (I stopped for a while before starting clomid)
As for taking clomid in the morning, its up to you. I will tell you that this second round has been harder for me, and have been feeling more nauseous and dizzy then the last. Don't know why I am reacting differently this time, but if I was basing my med taking off of last cycle, I would have considered taking it in the morning. My nurse said she recommends at night and now this cycle, I'm glad I stuck with the night as I would not be able to even walk straight, let alone take care of Ethan. But you may have no other side effects and be better off taking it in the morning, I have no idea.
I'm really sorry that this happened, Nice to think that it may work on the first go right? Thats what I thought, maybe I'll be lucky enough to only have to do it once. I woke up this morning with a serious case of the blues (most hateful way of starting the day) and had a good cry about the negative I may get this cycle; just overwhelmed. Take your time and get back to me when you feel up to it. I'm always here.